Hi! You can call me Jan if you like. Im 28 and I live in california. Ive been lurking about for a few years and I still have many gender issues to work out. I currently live as a male and am married, my wife has no idea about my secret struggle. Im hoping to one day come out to the light, but at least i can explore myself in places like this. I hate the fact that I am dishonest with my spouse about this whole issue, but Ive consigned myself to the "long haul" and will wait, gather research about hormones, surgery, etc, and be plenty prepared for when the time comes to unleash myself upon the world (metaphorically speaking of course)