Hugs to all, I AM FEMALE...
Gals, I am flabbergasted. Stupendously surprised. While presenting as male in a supermarket a couple of days ago, shopping with my 6 year old daughter in the Latin country where I live, I gave the "frequent shopper number" of my ex-wife the mother of my daughter to the 30 year female cashier to run through the computer so I could get the discounts -- my ex doesn't mind as it gives her extra points for free stuff...
The female cashier said in Spanish, the language here, "Mrs. Vicky -----, ma'am...omg, sir I am so sorry I thought you were Mrs. Vicky..." Um, wow. What can I say?
WOW AM I HAPPY!!!
Today, I was buying more micronized progesterone and estradiol valerate in a local pharmacy, and the about 30 year old female cashier was saying in Spanish to another store on the phone to "please bring me an extra estogen I have a woman here who needs an extra box" right in front of me.
The cashier stared at my breasts a bit, too.
I had NO makeup on, and I was dressed entirely in a male shirt and male pants. Bottom-down shirt. But my breasts and nipples are starting to get STARED AT by both males and females.
My nipples protrude totally obviously from my shirt. It is obvious I have small feminine breasts, if anyone looks closely enough. People ARE staring now.
My breasts are definitely bigger than just 1 week ago.
Today, in the mirror, I was STUNNED to observie that my neck has shrunk. Yes, it is very obvious, and I am not kidding. Does anyone know if this is typical? And the front of my neck near my Adam's Apple is smooth, like a girl's neck.
Today, I noticed that the palms of my hands no longer look like my age of 56. The palms of my hands are as smooth now as the palms of a 25 year old cis girl. INCREDIBLE!
My hair is starting to grow longer, I have LOST ALL DESIRE TO GET A HAIRCUT ANYTIME SOON. Maybe after it grows some more, I will have it styled in a unisex way so I can still work as a male for the time being, but go out with my daughter or cis girlfriend presenting mostly female.
Gals, my hair is now SMOOTH and soft. At age 56, I have a little gray but not too much fortunely.
Estradiol valerate and micronized progesterone are like a fountain of youth for my hair and hands.
Gals, listen to this...
My new lengthening hair is growing anew in my natural light brown hair color with ZERO gray!!!
I have found the fountain of youth.
Testosterone poisoning is horrible, gals. I am SO happy I am correctly this imbalance in my body with my correct female hormones that my body and my mind NEED for sure.
If my hair growth continues, I want to grow my hair to at least my shoulder blades, and it appears that just maybe it will be the natural light brown of my youth!!!
Can you believe this gals? I feel SO excited.
Maybe to work a little while long as a male at the University and with my private clients, maybe I could just put my hair in a ponytail like some macho guys do, and simply do it this way when working as a male.
Then, when I want to present as female in front of my daughter and cis girlfriend and her sister at my house, and/or go out as a female, I can simply let me hair flow free and natural.
Have any of you gals had results this tremendous, so early on HRT?
My former body odor problem disappeared 3 weeks into HRT. No more body odor.
Best of all, I can FEEL INTUITIVELY as a female.
All hail our beloved estrogen and progesterone, the key to aligning our emotional and physical states with our true female selves.
Love,
Johanna.
I AM FEMALE.
Quote from: JohannaJohn on July 29, 2014, 05:36:33 PM
I AM FEMALE.
Looks like that is the under statement of the year! ;) Feels good to be who you really are and be acknowledged that way. Sounds like you definitely have hit male fail. Relax, hang on and enjoy the ride!!
Quote from: Jessica Merriman on July 29, 2014, 06:27:06 PM
Looks like that is the under statement of the year! ;) Feels good to be who you really are and be acknowledged that way. Sounds like you definitely have hit male fail. Relax, hang on and enjoy the ride!!
yea, your an extremely lucky woman . It took me 8 months before I could say I saw changes. Congratulations , your next 2 years should be an incredible ride.
Congratulations.
You gals are great here. I feel SO great about all this. You gals who are a lot further along physically than I am are so very KIND in your hearts to open your emotions to me and to others.
Gals, these mental changes to me are stupendous. These hormones are phenomenal. I can hardly believe it. I thought going in I am female, but never in a million years did I imagine my body would react THIS positively and THIS fast...
And the emotional changes...I finally can FEEL how cis girls FEEL...intuitively...but I don't think I have lost my male strong analytical ability, either.
My relationships have improved dramatically in the past 5 weeks or so, since about 1 week into HRT.
My business harmony is better. My personal friend harmony is better. I don't worry so much. Progesterone is SO calming...I feel almsot "addicted" to progesterone...my body and mind NEED this hormone for me to function properly now....
I feel a quiet confidence about life.
My cis girlfriend may move in with me during August. She says, maybe about August 15. Her sister may live with us also, at my apartment where i have plenty of space.
She is 26, and beautiful. We have known each other for more than a year, and we have NEVER had an argument. Wowowowow!
Her breasts are 32B. I told her yesterday by phone that i want bigger breasts than hers. She "smiled" over the phone, and giggled about it. I think she accepts the idea, and is amused by it, with laughs and smiles.
How amazing would it be, my gals here, if MY breasts end up sometime soon being all natural, and BIGGER than the breasts of my young beautiful cis girlfriend.
Time will tell...but probably not TOO much time will be needed, to tell...
I told my cis girlfriend in Spanish about these 2 "male fails" i had today and a couple of days ago. She listened carefully, and seemed to get a kick out of all of it.
She is SO accepting.
