Okay so I have decided to post little monthly updates on here cuz I want to help others who are just starting out. I am 4 days short of two months but whatever I am excited and I don't think much will change in 4days. If it does I will update
Weeeell, let's start with the physical stuff:
Breast growth. I have noticed some definite breast growth. Right now they are teeny tiny little buds and I wear a 32 AA bra (haha sooo small, I know) but it is getting more and more noticable and I am popping out of my shirts a LOT (people point it out). There is a lump behind them which is starting to get a bit painful when pressure is applied (finally, lolz!).
Skin softening. I have finally started to notice this a teensy bit as well. Just a little on my upper left arm (which I am told is the most common starting place for some reason) and then in different places but just like patchy.
I am going to mention this briefly cuz I don't like talking about it and it makes me dysphoric, but if it helps others: shrinkage to an extremely extremely small size has ocurred, aheem, blood flow (deeerp) is rarer than before (which was rare) and now even painful at times, and fluid productions have (according to recent experiments) halted to an almost complete stop (still some last I checked but it was very watery). No real change in libido, but I aaaalways had a more feminine libido (I like guys but turning me on takes work and I never was turned on when I didn't WANT to be).
Body hair loss, I didn't have much at all to start with but just this last week I have noticed what I DID have seems to be coming in even finer and lighter than it was before to the point of being translucent and not even noticable.
No fat redistribution I don't think. I know I have to wait on that though...
My face seems to be changing a LOT and my mother keeps pointing it out. She'll just look at me and say "Wow you're face is getting full, it looks nice" XD my cheeks especially.
As for the emotional effects, I am getting happier and happier by the day! I am still somewhat inbetween but I am sooo excited to be on this path and I just, I feel SOO much like myself for the first time which is such a nice comforting feeling. Still some moods swings but it's getting better. Also, my appetite is dying down a bit and I am not nearly as tired as I was when I started.
Another thing happening in my life not HRT related is that now everyone in my life essentially knows. I came out to my parents and little brother (more on that in a sec) and it turns out my gramma DID discover my meds before I left her house, and she told the entire family besides my mother (she doesn't tell her ANYTHING). She is just trying to convince herself I have an intersex condition and that's what's causing it cuz she heard about other people having it, and said it didn't surprise her cuz she noticed how feminine I was my entire life. But yeah, she has been not bad. And I confronted one of my sisters about it and she sent me a text saying she loved and supported me and that all that mattered was that I was happy with myself <3
As for my mother....we had a BAD bad day where we argued and she said hateful things. But we have had a couple talks and she is making her peace with it. In fact, these last couple days she has been an angel, sooo sweet. I think explaining to her how this has always been with me and how desperate I was to do this sunk in. She told me last night that I "looked nice" but it was going to take time to adjust, which I totally respect. She still uses male pronouns and my male name, but she actually told me it was getting awkward for her to do that so I think that should change pretty soon (not forcing it cuz we are getting along again for now) O.O
My dad hasn't said a single word about it to me. He just treats me the same as ever, which is mostly cuz he is a simple dude XD he will adjust I know for sure! My brother told me I was "quite pretty" and had "beautiful eyes" but is very stubborn about pronouns XD
Anyway, I sort of veered of HRT a bit, but that's what happened in the last month. Lots of stuff. I can't wait to see where the next months take me!! <3
If anyone has any questions feel free to ask!
