Hi Silas,
A big Aussie welcome to Susan's family. It's good of you to drop in and say "Hi". Hope you like it here, and you stay for a while.
There is a mountain of information, resources and friendship waiting for you here, you just need to jump in and start talking.
I'm really pleased you have such thoughtful friends who care for you. They are a real treasure in life. I wish you ever success finding your therapist. A good one can set you on the right path with the right attitude, allowing you to gain self confidence and esteem to take you places you never thought possible.
Sorry to hear about your family. I guess that singer from the 50's, Ella Fitsgerald must have experienced something similar when she sang that song, "We must accentuate the positive, eliminate the negative."
Looking forward to hearing more of your story in time to come, but in the meantime, be safe, well and happy.
Lotsa huggs
Catherine