I guess I'm getting to that point where I just feel so discouraged. I can't be really mad at any of my friends or family, they care and they accept me, just god I'm getting so frustrated with she pronouns. Then when I say something about it, I'm the A hole who needs to chill and "give people time" because they'll start seeing me as male when I x  and T just feels so long away, and the doctors and therapists I have to talk to to get it. I'm only really starting to realize how deep the shame runs. I have so hard of a time talking about being trans in a non scientific manner to people. When I start therapy again it's gonna be hard.

This week was also pretty hard because I lost one of best friends growing up coming out to him. I never expected it, he was always so supportive and I was more honest with him about a lot of the stuff in my life than I was with most other people. When he met me in school he even thought I was a dude for the first three days he knew me  And it was so unceremonius. Still more than a little pissed to realize years of friendship means nothing compared to what gender I identify as. I've had people be douches about the trans thing, but it's when the people closest to you who turn it hurts 

All the bs starts to feel like so much and I wonder if it's even worth it to transition, then I remember how miserable life was before and it
feels like no matter what I do I can't make it any better

So this is just a big rant essentially 

Are you sure you've lost the friend? Maybe he just needs time?

Stopped responding to texts, then deleted me off facebook, skype and dA. Still pissed he couldn't even say anything to my face he just dropped me like I was nothing even though he's been one of my best friends for years. I guess I can't know for sure what the hell he's doing or what's up with our friendship if he refuses to even have contact with me in any way shape or form 

Wow, that's mature of him. Sorry you had to go through that Flame.

My wife (MTF) pretty much lost most of her BFFs not long after she came out. THe nearly universal response with her friends, and even her family was "You killed him. That person no longer exists. etc.. " Some 30+ years later I hear the same from women in my TG group. Occasionally you hear of a small victory when a real 'Anti' family member makes some small concession. Often 5-10 years later!

Dealing with this BS sadly goes with the territory. Being ostrasized by friends and family needs to be considered when making a decision like transitioning. Just like loosing a job within months of it for no apparent reason. Just a fact of life

Sometimes it's ot worth it to keep people who claim to be friends, but still can not ever deal with your transgender or transsexual self. It is such an integral part of who you are, that unfortunately even the people who are close to you end up being the ones far away.

Transitioning should be done for yourself, not for anyone else. I lost a few people I knew, including friends and family, to be the person I am today! It's a sad reality, but unfortunately, you gotta do what you gotta do!

And there will always be other friends, and newer friends who are absolutely sweet, caring, and genuine in regards to who YOU are.

I guess I've been really spoiled in that I grew up in a very tolerant atmosphere. The worst treatment I'd gotten up until this point for coming out was a lack of acknowledgment or understanding, and that was only in my family, all of my other friends have been extremely supportive. I was prepared for the worst when I decided to start transitioning, expecting to lose a lot of people, but I was blown away at how much better everyone was being than I expected. I guess I forgot that there are going to be some people who will be unaccepting. It's the fact that this is someone who I expected to be completely cool with this that really got me. I know I still have to come out to some extended members of my family who already hold the opinion I'm going to burn in hell for who I'm attracted to, so perhaps this is good practice? 

I'm so sorry your friend abandoned you. I know what that's like: hurts like hell. A few years ago I had my best friend of a decade suddenly decide he wanted nothing to do with me. I felt totally betrayed, and was really, really angry for a long time as a result. Things did eventually get better, though. Two years later, a few days before Christmas, he called me to apologize. We've maintained contact since, even if the closeness is no longer there the way it once was. Still, I felt a lot better afterwards, as I no longer had such toxic anger eating at me. Hopefully your friend will eventually do the right thing, but there's really no way to know. Regardless, that's pretty awful on his part. You have my sympathy, and I hope things get better.