HONESTY with her in all respects, BEFORE she might move in with me about August 15, is all about what a great intimate relationship is all about.
Gals, I think she REALLY APPRECIATES the fact that now I can FEEL INTUITIVELY the way she does naturally...because I have the right homrones aligning my body with my true female mind.
I AM FEMALE.
Johanna.
Cynthia, Stephanie, and Jessica whose MANY posts here based on long experience at this journey are a blessing for me, and our fellow girls here.
Thanks Johanna! Just doing for others what some did for me. Believe it or not once I was a depressed and scared newbie! I would be nowhere near where I am today without our family here. It is totally amazing. I am totally with you, my body is just drinking up the girl juice. I am alive for the first time in 40 years and have a LOT of life to catch up on! I love having emotions now, but I am learning not all waterproof mascara is. :)
Congrats Johanna! :)
Quote from: Jessica Merriman on July 30, 2014, 01:50:12 AM
Thanks Johanna! Just doing for others what some did for me. Believe it or not once I was a depressed and scared newbie! I would be nowhere near where I am today without our family here. It is totally amazing. I am totally with you, my body is just drinking up the girl juice. I am alive for the first time in 40 years and have a LOT of life to catch up on! I love having emotions now, but I am learning not all waterproof mascara is. :)
Thank you Andrea!
Jessica, the Internet is truly amazing. I have lived for many years far away in Latin America, with not many English speakers around at all. Without the Internet, isolation from my native culture would be rather extreme.
Even for those INSIDE the USA or Canada or the U.K. or wherever...think about what it must have been like before the Internet...all isolated in far away cities...
Maybe one felt as you once did, Jessica, "a scared and depressed newbie"...isolated...
And then after starting HRT, and then the powerful emotions and feelings induced by these wonderful strong medical grade female hormones...
Imagine having probably no else to talk to (other than maybe an endo and therapist -- but they are professional, paid to listen -- not FRIENDS, with a common bond of experience to share for mutual benefit, for free) --
Then, maybe rejected by some, laughed at by others...
And then, like fairy magic, we have places like Susan's and other great communities on the Internet...I like Susan's the BEST but how great it is the Internet permits all such places...
Yes, I have recently learned that waterproof mascara is a toughie for fast transitions between presenting as female, and presenting as male...
Even at home, if I get a sudden unexpected knock on the door, and if I cannot ignore the knock, I cannot really answer the door with the door open if I have to present as male, because waterproof mascara looks so beautiful, but it is a bear to take off quickly...
Sometimes I use eyeshadow (I like a medium amount of pretty medium light purple, myself) and a little blush but without mascara...lipstick is easy to remove fast, too...
As a result, most of the time I don't answer the door to just anyone...people who I really WANT to see in person at my house, simply have to make a prior appointment with me now, so I can 'present" in the "correct" way...
One of the things, gals, that I am MOST excited about is the RE-growth of the natural beautiful light brown hair I had in my youth.
Gals, I am STUNNED by this...never in a million years was I even pondering this before I took my first female hormones 6 and a half weeks ago...
Gals, maybe, just maybe, I won't have to use extensions. Wow am I happy!
I am truly blessed. I have found the fountain of youth. Puberty 2.0 but in the complete sense of fresh young things like the start of wonderful female HAIR.
I mean, having my breasts stared at (which I am LOVING by the way!) by both males and females, strangers and people I know) is a totally new life experience for me, that only started several DAYS ago...
I feel like a young teenage girl must feel, maybe slight embarassment, still "hiding" them some, but the "girls" keep getting just a little bigger and a little bigger, so it is just a harder harder to "hide" them each week now...
Breasts, to me, are the epitome of female-ness, at least physically. Men don't have breasts, period. Breasts are female.
Maybe this is in part why I have had 2 surprising "male fails" while presenting as male in the last few days, without makeup.
Another physical attribute that is SO feminine and important if one can do it, is HAIR, beautiful HAIR. Nearly every cis female friend I have places a lot of attention to her hair...maintenance, and really keeping it beautiful...
Where I live in Latin America, probably on average the cis girls here try to look feminine even more so than in the USA and Canada or the U.K., for example...this includes her hair...
If in fact my ongoing longer and longer hair continues to develop as my natural light brown, flowing, with just a bit of curl and wave...wowowow will I continue to be an even happier girl!
Thank you, my family here...
Johanna.
I am female.
Quote from: stephaniec on July 29, 2014, 06:43:50 PM
yea, your an extremely lucky woman . It took me 8 months before I could say I saw changes. Congratulations , your next 2 years should be an incredible ride.
Tbanks, Stephanie...you certainly look very female at this time!
Well, indeed, I guess if present changes to my body and mind continue, I guess the 'ride" during, as you say, maybe the 2 years or so, should be rather amazing...
Gender is such a fundamental human characteristic...maybe as much, or more so, than race or ethnic group, I am not sure about that one...but gender is just SO fundamental...
I am blssed that my beautiful princess 6 year old daughter accepts me, and love to paint my toenails beautiful bright red...my share this great activity together, as "mommy/daddy" -- "maddie" maybe? -- and daughter.
My daughter is beautiful enough that she could perhaps even be a child model right NOW...I don't know how her acting ability is it has never been evaluated professionally...but my daughter dances classical ballet great, modern dance great, and can sing decently, too (as I can, at least for the singing part...I don't dance well yet)...
My daughter has noticed my breasts in the last week, and has stared at them some, without commenting in words to me...
