I had a meta last year but figured out pretty fast it sucked so I had the radial forearm phallo done in Montreal. 
The last 3 years of my life have been dedicated to transitioning and I forgot how to live a normal life. I'm now 30.
Anyone else?
I have no idea how to NOT be transitioning and just start my new life. I lost a lot of friends, gf and my new friends have no idea I was ftm. I say WAS because I'm done my transition. My life just seems a little empty now, like I have nothing to look forward to anymore. I know that sounds kinda depressing.
To other phallo guys, do you always disclose? Have you had sex without disclosing?

Man, I can see where you are having a problem figuring out what you want to do.  Was your phallo a success? Sounds like it was it, if you want to tey being with a girl and not telling.  You have an erection device implanted so you can get hard.

Sounds like you have a golden opportunity to set some new goals. Actually, I envy you that. I haven't had bottom surgery or even hysto, so I am living in a sort of limbo state in some respects.

Are you done with all the formal education you want? In a career you like, if you work? If you don't already have them, do you want kids? Do you want to travel? Do volunteer work? Watch the entire Dr. Who series from start to finish? Learn how to fly a plane?

Quote from: Arch on October 29, 2012, 11:07:23 PM
Watch the entire Dr. Who series from start to finish?

Whoa, whoa, whoa! REASONABLE goals, okay?

Quote from: dalebert on October 30, 2012, 09:45:13 AM
Whoa, whoa, whoa! REASONABLE goals, okay?

Well, he does have the rest of his life.

I imagine that his is not an unusual predicament, but I was expecting more people to weigh in by now.

Quote from: Arch on November 02, 2012, 03:53:05 PM
I imagine that his is not an unusual predicament, but I was expecting more people to weigh in by now.

Me too. This is a good question. I don't usually read much on this board, since bottom surgery doesn't apply to me. But, I'm kinda in the same boat as the OP, since my transition is done as far as I'm concerned.

I hope you don't mind if someone who had an "anti-phallo" weighs in What happens when the tempest in a teacup is done spinning and there is nothing left to do My question to myself after my bottom surgery was "Okay just who the hell am I anyways?". I knew who I was by name, and where I came from, but who was I turning into? I had no clue. My days were full of surgery prep, hormones, yada yada. And then it sort of ended. It was my turn to jump off the carousel and come face to face with that person that I had said I always wanted to be. It was no longer, what if I was a born girl, now it was for real. If you ask me, this is the real starting point of my life. Figuring out who I was, trying new things, and figuring out what parts of my old life would assimilate into who I was becoming. If someone had told me years ago that today I would love to do dogsledding I would have said what are you even talking about. But in fact I do. I would never have guessed that I would love being one of those skinny gym chicks, but I do If you would have told me I would be into offroad driving in trucks, I would have laughed, but it's true I love it. If someone had told me I would love gardening and plants, I would have said they were nuts. If somene had said I would still be a nerd after all of this, then that is at least something I would agree with.

The best part of where you are, is you couldn't be where you are without a lot of personal and financial sacrifice, and NOW the moment to sacrifice is over. Now it's time to spend some of that transition related capital on yourself and figure out who you are.

As a MTF postop, I had / have the same thing, and I hear a lot of us go through that... transitioning is so time consuming, so thought consuming, that once you've "finished", you're biggest goal is gone suddenly. I feel literally homeless, although I am very lucky to have strong relationships, friends, and a lovely queer wife who stands by me through anything.... The answer might be as simple as find another project! Not to minimize transition, of course, but basically give your mind something else to obsess over for a year--new language, new skill, renovate a house, who knows?--and you'll be fine!

Hey! I know im a bit late to these post but it describes exactly what im going thrugh. I am done with my phallo and im like..uhh what do i do now lol. Ive been expirementing with different artsy type things. SO I guess i am looking for another hobby other than planning my surgery. Work has taken on a new role in my life. I have started to enjoy working now and i miss it on the week end. I guess i dont have much advice, but I just want you to know that i totally understand how you are feeling. 

transition becomes such a huge (sometimes exhausting) part of our life, yet I believe its far too easy to become addicted to the notion of transition.

Thats why I try to spend most of my time just living life~  and the other 10% wrapped in transition.  I dont think anyone can help but to obsess about it a little, but go too far and you might really find yourself stuck wondering what to do with yourself.

You have been living as a dude already for a long time,  its time to just continue on living as that dude.  Most of life is gender neutral, gender is important to your being but in many life situations its more nuanced than in your face.

I had meta and am fully satisfied.  I am just living life as me.  Time for hobbies and friendships as ME.


Jay

Quote from: sneakersjay on March 18, 2013, 08:39:57 PM
I had meta and am fully satisfied.  I am just living life as me.  Time for hobbies and friendships as ME.


Jay

Just a tiny chapter in your life forgotten to more important things  at least that is how I Want to remember this.

When I finally get done with all of my transitioning, or at least need something else to obsess over for a while, I'm going to start working on the person inside who no one else can see. There's always another problem to solve or another book to read. I was researching transitioning on YouTube a few months ago and found a video where the guy was talking about being light years behind moneywise and in respect to his career and education, yet felt he was much more advanced philosophically than anyone else his age. I want that. I can't continue my education because I can't meet the requirements of having 2 years of work experience. I can't find any kind of job right now. So now I have to start trying to find the real me.

If all else fails go Wikipedia surfing and find something you never knew existed before. When I used to be neck-deep in unhappiness I would use a random number generator and use those numbers to choose books at the library so I would never get bored. You learn a lot of really odd things this way, but you could a Jeopardy champ! Tell everyone to put in bets with real money and you can get a couple of meals out of it. 

I wish this guy had come back. He hasn't logged on since November.