I am pansexual (I like guys, girls, and trans) but I usually just identify as gay.  I am dating another trans man.

And yeah, there are tons of gay FTMs. I know it seems rough because you think no one will want you, but there are guys who view you differently and are attracted to you, more open minded guys.  Also, bisexual guys.

Thanks for your replies guys! If anyone wants to talk to me please send me a private message! I would feel more comfortable talking in private. I am looking forward to meeting FTM guys but it would be interesting to meet some MTF girls too!

I'm MTF and I've only ever been attracted to girls although I have recently started to "widen my horizons" (not that I've been with anyone for a while) from just cisgirls to all girls. I've always had thoughts/fantasies/desires/wants to be with a guy as a girl but strangely never had thoughts when I was deep in denial etc. in guy mode.
I guess its one of those things, we are always changing as people, some things stay the same and in other ways we're constantly evolving, I'm mid to late 20's and only fairly recently figured out why I've been so miserable for the last 15-20 years! That goes for everyone, cisgirls and guys too! We all spend our lives trying to find out more about ourselves and relationships are just another facet of that. Who is to say that a gay cisguy wont ever like FTM's?
Then again I am probably the last person to listen to for relationship advice so ignore my above post

I'm FTM. I identify as bisexual. I prefer women though. I know quite a few transmen that are gay. You are not alone in this so don't worry.