I am delighted that my genetic cis girlfriend, 26 and beautiful with 32B breasts that I want to "beat her" on (in other words, I want to have larger breasts than hers), says she might move in with me around the middle of August...well, girls, it is nearly August now...that is what she told her me a couple of days ago...
She is SO accepting of ME, as my true self, Johanna...she LOVES that I can FEEL her emotions so much better now, intuitively....
She likely even will be working for my partner and me, as a bookkeeper and salesperson...she just graduated with an associates degree in what they call here "archivos" in Spanish...which basically means recordkeeping, bookkeeping and accounts receivable and accounts payable we would probably say in English...plus she is really truly beautiful with a lovely personality, so we can probably use her in sales, too....
Hugs, my female friends family here,
Johanna.
Congratulations Johanna! :)
Thank you so much Michelle. Or do you prefer Angelia? I am not sure if Angelia is a first name or last name.
Today in a supermarket shopping alone, a woman about 35 or 38 behind me in the check out said, "Sir, can you help me put some of these heavy items in the basket" since her arms were full of groceries. My hair is getting a little longer in natural light medium brown, but I was dressed as a male so that's okay. No problem.
Some time soon (maybe within a few months or less), even if I am dressed in male clothes, I would hope that same woman might in the future register me a fellow woman, and realize she would be requesting help from a felllow female -- which is fine, too, but then I want her to call me "Ma'am" of course (in Spanish, since that is the language here).
So I got to be "gallant" as a gentleman another time. Hey, that is just fine for now.
Since I am female, I hope that even if I am not dressed as a female exactly within a few months, that maybe good-looking gentlemen or younger adult boys might be gallant, and say, "Ma'am, may I help you with that?" which I think is one of the delights of being female.
Within a few months, when I am dressed as a female and my bra and breasts are totally obvious, I would hope that I would be treated gallantly by younger guys and older gentleman.
:)
Johanna.
Quote from: JohannaJohn on July 29, 2014, 05:36:33 PM
Hugs to all, I AM FEMALE...
Gals, I am flabbergasted. Stupendously surprised. While presenting as male in a supermarket a couple of days ago, shopping with my 6 year old daughter in the Latin country where I live, I gave the "frequent shopper number" of my ex-wife the mother of my daughter to the 30 year female cashier to run through the computer so I could get the discounts -- my ex doesn't mind as it gives her extra points for free stuff...
The female cashier said in Spanish, the language here, "Mrs. Vicky -----, ma'am...omg, sir I am so sorry I thought you were Mrs. Vicky..." Um, wow. What can I say?
WOW AM I HAPPY!!!
OK I'm going to play devils advocate ;D
Now hold on just a sec... you give the cashier (who might have glossed over you in brief, she see's hundreds of people a day) your ex-wife's frequent shopper code and a female name pops up on the screen and then addresses you in said name, then realizing you where not a Mrs. afterall = male fail?
I'm confused! I've experienced that once or twice borrowing a friends BJ's or Costco membership warehouse-club ID, but I never regarded that as male fail. :D
Hi Evelyn, Sure no problem to play devil's advocate. Thanks for your thoughts.
Well, it did surprise me to have this happen twice in 2 or 3 days...
In both cases, the cashiers referred to me as "Mrs. Vicky" in the first case and "I have a woman here who needs an extra box of estradiol valerate...' when talking to a colleague at another store, in front of me. The first cashier immediately corrected herself a i said, so it was only a "male fail" for about 3 seconds. The second cashier called me "Sir" when speaking directly to me later in the conversation, but I would regard that as a partial "male fail" to have her refer to me as "a woman here (in front of her)" to her colleague on the phone. Sure, when she was more careful, she said "Sir" directly to me. But remember I am just 6 weeks plus into HRT, so even these partial "initially identifying me as female, then changing it shortly afterwards" is a great start that I definitely didn't expect, and should qualify as at least a partial "male fail", especially with the second cashier.
But, maybe the phrase "mail fail" has a more precise meaning in the trans community that I don't know yet, since I still new here?
Embraces,
Johanna.
take a look at all the " do I pass" section you'll get an Idea of male fail
So when do we get to see a picture of you? :)
Quote from: Jessica Merriman on July 30, 2014, 06:27:03 PM
So when do we get to see a picture of you? :)
I second that
Third! Come on it is peer pressure now! No resisting that!!! >:-)
C'mon. You ppls already saw me up to bat.
Evelyn K is signed, cosigned and underwritten. ;D
Quote from: JohannaJohn on July 30, 2014, 01:56:53 PM
Thank you so much Michelle. Or do you prefer Angelia? I am not sure if Angelia is a first name or last name.
Actually Angelia is my first name and Michelle is my middle name and you're very welcome. :)
I can relate, I just got a bank account and I was dressed "male" that is an old pair of slacks, and a t-shirt and no makeup, and the teller says "This woman wants to start an account can you help her Angela?" and the woman at the desk says yes, and then she is looking at me really hard while I am talking in my male voice (I was in my male presentation after all) and then, like well before we get to the point where she needs my ID she asks for it, and then looks at it really hard and said "Is [MALE NAME] you?"
lol I am kinda finding male fails pretty funny, I hope I don't have to deal with them anymore soon, but I say enjoy it while it lasts, I bet soon enough they won't ever think you could be male :P
Quote from: Hikari on July 31, 2014, 12:14:52 AM
I can relate, I just got a bank account and I was dressed "male" that is an old pair of slacks, and a t-shirt and no makeup, and the teller says "This woman wants to start an account can you help her Angela?" and the woman at the desk says yes, and then she is looking at me really hard while I am talking in my male voice (I was in my male presentation after all) and then, like well before we get to the point where she needs my ID she asks for it, and then looks at it really hard and said "Is [MALE NAME] you?"
lol I am kinda finding male fails pretty funny, I hope I don't have to deal with them anymore soon, but I say enjoy it while it lasts, I bet soon enough they won't ever think you could be male :P
I actually FEAR those type of male fails when dealing with ID's! I mean what if one day I get frozen out of my bank account when trying to withdraw at a teller. I can imagine the headache.
