Hi =]

[~RoadToTrista~]

Dunno where to start lol

I'm struggling with my gender identity, but I'm becoming increasingly more comfortable thinking of myself as a woman. I still question it though because when I was younger I fantasized myself as a man, although I can't imagine going that route now, and in some fantasies now I'm quite aggressive as a woman. I just turned 17 years old, and I've been feeling this way since I was 15, it stopped for a year and I thought it was a phase but it came back. When I think of myself as an adult I picture Harisu lol. I don't think I have very good social skills, I tend to isolate myself from most people at school, and I'm really shy so if I don't reply I might have had an intention to lol. I'm still in the closet, the only people I told were you guys. 

I don't intend to come out till I get therapy, and also I don't want to take hormones till I'm 18 so I'll still be able to have kids. That's another thing that makes me question my identity. :3 I know my dad would accept me but I'm dreading putting him through the drama of son to daughter. My mom is an idiot. She would throw a bitch fit, and I've heard her say that gay people are 'not human', and she likes to make fun of the kathoey in her Thai tapes. She's also been known to doubt whatever psychologists or medical professionals say without an acceptable reason. Also sometimes if I mention anything about homosexuality when not talking to her she'll outburst "I DON'T WANT MY SON TO BE GAY" and all this crap, so yeah, totally looking forward to telling her. Also yesterday she told me to use my right hand instead of my left hand because it was 'easier' lol.

So mmm yeah.

[Stephanie Stephens]

Welcome to Susan's;  It sounds to me that you are going to have a tough time figuring this all out. Take heart, you have come to the right place. The members here are the best and there is loads of good information at this site. It sounds as though your mother is not going to let go so easy. Mothers want grandkids and gay boys don't make them, so, it won't be easy. Good luck to you.

[Janet_Girl]

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[erocse]

Hi Trista,

   Thank you for sharing. I know how it feels to be shy and isolated from people. You sound like you have a good head on your shoulders. I think allot of time we think the worst case scenario but I think you will find it might go better then expected if you do come out to your parents.

  Welcome to Susan's. I hope you stay awhile so we can get to know you a little better.

   Hugs, Roxy

[~RoadToTrista~]

Thanks for the support guys. =]

I'd like to come out but I don't know how to figure this out. I believe that transsexuality is genuine, but I'm wondering if I genuinely have GID, or if it's another phase, maybe influences from something? Thinking back now there are a lot of signs to support it though, and I really don't think I want to live as a guy. =/ I asked my Dad if I could get therapy, he doesn't know why though.

And there's my mother of course. I don't think she'd disown me, or, succeed in it, she's not the type. But I am worried that the whole thing might make her do something she'll regret, like OD on her pills.

[erocse]

Thanks for the support guys. =]

I'd like to come out but I don't know how to figure this out. I believe that transsexuality is genuine, but I'm wondering if I genuinely have GID, or if it's another phase, maybe influences from something? Thinking back now there are a lot of signs to support it though, and I really don't think I want to live as a guy. =/ I asked my Dad if I could get therapy, he doesn't know why though.

And there's my mother of course. I don't think she'd disown me, or, succeed in it, she's not the type. But I am worried that the whole thing might make her do something she'll regret, like OD on her pills.

Hey, Who you calling "guys"

  just fun'n with ya,

  Hugs Roxy