Hi Autumn,
A big Aussie welcome to Susan's family. It's good of you to drop in and say "Hi". Hope you like it here, and you stay for a while.
There is a mountain of information, resources and friendship waiting for you here, you just need to jump in and start talking.
Although you may be thinking you haven't traveled the same road as many of us, Autumn, you are certainly progressing in a similar manner. Hopefully that may reduce the confusion a bit. For some of us, it's a journey, for others, it's an evolution, for others, it always was.
We are all pretty friendly and helpful here, but on a limited basis. We generally only see snap shots of each other as we attempt to make sense of our world. If would prefer to expedite your state of confusion to enlightenment, perhaps seeking a therapist who is conversant with Transgender issue could be more beneficial.
Looking forward to hearing more of your story in time to come, but in the meantime, be safe, well and happy.
Lotsa huggs
Catherine