Quote from: Hikari on July 31, 2014, 12:14:52 AM
I can relate, I just got a bank account and I was dressed "male" that is an old pair of slacks, and a t-shirt and no makeup, and the teller says "This woman wants to start an account can you help her Angela?" and the woman at the desk says yes, and then she is looking at me really hard while I am talking in my male voice (I was in my male presentation after all) and then, like well before we get to the point where she needs my ID she asks for it, and then looks at it really hard and said "Is [MALE NAME] you?"
lol I am kinda finding male fails pretty funny, I hope I don't have to deal with them anymore soon, but I say enjoy it while it lasts, I bet soon enough they won't ever think you could be male :P
Hikari, You definitely look more feminine than I do so far, so I am not surprised they could hardly believe that your male ID is valid. I have only been on these powerful hormones for 6 and a half weeks, so it might be better to describe what has happened to me maybe not as a "full male fail" but maybe a "partial male fail" for just 5 seconds or 10 seconds or so. But I must say this Hikari, these hormones are SO powerful, that probably in not too much longer, I will be at the stage YOU are now...
Because YOUR stage now is basically more advanced than mine. My stage is something like "initial error" on the part of 2 different female 30-something cashiers, one in a supermarket and the other in a corner pharmacy. But it is interesting that it didn't happen just once...it happened TWICE with 2 or 3 days. Man, was I surprised...and delighted of course! :)
Now, at YOUR stage, you are experiencing something close to total disbelief that you might be male. Meaning, not just initial error like with my 2 very recent cashiers...and then both female cashiers "correcting" themselves after their initial assessment of me was "female." With YOU, even after looking at you VERY closely and repeatedly, in male clothes with no makeup, they STILL could hardly believe you aren't female (as your ID states). This is fantastic, Hikari...and I hope to be at YOUR stage soon.
All the best,
Johanna.
Well, gals, "peer pressure" lol, sure, sometime shortly I can show myself to you with a photo...
But first I have some questions...
Is it okay, for the moment, to show a photo with, say, my breast area with bikini? I would expect that showing a naked small boob photo (of mine) would not be appropriate on this website...but am I allowed to post for you gals, a photo of just my breasts, covered? In bra only, is appropriate, or not appropriate, for this website?
If bra only boob showing is not appropriate for this website, is a photo of my breasts and nipples in a tasteful bathing suit or bikini okay for this website?
I think I would be okay with posting for you gals a genuine photo of my breast area to show you my nice initial development there...
For my face, I think my eyes are more female already, and I hope for more change of my eyes, too.
Any facial acne is nearly totally...wow oh wow what a great side benefit of estrogen and progesterone in full doses!
I am thinking that for my face, maybe wait perhaps 4 more weeks to let our powerful E and P femininize my face a little more.
But for now, is there a tasteful way I can show my "girls" to you, while staying at the appropriate guidelines for this Website? Do you gals have any ideas about this?
I don't want to wear any push-up bras for any posted photos here, because while push-up bras are fine for going out in public as I have many times, they aren't real "girls."
I only want to show REAL "girls" to you gals here.
Hugs,
Johanna.
I feel GREAT today. I am SO thankful I have discovered how much my body and mind NEED estogen and progesterone. You gals here, and info on some other Websites such as Tara's website, have been immensely helpful to discovering so much about ME.
well , no disrespect meant, but to be honest I don't think anybody particularly wants to see your breasts. Now maybe a full body shot
Ok, I thanks Stephanie, I will consider this...
Johanna.
Quote from: JohannaJohn on July 31, 2014, 01:22:31 PM
For my face, I think my eyes are more female already, and I hope for more change of my eyes, too.
Any facial acne is nearly totally...wow oh wow what a great side benefit of estrogen and progesterone in full doses!
I am thinking that for my face, maybe wait perhaps 4 more weeks to let our powerful E and P femininize my face a little more.
Just post your face here ;D
Do I Look, or Could I Pass, as Female? 3.0https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,163371.0.html
It's not the fabulous thread or before and after where people are generally quite a bit further on their way. You have male fail already, so being that it is a question of "if I can...?" what's to feaaarrrr.....? ;D
No "girls" photos please. Just post an avatar like pic of you so we can see how wonderful you are doing. :)
I admit, I didn't personally believe I'd achieved male fail until the day I was in men's clothes with a giant hockey jersey hiding my figure, baseball cap, and best effort at male voice - and couldn't use my ID b/c "that isn't you." That was when I had to admit I couldn't backpass anymore. :)
Evelyn : It's a fair worry! I had trouble at a bank once (trying to deposit a tax refund that came in the old name 2 years later, argh) even with my *name change form*; she kept insisting that she didn't need me, she needed me to find MaleName, and flat out would not believe that we were the same person. I pointed to the form and how it had both names, and she hollered "you need your HUSBAND, honey!!" Finally a manager stepped in and it went smoothly from there, but I'm honestly not sure the teller ever figured out what was going on.
