Well, the new beginning is on its way. As I wrote in the past I had been self meding natural form of hormones for past 3 years. However knowledgeable I was and done my research prior, no one could predict true potential of natural estrogen. It isn't regulated and studies haven't been done on its effectiveness. Lately I was disillusioned with progress and after several months with awesome therapist I finally got my letter. I showed up at the doctors appointment and had gotten what I deserved: real serving of the whole shebang. First day went by and nothing significant was happening, I was pretty sure natural hormones have done its work to prep me for this transition and then it hit me!
My brain went gray, foggy, my body shot down to a minimum required to sustain life, I felt near fainting but didn't think twice of pulling the plug on, now real, stuff! After all I have waited my whole life for this moment and even though no champagne but rather sickening feel, I felt final chapter starting to finally unfold. During my visit to doctors office I had a blood test for which I was told I must wait about a week.
3rd day arrived and no change, sleeping half a day, then walking walls, until evening. 4th and 5th have come and gone and I stared to feel gaining ground. Clarity was coming back slowly, strength as well but what was a significant, my body weight was dropping pounds. When I started first day I weighted 185lbs seven days later I was 176lbs. WOW!
Finally I got the answer from my blood work................................."honey, you are very healthy and your hormone levels are that of healthy male"
No wonder I felt I have hit the wall, my natural hormones did nothing ( well almost nothing ) to prepare smooth transition. My T was at 353 and E at 90, but the shock i have received from the real stuff was tremendous. I am slowly getting back to norm although I realize that norm will never be what it was under testosterone infected body. I am ecstatic and look towards future what changes await me there.
As always, with tremendous love, Alexia.
