I'm beginning to believe that I may be Neutrois. This whole time, I have been unable to present as female, but couldn't figure out why until I first saw the definition of Neutrois. Even then, it took me a week because I can be dim. I think I just assumed I must be a TS when I finally admitted to myself that I wasn't a man. I mean, who would think that there's any place to go other than female?
I have no problems with this really, however, I am just beginning to process it. I can't identify with either gender and I don't know if this is a good thing. One thing that I haven't read, but I'll bet is natural for us is that those of us who get the dysphoria probably get it at puberty. This makes sense to me because I don't believe I was conscious of gender in any way until my body betrayed me.
Also, the body mod descriptions of an MtN Neutrois seems to fit the body image that I desired for myself since at least puberty.
I'm glad I started hanging around the Androgyne forums. I guess I'll have to create a new symbol for my signature.