Hi Jenna, That is a great story about the clerk saying "you need your HUSBAND, honey!"
Great you have had these results.
I hope that is ME in the not too far future.
:)
Johanna.
I know you are going to be INCREDIBLE Johanna!
Actually we are all incredible! ;D
Quote from: Evelyn K on July 31, 2014, 04:52:01 PM
I know you are going to be INCREDIBLE Johanna!
Actually we are all incredible! ;D
Evelyn, so kind and positive these comments of yours!
:)
I SO much hope so.
You know, Evelyn, more than just incredible...
We are all princesses, just like cis girls, even if (such as in my case) I have mostly hidden this for so many years.
Johanna is my true female self, and Johanna is losing her "Fear of Flying" -- to borrow a phrase and book title from Erica Jong, the female genius author of some years ago.
If any of you don't know who Erica Jong is, I recommend that you Google "Erica Jong" to see a genius totally female perspective into romance, sexuality, life, and relationships. I have loved the works of Erica Jong since I was a rather effeminate 14 year old boy.
We are all princesses, just as is my beautiful long blond hair, model-like, super-intelligent, super popular, all-around "super" girl, my 6 near old daughter, Nicole.
Nicole and I often paint our toenails and fingernails together, it is a wonderful shared activity. Maybe now I am her "Maddy" (Mommy-Daddy). Nicole is SO accepting of me. She teases me in a fun way about my bright red beautiful toenails. This is wonderful for me...I feel SO happy!
Oh, girls, I have some important questions about hair. I am not allowed to "double-post" here -- so if any of you gals are in position to help me out with some hair suggestions, I just posted my questions and details in the Beauty -- Fashion section of this Website. You gals who have a lot more experience with transitioning to our true female selves than I have, would help me become as beautiful physically as I can!
Johanna.
Hey Johanna! You're welcome! I checked out your hair thread. I noticed you really love to talk about your incredible developing nipples! I'm jealous! ;D
I can't comment about the hair because I would need a photo reference with face.
Either way, you *are* INCREDIBLE! ;D
INCREDIBLE INCREDIBLE INCREDIBLE !!!ONE!111!
Quote from: Evelyn K on July 31, 2014, 07:07:55 PM
Hey Johanna! You're welcome! I checked out your hair thread. I noticed you really love to talk about your incredible developing nipples! I'm jealous! ;D
I can't comment about the hair because I would need a photo reference with face.
Either way, you *are* INCREDIBLE! ;D
INCREDIBLE INCREDIBLE INCREDIBLE !!!ONE!111!
Yes, Evelyn, well what has happened since DAY 3...not weeks, not months, but DAYS...with my nipples is, that have stayed erect, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, since Day 3 of my HRT...they are a little sore sometimes, I have to be careful not to rub them when I am cleaning my underarms under the shower, because my nipplies and breasts are now super-duper-uper sensitive, and it really hurts a lot if someone accidentally runs into them, or my princess daughter 6 year old Nicole falls on top of me as we play, I have to now protect my breasts and nipples, as much as I have to protect my testicles, because a blow to, or scrubbing them, REALLY REALLY REALLY hurts wow I cannot believe it, I am having the same "problems" as cis genetic girls have.
My happiness level in over the moon.
Long live our beloved E and P!
Love,
Johanna. My female emotions have come alive. I am losing my "Fear of Flying" as a fearless female.
:)
A week ago at the pool, even with my chest hairs 'hiding" things at the pool, several 9 year old girls were staring at my nipples and breasts, and smiling broadly at me.
If I fully shave off my chest hairs, they won't grow back I don't think, and forever at the pool, shirtless and braless, my nipples and breasts will be very obvious...
And this is NOW...imagine what this will be like in, say, 4 more weeks at the pool...especially if I have a hair-free chest at that time...
I may have to wear a one-piece or 2 piece "surfers" type outfit to hide my breasts....
At some point, probably I will simply "come out" as female at my apartment complex...
Joanna.
Oh you seriously need to tell us more about your nipples! They sound very incredible!
Nipple male fail power! ;D
Evelyn, I just almost teared up a little when thinking about your post and what power and contentment nipples are. OMG, this never has happened to me before during normal-types of discussions -- only during major events like death or a new baby or something major -- Evelyn, these mental changes -- I never imagined my mental changes would be so profound -- how can I explain that I would almost "tear up" a little when typing an answer to you here -- what is happening to me -- OMG is this amazing and great!
:)
My eyes are a little moist right now -- OMG I cannot believe this --they are now more moist even as I type these words --
-- tears of happiness? maybe? -- I have seen this happens to many cis girls -- I cannot believe this -- what is happening to me? -- wow these emotions are amazing -- how can I describe them -- I will continue to try -- I never want to stop female hormones -- this is so amazing -- I am blessed -- now I FEEL who I really am -- OMG why are my eyes watering now -- I just had to wipe away some tears in my right eye --
I FEEL so feminine. Yikes, something like this NEVER happened to me before HRT...
Yes, Evelyn, I am so stunned by my nipples. OMG --- this is amazing...I am almost at a loss for the right words...
&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&
Going into HRT, I read that many trans-girls don't get much "development" of their nipples and areolas...and that most of the "girls" development is outward push of the breasts in a somewhat "conical" or "tubular" fashion...
For me, it hasn't been happening this way at all.
For me, after the hormes sort of "shocked" my body in the first 24 hours...I think my body was truly overwhelmed by E and P during the first 24 hours...then the E and P started to do their magic on my body and mind on Day 3....yes DAY 3 not Week 3 not month 3 but Day 3...at least with regard to my nipples...
