Old thread but I don't see a need to start this over.
Escape? Yes I sure do.
40 sum years of my nose in a wealth of human past and all of it negative. All of it real world history and none of it pleasant.
I have realized long before my coming to awareness of who I am, that I didn't wish to be whatever I am in the real world much.
I have ditched my age more or less, as I have very little love for my demographic all too often responsible for the ugliness of the world (it sure isn't the fault of our supposedly spoiled entitlement generation as we like to slag them off as being).
The most depressing film I have ever watched is Trinity and Beyond. To actually come to grips with just how many nuclear weapons we have already detonated. Most people think Hiroshima and Nagasaki and then draw a blank. Nope, there was the first ever test before of course, but then there was several nations detonating them by the score. You don't want to wander the south Pacific, nor the lands too close to Vegas, nor a lot of places in remote Russia or the Chinese outback.
All the wars I have studied that likely are forgotten by most.
Oh I don't need to be a female in a male form to wishing I could just escape to another realm, I found it hard to want to leave my apartment a long time ago.
I spend most of my time hiding in a book in another world, or in an anime where I can laugh and simply not need to be in MY reality for very solid reasons.
I spent regrettably far too many years this last decade giving men my age far too much credit far too often for being mature and civil and intelligent, when in truth, they are mostly what is wrong with the world. To nasty, to angry, too hostile, too just plain mean. I am sure the ones that are single today, will die that way too. But some seem to be married, and I wonder, what would their wives say if they saw how they behave among themselves?
My accepting being TG would have just been the equal of spreading fuel on an already large fire, if I had done it among my old crowd of netizens. Before I found Susan's, I had already mastered the art of discarding the undesirable from my life. It's now a skill I have honed to great degree. It does serve me in that regard. Can't handle my being a she, too bad get lost, I don't need you. I have had zero difficulty discarding people that will not let me be me in peace.
The real world of today, the real one, not necessarily the one in the news or the magazines, or popular media, not the one most declare is the real one, is not a nice place, and it is in dire need of a serious wake up, and likely will not happen until either our race does something horribly stupid or mother nature assists us in her own fashion (which is often more brutal and unyielding and politically neutral).
I wonder, not can I afford to transition in the real world, but, will the real world still be here for me in 10 years time.
If the world suffered a catastrophic melt down, the likes of which might be coming, because the house of cards we are building is getting terribly close to the conditions preceding WW1 and all of it's convoluted treaties, would I be able to maintain a life dependent on a variety of fairly involved fairly complicated medical technologies? I live today on a disability pension. It's a thin strand indeed. If tomorrow my country fell off the deep end of a sharp drop in economic fortune, and my ability to live on a pension just faded away, my being male or female would suddenly be replaced with being dead or alive.
All just doom and gloom you say? No I am not talking biblical nonsense here, nor am I referring to kooky notions from ancient cultures.
I am talking about a range of very possible very horrible situations we could easily find ourselves in. It doesn't need to have an associated Hollywood film to be damaging. China and India are running rapidly towards of show down over a need for water. Read about that much? China has several hundred millions of males the don't even need, and wouldn't miss. I am not sure about India, but I remember 1948. They are quite good at killing by the millions if you give them a reason. They both have world class armies and they have nukes. They don't need to even ask the US into the squabble.
But, can you picture a nuclear exchange between those two? Even if there is no one else involved?
Have you noticed how everything we use is made in China? How they seem to buy all of our resources. Picture all of that suddenly stopping. Heck we don't even need to experience nuclear fallout to suddenly be in serious chaos.
I didn't learn any of this on Google, I ain't got a wiki for you. There is no copy paste coming from a quote.
This is me telling you all of this first hand. I'm no stranger to this topic matter.
And now you know why I can often be found hiding in another world.
If I were to win millions, I'd be headed further north, the real Northern Ontario. A long drive from much of anything. Likely out of cell range. Probably supplied by a small local town store. On some mostly self sufficient land, with some local grown food, home made power. I'd be even more disappeared than I already am. I suppose walking around in women's clothing would be no big deal. I'd be wearing fashions meant to be outdoors in though. I wouldn't need high heels and an evening dress. I'd have lasered the hair before I left society of course. I might even get rid of the conflicting organ. I am unsure I'd need much of anything else. I'd have no one to impress during the day.
I dislike the real world a lot more than I dislike my male form.
