Hi Muriel,
You are most welcome here at Susan's. Here you will find a safe place to express your feminine side. There is lots of great info here. Be sure to visit the Wiki. Along with all the info are a lot of loving careing people, many of whom share in your experience. So fix yourself a cup of tea, or other relaxing beverage, sit down, take your shoes off and set a spell.
Good Journey,
Cassie