Tara's (you can Google her) great trans girl website describes HER personal experiences of becoming a girl years ago, long before Tara had full SRS....Tara describes how her nipples started being erect ALL THE TIME just 3 days in...just like mine...
So, Evelyn, I am not the only trans girl who has had this amazing nipple experience.
Wow, was I amazed Evelyn. I couldn't really BELIEVE it, to be honest with you. But the physical evidence was obvious. I didn't have breasts of course 3 days in, but I had nipples that were tall, hard, and erect 24/7, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, and they have stayed this way ever since...now going into Week 7 of my turning my body into a girl...
I mean, my mind couldn't believe it...
But I have eyes...I can see well...and I can process what my eyes can see...and my eyes saw tall, hard, erect nipples 24/7 staring on Day 3 of my HRT.
No sexual thrill, really...more like I felt I could nurse a baby...OMG did I just say that? But it is true!
I STILL feel this way.
Evelyn, you asked me to talk more about my nipples...well, they are frequently sore...
I think they "want" to help my breasts grow some more immediately...
OMG I feel like a teenage girl...wow is this amazing...
I have white bumps all over my nipple "hills" and areolas...maybe these are milk ducts??? I dunno, but maybe.
My nipples, since about 4 weeks into HRT, have looked totally ready for a baby to nurse on them...
When my shirt is pulled tight, since about 5 weeks into HRT, my nipples are totally obvious, poking through my shirt. I mean, I am not imagining this, because all I have to do is look down, I can see well, and my eyes see totally-obvious protruding nipples through my shirt.
Now, my breasts were not for sure until about a week ago, that is to day, 6 weeks into HRT...
Now, 7 weeks in, I have breasts. They are real. They are not BIG yet, but they are real, they are obvious to the many people staring at them (which I LOVE by the way)...
Because my breasts, though not big, are definitely real, they cause my nipples to protrude even more obviously poking through my shirt.
Because the simple "outward-push-volume" of my very feminine and round breasts simply is causing my nipples to push further outward, through my shirt...
My breasts are DEFINITELY bigger now than just one week ago...I didn't take any photos, but the difference is quite obvious.
Evelyn, I am seriously tempted very shortly to totally shave my chest hairs off, for forever, I would imagine, since I doubt they will ever grow back very much...even maybe as female-type soft hairs...I don't KNOW this to be honest since I haven't done this yet, but I would suspect this to be the case...
I wonder how people would react to me at the pool, shirtless, with a smooth hairless chest, say, in one week.
Evelyn, this might be a very delightful "adventure" in transitioning, to try...
Hugs,
Johanna.
Johanna you explain your transitioning so well, with such rapid development your nipples must be so incredibly painful. Mine stated being painful 1 week in and hasn't
stopped in 9 months.
Quote from: JohannaJohn on August 01, 2014, 08:51:52 AM
Evelyn, I just almost teared up a little when thinking about your post and what power and contentment nipples are. OMG, this never has happened to me before during normal-types of discussions -- only during major events like death or a new baby or something major -- Evelyn, these mental changes -- I never imagined my mental changes would be so profound -- how can I explain that I would almost "tear up" a little when typing an answer to you here -- what is happening to me -- OMG is this amazing and great!
:)
My eyes are a little moist right now -- OMG I cannot believe this --they are now more moist even as I type these words --
OMG Your nipples are just so INCREDIBLE! I am tearing up right now, right this minute just thinking about the incredibleness of your nipples!!
Quote from: stephaniec on August 01, 2014, 09:10:09 AM
Johanna you explain your transitioning so well, with such rapid development your nipples must be so incredibly painful. Mine stated being painful 1 week in and hasn't
stopped in 9 months.
Thank you so very much Stephanie, yes, this is true, I have always been great with strong writing skills.
I am also super with foreign languages. I now speak fluent Spanish, as I have developed this skill while living in Latin American for the last 8 years.
Stephanie, I suppose it is pretty darn simple. I am female. And females -- I know it is a stereotype -- but many stereotypes have a basis in reality, at least partially --
Females frequently are better verbally. I haven't lost my strong male math and analytical ability, at least not so far anyway...and my strong verbal abilities are still strong...
The NEW ability I have gained, is EMOTIONAL and INTUITIVE as a female. I credit our beloved estrogen and progesterone for this. I never have had this previously.
Hey, I am absolutely terrible as a mechanic. But usually that is a male skill, and I am female. The answer here is simple.
2 macho male Latin types, about 3 weeks ago, needed to enter my house to repair something in my electric power circuit in my kitchen. Great handymen.
I was presenting male in my house at that moment -- but, OMG, I forgot that my toenails were painted bright beautiful red, they were looking so beautfiul then, but now I have bright red toenails with glitter/sparkle they are even prettier now --
But anyway, I was barefoot. Wow, I forgot all about that as opened the door. My 6 year old daughter Nicole was with me that day, too.
I didn't even remember that I was showing these 2 "macho" repairmen handyman my beautiful bright red toenails...OMG!
One of them said to the other in Spanish of course since that is the language here...
"He has his toenails painted bright red!" The 2 macho men looked at each other in disbelief....I said nothing but felt, OMG! what have I done, because I wasn't ready to come out yet in that manner at my apt. building...
So, I let them into my kitchen to work on my electric box, and then I went into the bedroom and put on socks and shoes. Not another word about this was spoken about my beautiful red toenails with the 2 men.
