Hey folks, I've been reading stuff on this forum on and off for years. I just came across this before/after thread and WOW it's AMAZING!
This is my first post so go easy on me eh?
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I'll take a quick bit of time to tell yall a little about me:
I'm 39, born with Reifensteins Syndrome, also known as Partial Androgen Insensitivity Syndrome (Grade 2/3). I had problems with my testicles since birth since they never descended until I was 8. I had problems with male puberty so long story short, my pediatrician put me on testosterone shots.
I got seriously depressed, because I loved the androgynous body and face I had before testosterone. My voice didn't even really started to break until the testosterone. I got out of my parents house as soon as I could and moved away. Tried to play the male game, I became a FAA licensed aircraft maintenance tech. I tried to play butch, but I was always read as effeminate or gay even though I married a woman when I was 21. My wife knew about my unusual body, and the problems I had with puberty and how testosterone shots made me feel physically and psychologically.
I wound up stopping the testosterone, because it was causing dangerously high blood pressure and keeping my glucose levels up. I hated my male body, facial hair, some arm hair and chest hair (thank god, I never got back hair and the chest I had was sparse, thin and not much of it). I told her due to being born with Reifenstein's, I was sterile - but she wound up falling in love with me anyway.
Fast forward to 2006: I was developing a lot of pain in my testicles, and found out I was entering the first stage of testicular cancer most likely due to my testes not descending until I was 8. So I had a bilateral orchiectomy in 2007. I wanted to transition then, but I decided to see how I felt once the testosterone was out of my body - maybe I would be 'healed' of feeling female. In short: no. Depleted of testosterone brought me psychological relief, I still had to transition.
2010: I started HRT, had a bunch of electrolysis, laser on the face, Radiesse to my cheeks and Restalyne to my lips
2013: I'm just a normal, happy person neither 100% male nor 100% female, but somehow, somewhere in the middle who is mentally and physically androgynous still married to the love of my life who stuck by my side through all of this
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Here is a link to a video of mine on Youtube that shows a lot more pictures in your typical "before/after" slideshow thingy.
You are all beautiful!
Mikki