I received my first Rx for Testosterone on Tuesday. The doctor I received it from is very acclaimed at what she does (she's the Professor and Chairman of Endocrinology at a big Hospital in my State). She was recommended to me by the doctor who is doing my hysto next month.
I did like her and I am almost positive I am her first and only trans patient. She did slip up once when I asked about hormone levels in a man and she said "real men" have a hormone level of blah blah. She did correct herself afterwards and really I'm ok with it. People slip up and I don't think we should be over sensitive to that fact.
When I was talking to her about levels I brought up getting my blood work done and how often I should do so. I am getting it done once after three months of shots. At that time she and I will be discussing if I want to stay at the same dose, take more, or possibly less. She said after that I can just get it done every 6 to 12 months or whatever (yes, she said "or whatever").
Now this lady is at the top of her game but I still questioned her logic. She told me she has been prescribing hormones to men and women for over 30 years and I need to trust her. She said if I were to take the patches or the gels the reading would be stable but since I chose injections the readings will fluctuate and will depend on what day in my shot cycle that I get the blood drawn. She said since I am having a complete hysto and oopho I have to be on something and synthetic T is no more dangerous than synthetic E and she reassures that I will be fine having my blood tested only once or twice a year.
Why do I have such a fear of bad side effects? Has anyone else had this same fear? Does the fear ease up over time or is it always there?
I'm completely stressed about this...