I just started having bleeding and I don't know what to do. I don't want to talk to my parents about it so I emailed my endocrinologist myself. I haven't gotten a response back yet but I'm scared and i can't handle this. im so dysphoric and i dont know what to do. why is this happening. someone please help me??

Take some deep breaths. Play a video game, do stuff to keep your mind occupied (as it sounds like you might be having an anxiety/panic attack).
There are a lot of things that could cause bleeding down below. Speaking to your doctor might help figure out the source of the problem (And find an answer).

Hi mangoslayer,
I would recommend calling the doctor directly, sometimes doctors don't treat emails as a priority.
Hugs Devlyn.

I agree with Devlyn. I doubt he's even read them. Pick up the phone.


--Jay

Definitely call your doctor, or an out-of-hours service.

In the meantime, if you have a sanitary towel or similar, put that on (I know it'll be unpleasant, but it's damage limitation), and try to take deep breaths.

Try to get an appointment as soon as possible to have things checked out. I've heard of guys bleeding after being on t for over a year, but I am not sure of the reason why, but hopefully it's nothing. It's better to just get examined and rule out any possibilities.

She replied to me (she's really good at getting back to emails) but all she said was:

"Unfortunately it can happen. I have been treating transfer (I think this was supposed to say transgender but autocorrect changed it) kids since 2002. I have had a few patients get unexpected and unwanted genital bleeding. I inquired about it on the list serv and everyone was encouraging and not alarming.  It will stop and hopefully never happen again. I can see you if a person to person chat would help"

She doesn't seem concerned and doesn't think I need an appt. She's the doctor and knows what she's doing but I'm still worried.
I replied back asking If I could have my dose raised anyway since I got put on a really low dose because i started young and it hasn't been raised much since then.

Until it stops, what do I do? I don't own any tampons or pads or anything and my mom wouldnt either. Even if I did have that stuff I couldn't handle dealing with that. Everytime I even think about it I feel like I'm gonna cry. I don't know what to do. I can't go to school until this stops. I can't handle this, my lower dysphoria was bad enough already. Im trying to just chill but Its really hard this is so wrong

Unless you can face getting to the shops and buying something to sort yourself out there's not much you can do apart from live in the shower for the next week.  Using tissue paper or anything like that is a million times worse than pads, trust me.  Do you have self-service checkout machines where you live?  They're a god-send to me, just grab the damned things, tuck them under my arm, scan them and throw the straight in a bag and pay, no need to talk to anyone else, or for them to even notice what you're carrying.  You'd probably just look like an awkward guy buying for his girlfriend/daughter anyway.

Check your bathroom cupboards, even if your mother's been through menopause/on the pill/whatever she might have some still laying around from when she did need them or from your pre-T days.  It's worth a look, it's amazing what you can find at the back of bathroom cabinets.

To try and cope a bit better wear two pairs of your tightest underwear, and preferably a pad or something.  I find it helps because you can't feel it leak/smell it (maybe it's just me who can smell it, I dunno.)

It happens. I had one last month after years of not having one. Guys buy tampons for their gf's all the time. If you don't make a big deal about it nobody is going to think anything of it. I know you don't want to deal with it but the reality is you have to. I can think of worse things...a public binder malfunction or a packer falling out a short's leg, lol. 

It's going to be ok and you'll live to fight another day. Personally, I'd go with tampons because pads are disgusting and messy.

Back when I had periods as a teenager, if I was caught short without pads or tampons, I'd fold layers of toilet paper into an impromptu pad.

Quote from: DeeperThanSwords on December 10, 2012, 08:53:33 PM
Back when I had periods as a teenager, if I was caught short without pads or tampons, I'd fold layers of toilet paper into an impromptu pad.

Random fact, my grandma said the reason why they call it being on "the rag" is because back in the day there was no pads or tampons. They would wad up old pieces of cloth rags and put them in their bloomers. lol

Quote from: Simon on December 10, 2012, 08:59:27 PM
Random fact, my grandma said the reason why they call it being on "the rag" is because back in the day there was no pads or tampons. They would wad up old pieces of cloth rags and put them in their bloomers. lol

When I was in secondary school, the sex ed video we got featured Dr Whites, which was outdated at the time, but was prominent in the 60s & 70s. You not only had to go through the humiliation of buying the pads through a catalogue, but also had to buy a harness for them! I'm glad I was an 80s child, things had started to get sensible by then!

You could always go really, really old fashioned and back to the victorian age and stuff a pouch full of moss... but seriously man, the best thing is to pluck up the courage to go and buy something, or to tell your mother and ask her to get you some.  Nothing works as well as pads/tampons, and ultimately they just make you feel even worse.  And I can't imagine not having anything at all (at college I was seriously considering ripping up my tshirt to use once.)

You definitely need to relax a little buddy, I know it's hard, believe me, I know.
I was on T for a year, free from bleeding, had to go off of it and it came back with a vengeance.
In the end, all you can do is buy some supplies and wait for it to go away.
There's no guarantee that upping your T will help anything.

Quote from: GentlemanRDP on December 10, 2012, 09:36:04 PM
There's no guarantee that upping your T will help anything.

It's a well known fact that if you have too much T in your system it will convert to E.

Quote from: GentlemanRDP on December 10, 2012, 09:36:04 PM
You definitely need to relax a little buddy, I know it's hard, believe me, I know.
I was on T for a year, free from bleeding, had to go off of it and it came back with a vengeance.
In the end, all you can do is buy some supplies and wait for it to go away.
There's no guarantee that upping your T will help anything.

^ This.

I'm pre-everything, but was lucky that getting the contraceptive implant stopped my periods completely.

Sorry to hear about your problem.  This happens to many guys after being on T for a year or more.  As your dr told you it maybe a single event and if it is not go see her. 
For the time being if it more than you absorb with rolled up tissue, you will need to find or buy some pads/tampons.  Guys do buy them all the time.  I am pre t so still get my monthly bleeding.  I dress as a guy most of the time and buy my tampons all the time as a guy, no one has ever looked differently at me or said anything to me.  I keep one tampon on the bottom of my backpack so I am prepared at school where I use the unisex or men's restrooms.

Mangoslayer, I do hope you're staying calm.  If you feel like you can handle it do go to the store and by sanitary pads.....I'll be honest and say if you've not bled for a year and a half it may really hurt to use a tampon. So while pads may be messy I would personally opt for that than the tampon but choose whichever you'd like.  If you can't handle that, the best thing around the house to use...take an old washcloth fold it into a pad shape doubled over until it is 4 times thick use that with a super absorbent papertowel if you have them.  Paper towels absorb SO well (toilet tissue will begin to tear apart)and the washcloth is really just backup in case it soaks thru.  I've had to do this in a pinch before when I was snowed in..  I hope you are okay, you will get through this and it will pass then hopefully not happen again.