Just wanted to give everyone a small look into my life one month after coming out. Feedback is greatly appreciated
Left off with my Mom being less that supportive of me going out as Zoe, still facing some struggle with her on that. She has been largely supportive though, so I still count myself lucky... Although it still hurts that she dose not want me to be seen in public, guess that is the real hangup I have with her.
I have been to two therapy appointments now, and given the go ahead for HRT. Right now it comes down to me making an appointment with my doctor to get that ball rolling again. The gravity of it is really setting in, but I am ready to begin this long road. I was thinking, it will take approx 1/16 of my life to transition (5 years on a 80 year expected life span) and by that time I will have a formal education that should I hope secure my financial future. Looking at my life on a scale like that puts things into perspective and makes transitioning look like a small blip in the grand scheme of things.
Finances are really tight right now, thinking of putting up a web-blog / donation site to document my transition. Not sure how I feel about being so public on the internet, still kicking the idea around. Seams kinda weird to think that people would want to help me out, but I have lived on the good graces of charity. Without kind people I would not currently be in college.
Been celebrating my Birthday all week. Figure sense I have no course work to deal with I can goof off a little bit and enjoy life, even in the cramped spot life has me in. Spent a little money I did not have and went wild at the thrift store on clothes & some things for my home. Now have more female clothes than male, and spend more time as Zoe than not. Used to feel weird wearing a wig, now it feels weird not wearing it, same with my pinky ring lol. My room has been Zoefied. I had never really dressed my room up before, but I have felt compelled to make it my own. I don't celebrate "The Holidays" as I am a SubGenius Humanist, so I figure a week of self reflection and relaxation with friends and family would make a good tradition.
Currently working on setting up my computer for another year of study (Did I mention I am a complete computer geek?) With the complexity & amount of stuff I have will keep me working well into the night. Going to go out on my birthday one way or another >.< Tonight I am taking a moonlight walk by myself down to the beach. I live in a tourist friendly place, feel fairly safe. I figure I will need a break in a couple of hours, will go for a stroll then.
