I have not been "there" with this subject matter, but I think of it ALL the time and it's one of the reasons I remain celibate. I have a great fear of having to hear this one day upon trying to get intimate with someone or upon revealing (if I'm even stealth, for that matter) I'm biologically female and have no desire to really hide it.
The closest story to it I have: My first "kiss" was with a boy... long time ago, I think I was in 5th grade? Truth or Dare, of course, but it was intentionally set-up to happen. It happened on other occasions in sweet innocent. Awh! The good old days. (Boy how kids have changed, lol.) We were friends since we were very very young, sadly he moved away about a year later and we didn't keep in touch. NO internet back then either, haha.
Anyway, a few years ago I found him on MySpace and we friend-ed up. It was so awkward. We could chat up a storm as if we never parted as friends, but I still have that damn crush on him, however, I know nothing will ever happen because he likes females, and he likes them very feminine! It is the biggest slap across the face knowing I transitioned to represent ME the way I FEEL, but now lost out on a potential relationship because, the "real me" isn't of the taste of so many, including those we may have once been with, or had a potential relationship with.
And then trying to find someone, so much fear, but I see so many successful relationship and wonder how on earth they get so lucky. I feel like the food of a fetish sometimes. Who knows! It seems safe to sometimes stick with your own type (other trans. members)... but that simply would be a really bad way to think and live your life.
Hey, hopefully we are the start to the world changing and not basing love and relationships on genitalia.