I suspect that maybe they told some of the rest of the all-male maintenance crew here about this, at my apt. building. They still call me "Mr. John" -- John really is my male name, by the way -- but they seem to look at me a little different --
Hey, girls, the world didn't end...
I wasn't arrested...it is isn't illegal for a transgirl to show off bright red beautiful toenails...
I didn't get any nasty comments...
No one has called me gay...
People has looked at me a little curiously at the pool, since I to this point now have to always wear professional divers boots at the pool to "hide" my beautiful toenails...
Yes Evelyn they hurt a lot sometimes...
I have to be super careful nothing hits them now...if someone hits my nipples and breasts now, it feels like a blow to the testicles -- I mean, it REALLY hurts badly.
I touch my nipples a lot because they feel sort of "itchy" -- ??? how can I describe this feeling -- it is definitely not sexual -- I have lost nearly all my erections -- yay!
But wow oh wow are they sensitive...
I cannot put a lot of direct pressure on my nipples with my fingers, because it hurts me so much...
Johanna.
Quote from: Evelyn K on August 01, 2014, 09:16:59 AM
OMG Your nipples are just so INCREDIBLE! I am tearing up right now, right this minute just thinking about the incredibleness of your nipples!!
< Kiss > and < Hug > to you Evelyn.
Johanna.
well, you think your encounter with red toe nails is an experience, just wait for when you go shopping in your nice new dress and heels and all the guys making eyes at you. The glance of a handsom man while your looking your most vulnerable and feminine will make your head spin. Yesterday I was in my favorite coffee house and there was this gorgeous hunk of manhood sitting at the counter and our eyes met and I almost needed an ambulance because my heart skipped some beats.
Quote from: JohannaJohn on August 01, 2014, 09:52:21 AM
< Kiss > and < Hug > to you Evelyn.
Johanna.
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Foi62.tinypic.com%2F2a6qcxx.jpg&hash=086aee3db148a2416c975566817f1e90c0dc2f25)
Quote from: Evelyn K on August 01, 2014, 02:47:33 PM
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Foi62.tinypic.com%2F2a6qcxx.jpg&hash=086aee3db148a2416c975566817f1e90c0dc2f25)
Evelyn, "peer pressure" is hard to resist, as are my great feelings...
I cannot help it, these hormones are incredibly strong...they are making me cry a little sometimes, when I am reading and writing things on this forum...
OMG what is happening to me? Never has this happened to me before...I can't believe it...it is SO wonderful...
I am over the moon...how can I be so blessed...
I plan to get a great female hair stylist or great gay male hairstylist, of which there are tons of them in my Latin city, wow oh wow the girls here are SO beauty conscious, probably even more so than in the USA or Canada, the cis girls are such great role models here...
I think it will be great...
When my hair is a little longer is several weeks, I will "come out" at a beauty salon in the full stylish female one-piece dress I already wear frequently, feminine sandals maybe bright pink color I will have to buy those but they only cost $10 here for decent quality...
I will have them give me a complete manicure and pedicure, professionally polish my fingernails and toenails probably bright red for my toenails since this is my fav color it is so awesome for my toenails...
And sexy medium deep purple for my fingernails...smoking hot girls here use this color a lot...I think I can pull this off, Evelyn, especially if makeup pros apply it...
Then have them, or my cis girlfriend, take plenty of photos with my digital camera, to send to people I know who I want to "come out" to --
Not everyone yet, but a select few friends, especially female friends.
Evelyn, I feel much more comfortable coming out to good female friends first....it is a little more difficult for me to come out to good male friends, actually...but I need to overcome this fear, because my breasts are likely to soon FORCE me to come out...even to male friends...
And of course gals, I will succumb to "peer pressure" ::) here, and come out with photos to you guys here...
As Johanna, feminine best, in full styled hair, bra, dress, makeup, and professionally polished nails.
WOW
Johanna I really love your stories about your incredible nipples. What are your future plans for them? Are you going to pierce them? Do you like to play with them? Are they like pencil erasers? Can you bite one yet?
Tell us moar! I'm fixing to get a box of tissues!
Quote from: Evelyn K on August 01, 2014, 03:18:43 PM
Johanna I really love your stories about your incredible nipples. What are your future plans for them? Are you going to pierce them? Do you like to play with them? Are they like pencil erasers? Can you bite one yet?
Tell us moar! I'm fixing to get a box of tissues!
Well, Evelyn, the greatest things to happen to me, so far as I make my journey to full female, are my nipples and my newly-found female intuitiveness and FEELINGS/emotions. These are bringing me incredible happiness...maybe I will put up a Website about it...
I am not an expert in website construction, but I know how to do it and have done it, and I know how to get a youtube page up and running, because I have done all of this with some other business activity I have...
Maybe I can be an inspiration to others trans-girls, or potential trans-girls, who aren't necessary age 18 or 22...heck, Evelyn, maybe I could even be an inspiration to THEM, too...
I mean, I can show some 18 or 22 or 24 y.o. girls who are "on the fence" and maybe a little scared to start hormones, wondering if it can work for them...and show them that if I can do it, they certainly can. The difference maybe is that THEY are still young enough to become MODELS...
too bad I didn't stop hiding my female-ness at age 25 or something, but, okay, my life mostly as a male has certainly been reasonable, but I am over-the-moon with almost delirious euphoric happiness OMG these hormones are taking over my mind...HOW WONDERFUL...
&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&
My nipples liek pencil erasers? Well, yes, quite frankly, probably so...I hadn't thought of them in this way until you mentioned your idea...
