Hi my names Tanner (hopefully soon to be Ali) buuuuuut I am a genetic male who plans to be female and start transitioning in the next few months. Ill be honest I have doubts and im terribly scared... I really want to be a girl and if I had a magic button that would instantly transform me into a girl I would press that button so darn quick haha. There are a lot of positives about me going through the transition, like being who I really am, I have all my friends supportive of me, I dont have to fake my manliness, Ill be more happy, this damn dysphoria knot in my stomach will go away lol. But there is stuff that worries me... like I dont want to lose my friends do to mood swings, finances, currently im a straight male, and honestly I really want to pass. For the mood swings im hoping i can kind of focus and be like these are just the hormones talking try not to over react (but I informed all of my friends that I may get emotional at the beginning of transition and they told me they would whip my back to shape haha). My finances are next to nothing... I know my states health insurance covers therapy but im not so sure about hormones but i hear they are relatively cheap. But for the most part im worried about FFS and how much it will cost (if I need it which im praying I dont). Im also a very straight male and hope to become a lesbian female but i feel like its going to be a tad hard finding that niche of girls who like pre op trans haha . Which brings me to being able to pass, my personally huge heart wrenching issue. I basically live a normal life as a decently attractive "macho" guy so im used to getting the cute girls and being the friend of everybody. But on the inside I want to be the same exact way just as decently attractive girl. I have realistic expectations, I dont plan on being a super model but honestly hope I can pass decently cause pretty much attractiveness comes from attitude, body language, and lets be honest a little bit of make up haha. I feel a lot of these issues may melt away cause i feel they stem from my male ego that ive created. Ill be honest I just need a little bit of motivation... without a doubt if I could be female I would. I've thought about since I was little, I guess its just the social aspect of it getting to me. I might start a vlog on youtube to document my transition ( I know another one?) because they seriously helped me get me motivated to become who I really am so why not do the same and help people like myself. All in all I just want to be myself just recognized as a female...just one of the guys who watches football. GO PATS! huge beat down on them texans ;P but I also want to be one of the girls and be able to go to a store and get ma'amd and be comfortable being me. Im young at 21 so I know I have as good a chance as ever to look good but I still worry but if your interested ill let you guys know of my soon to be vlog so you guys can watch my progress and watch me rant like I just did now haha. You guys are very kind people and ummmm... I <3 you guys
P.S I may have put this in the wrong spot so if you'd like to move it feel free!
