Hi, this is Karla from Vermont... i live in the sticks, and wouldn't have it any other way   Vermont is where women, like ants, can carry twice our weight in firewood, and do many other traditionally male things better than most men.  I love dresses and silk stockings, but don't need them to feel female.

Intro and brief, scattered bio of a Newbie already posted at: https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,138754.0.html... just thought i ought to say wat a great bunch of diverse, interesting, fascinating people you all are... I feel honoured to finally be here among you.

A lot of reading and learning to do, especially after coming out to my wife two days ago, and a lot of work.  I can't tell you how much it means to me to no longer be alone.  Tears coming as i write this...

Hugs,
Karla

Rozelyn,

You've described exactly how i was, until the male act began to break down over the last year.  Slowly, cautiously, the curtain began to shut on that play.  Two weeks ago, the house lights went down.

Walked away from caffeine a year ago, and if anything i learned how much chemistry can affect me.  How much more so, male hormones?

Have not restarted HRT yet... still looking for a friendly doctor/therapist in my remote area that is still taking patients... but i remember the effects of six months of HRT back in 1987... a tranquil space that I find myself back in, right now... with no Void.

There's a lot to be angry about in this man's world (i've always been radical that way).  But not so angry as to lose your cool.   Then you're no longer effective.  My plan is to find a better way.

Hugs,
Karla

Quote from: Rozelyn on December 13, 2012, 09:43:51 AM
I was often full of rage and kept to myself, a defense mechanism I had learned sense I was a small child. I had developed what I call 'The Void' inside of me, I was always empty inside...

Hiya,

I am very new to this. Well not to the idea, but to the thought of actually doing something about it. Still I the very first stages, which is mainly information gathering. So I haven't gone to a therapist as of yet. I do plan on doing so next month. I just want to be informed as much as I can ^.^  So I have been lurking here for the past few weeks gobbling up all the information that I can get my hands on. And honestly there is just soo very much here to be learned, and I am grateful for ever morsel gathered.

OH! I am 25, MtF.

OK so I've been around this place for about a month and i haven't posted very much. admittedly i haven't really used a website like this before so i am still getting used to some aspects. i still find it quite hard to find the confidence to even post sometimes and when i do post i often do so in quite a rush that produces a short unreadable post.
i also wonder if established members are immediately suspicious of newer members.
there is however so much i can gain from this and i hope personally that i can make a positive contribution as well.

Eva
(identified as Genderless at the time this was posted have since realised that I am MTF)

  Hi. My name is Jamie. New here, but definetly not new to the world..almost 50 this year!
Anyway, here for support, friends, info and to provide same, if I can.

Hello Jamie!  We should form a club 

Anyway, get to know your way around the site, and if you have any questions, just ask.  At 15 posts you will get the ability to use the personal messaging utility, as well as change your profile to include an avatar or picture.

Quote from: BD0121 on April 24, 2013, 08:03:41 PM
OK so I've been around this place for about a month and i haven't posted very much. admittedly i haven't really used a website like this before so i am still getting used to some aspects. i still find it quite hard to find the confidence to even post sometimes and when i do post i often do so in quite a rush that produces a short unreadable post.
i also wonder if established members are immediately suspicious of newer members.
there is however so much i can gain from this and i hope personally that i can make a positive contribution as well.

Bruce.
(Male Born Genderless Individual)

Hi,

All members are equal here, welcome and join on in, take your time and feel your way around. You are very very welcome.

Hugs

Cindy

Quote from: Lubbles on April 21, 2013, 09:23:57 AM
Hiya,

I am very new to this. Well not to the idea, but to the thought of actually doing something about it. Still I the very first stages, which is mainly information gathering. So I haven't gone to a therapist as of yet. I do plan on doing so next month. I just want to be informed as much as I can ^.^  So I have been lurking here for the past few weeks gobbling up all the information that I can get my hands on. And honestly there is just soo very much here to be learned, and I am grateful for ever morsel gathered.

OH! I am 25, MtF.

Hi welcome honey,

Lots of info here and lots of experience and we are all into sharing, so ask away and join on in

Hugs

Cindy

well I would have been one of those I and bye people until I took a step the other day and wanted to share. Here is a link if anybody wants to reply https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,140013.msg1133467.html#msg1133467 I am happy and mad at the same time, but I am working through it. I at least have somebody close to help me. Who know this might be the start to me figuring things, and finding out for sure who I am. If the case may be that I need to maybe the start to me coming out as female or something else. I don't really know.

Hi Bookworm,

Welcome to the forums. I had a quick read of your posts and I do suggest talking to a therapist when you can. Lots of your feelings are very very normal for trans* people and for guys who like to cross dress. There is absolutely nothing wrong with them or anything to be embarrassed about. But talking to a professional therapist might give you the chance to come to terms with some of your feelings

Hugs

Cindy

I do need to find one and I am looking at the moment. It is good to hear that I am some what normal then. I thought I was a little odd.

Quote from: Bookworm on May 03, 2013, 03:46:25 AM
I do need to find one and I am looking at the moment. It is good to hear that I am some what normal then. I thought I was a little odd.

One of the very basic things we need to accept and understand is that there is nothing wrong with us. We are perfectly normal human beings who deserve the respect and love that all humans deserve.

You have nothing to be ashamed of.
You have nothing to apologise for.
You do not need any excuses.

You are a perfectly normal person.

And on this site and I hope in life you are a valuable and loved member of our family.

Hugs

Cindy

I understand that I should not feel ashamed, but that is easier said than done. I feel like I should not being like I am. I feel like I should just be a regular guy and be fine with that, but to be honest I know that is not the case. That is what make all of this so hard. I am trying to be more open with myself and I as well as my sister. She is here for me and always has been. I came out to her first a little while ago and she has been so helpful and supportive. I hope that by being here on this site with all of you people I might just figure out who I am. I do plan to look into a therapist as soon as I can. I don't know when that will be, but at least I am looking. Thanks for the support

Bookworm, all this is going to be a learning experience.  They don't pass out instruction manuals (it would be nice if they did!).

So don't despair.  There is no hurry.  But there is a lot of introspection and self-realization ahead.  And if you are like me, a lot of the same behind us too.

I am thankful that I have at least started the first steps of acknowledgement and trying to understand where I stand.

Quote from: Comrade Eva on April 24, 2013, 08:03:41 PM
OK so I've been around this place for about a month and i haven't posted very much. admittedly i haven't really used a website like this before so i am still getting used to some aspects. i still find it quite hard to find the confidence to even post sometimes and when i do post i often do so in quite a rush that produces a short unreadable post.
i also wonder if established members are immediately suspicious of newer members.
there is however so much i can gain from this and i hope personally that i can make a positive contribution as well.

Bruce.
(Male Born Genderless Individual)

I'm far more at ease here now
Thank you Cindy your little bit of reassurance helped remove my reservations about this community. 

No problems Eva,

Feel free and join in with posting and being a member, the more you do the more fun it is!