But probably yes...
I LOVE to touch my nipples and play with them...
My gosh, I am now doing so unconsiously...when I rang his doorbell of a married male client this morning at his house, I noticed my nipples totally obviously poking through my shirt...I wonder if he noticed them, as he saw me...
But most of the staring at my nipples and breasts up to now, is coming from FEMALES...females are more perceptive intuitively about changes in appearance....
But even some male colleagues and clients are starting to stare at my breasts and nipples now, especially my RIGHT nipple which is taller and firmer so far, than my left nipple...
I am playing with both of my nipples as I think of you gals now,a typing this story of my female journey to you...
I FEEL just so wonderful that you want to hear my story...I want to help other trans-girls, and new potential trans-girls, to help you understand my FEELINGS all through my transition journey, just as I am doing now...
I definitely CANNOT squeeze my great nipples, or push too hard on my small breasts...it just plain HURTS badly if I do, because they are SO feminine and sensitive now....
Remember my nipples have been like this almost from the start of my hormone-taking, but remember my soft, sensitive breasts are NEW...starting only less than a week ago, can I honestly say that I have breasts...before that, I never claimed that here in this forum...only the truth of my transition...fiction reading you can find on porn sites...nothing of that, here...
I HAVE FEMALE BREASTS NOW, just in these last few days. For sure. I can hardly believe it, Evelyn.
But I HAVE to believe it. I have eyes, my vision is excellent. I simply cannot deny what my eyes are seeing.
I HAVE FEMALE BREASTS NOW, and they are there for the rest of my life...
And just MAY continue to grow, and get much bigger...
MY DREAM is this.
The Latin country I live in is famous for great MD plastic surgeons, for only about $2000-$2500 in US or Canadian dollars, which is I gues about $1800 Euros, you can get a top-notch boob job here...
You need a BASE to begin with, just as with any cis genetic girl...
It doesn't work well, I hear, if you start a boob job with a flat man's chest.
But I have a great feminine breast shape now...not MOOBS...I have BOOBS, even though they are small...just from the last several days I can honestly say I have female boobs, for the rest of my life...
I have seen cis genetic girls here in this country get DDD cup boob jobs here...
Yes, there are 2 great cities in this country to get this done, one is the Capital city of the country, and the other is the city I live in now. Both cities are chock-full of super plastic surgeons...
PM me if you want a little more info...just to help you...I won't accept money for advice...all this is from the heart and feminine emotions, no money...
I want natural boobs, but how great that if I ever need DDD to go on top of my great boob "base" I already have...I can get it here, at a moderate price, without ever leaving the country I have lived in here, for 8 years.
Hugs and kisses to you great gals,
Johanna.
:police:
OK girls, I know getting female breast's are a very exciting part of HRT and becoming the women we want to be. Unfortunately too much talk about them (excessive) has made some members uncomfortable to the point of Pming me with concerns. With that said let's please get this topic back on track or it will be locked. The topic is "male fail" not breast TMI. Thank you. :police:
Quote from: Jessica Merriman on August 01, 2014, 03:49:26 PM
:police:
OK girls, I know getting female breast's are a very exciting part of HRT and becoming the women we want to be. Unfortunately too much talk about them (excessive) has made some members uncomfortable to the point of Pming me with concerns. With that said let's please get this topic back on track or it will be locked. The topic is "male fail" not breast TMI. Thank you. :police:
Sorry Jessica, I ddn't mean to have other girls here send you PM's because this has gotten off-topic.
I agree with you that it is good to have this website be organized by topic, so that those interested in certain specific topics, can get help only on the topics they are interested in.
Sorry to any girls here I have caused concerns. From now on I will start a new thread if an existing thread I have started "gets off track" too much.
Peace, and hugs, to everyone.
Johanna.
So, on THIS thread, now we will only talk about "mail fail" and directly related coming out topics.
LoLz Well OK back on topic...
So where's the incredible male fail pics? ;D
Quote from: Evelyn K on August 01, 2014, 06:37:09 PM
LoLz Well OK back on topic...
So where's the incredible male fail pics? ;D
you can post pre-HRT and beginning HRT in the "do I pass" section to get feed back on your progress.
No reason to hide the incredibleness from us. Everyone wants to see!!! :)
Evelyn K holds her breath! ;)
Okay, gals, "peer pressure"
< rolls eyeballs >
::)
Better take an extra breath today Evelyn K. because not quite yet, but, sure, maybe in the DO I PASS section very soon.
I haven't ever looked very much at THIS section of the website, remember I am off to a nice start, but still quite new here...
So in not too long I will do this...
I especially like the idea of doing it after I get my hair styled professionally, and my nails polished professionally. We will see. SOON...I promise!
Remember, "peer pressure."
< rolls eyeballs again >
::)
Great to be with you gals with more experience than I have, and with you newer gals, too.
Johanna.
No worries Johanna! ;D If you bring a big game, you gotta play it! So hope to see the real you soon!
Great though Evelyn, Nothing to hide
::)
...I am gradually "coming out" to more people, in more and more ways.
VERY soon, I think...
I hope my first photo will be awesome for you gals. Then, as I move further along on this great journey, I can post updated photos...
It has been a blessing for me, to interact with you gals here...that I am NOT alone on this incredible journey...
Wow oh wow, I feel so HAPPY!!!
Johanna.
Its really easy to post photo's . I posted mine the first week I found Susan's. Some of the pictures I just posted in the before and after thread were from the first few weeks on Susan's and one from a couple of weeks ago.