Today 2/13/2013 at 1:13 am the kindest, most loving and honest person I have ever and will ever know passed on from this life.
Mom, I will always love you and will miss you more than you can imagine. You were always there for me, from giving me guidance when I was young and making tons of mistakes to when I need someone to help by talking with me during bouts of depression.
You always knew what to say and you supported me in ways most people will never understand. I will never forget all of the time we had together and I am thankful I had an extra two and a half years to be with you. You and I grew even closer after your transplant and when I was your caretaker and those will always be some of my best memories. You were the first person to know I was "gay" and the first I ever talked to about being Trans. You have been the rock in my life whom I could always rely upon, and I dont know who to call anymore. I know I will never wake up to your calls again, asking me to go out and eat or shop. I will never be able to see you when I am depressed. I do not know how to carry on without you but I will try. Knowing you will never call me again and just stay hi and to tell me you love me is one of the worst thoughts I can imagine. I have laid in my room for the last few hours listening to your voicemails from the last two years, just to hear those words. I have been crying since I was told by your doctors "all we can do is make (you) comfortable.", and I cannot stop crying...I'll always love you Mem. There is so much more I want to say, but I do not see the point, I know you are gone...and that hurts more than anything ever will. I wish I were the one gone and not you, I wish I could have endured the pain and suffering for you so you would never have to know that feeling. You were kind to everyone and made everyone who knew you more loving and accepting just for knowing you. I have to go now so I can sleep and plan your funeral with the rest of the family tomorrow. I love you Mem, and that will never go away.

Love, Gen

**HUGS**

I don't know what I could say. All I can offer is all my love for this horrible time and that I cried for every bit of your post and I still am now writing this to you.

**HUGS**

Hugs Gen

We are all here for you

*Trying to hold back the tears but not doing so well* 

  i am very sorry to hear about your loss. it is only a matter of time until i find myself in your shoes. one day you two will be reunited, until that day i wish you the best. while i haven't lost my parents yet, i've lost many friends: i try to live each day for them, it helps me keep positive. <3

*hug*

Hugs Darling,

You were truly blessed with a mother who loved and cared for you.

She will be very proud to have raised such a fine daughter.

May she rest, and we all share your grief.

Cindy

So sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts today. (Hugs)

Hugs, sorry for your loss

I am so sorry for your loss. You are in my prayers Gen.

Huggs

Maegan

*hugs* I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my mother-in-law last summer and my big sister last month. I can tell you that you are very lucky to have had such a caring and understanding mother. And if I had met her, I would have thanked her for the love and compassion she had for you. She will always be with you in your heart. My prayers are with you and your family.

Sorry about your loss. Your words spoke from the heart, your Mom will always be there inside you. Hugs, Devlyn

Hugs sis.  Mothers are all special.

I'm so sorry to hear that.  Have a *hug* from me.

*hugs*

Just more huggggs

I am so, so sorry, and I know that nothing anyone says can make this easier. But we're here for you. Hang in there.

So sorry about your loss.

I lost mine (far too young) back in 1995 and all I can say is that the passage of time makes it easier to deal with the pain. She'll always be a part of you and you'll think about her frequently, but as the years pass it won't hurt as much to do so. Eventually, the sad thoughts will lessen and the good memories will prevail.

*Big hug*

Remember this....

When someone we loved that loved us back unconditionally passes on, and we remember them fondly, they have won at life.

It is only a tragedy when we check out, and no one cares, no one misses us, no one notices we are gone.

Your mother won at life.

That is the greatest gift you can give her.

Hugs Gen,  Your mom sounds like a remarkable person. Cherish the memories you have of her. Remember what she taught you. And she will be there for you when ever you need her.

I listen to this song whenever I miss my mom and start thinking about her.