I just realized this the past week as to why I'm attracted to women. I never admitted to myself before that I find women attractive because I have always wanted to be one. To feel complete and whole in my own skin. I feel now that once I'm further along in my transition, not that it's already happening, that I can finally feel attracted towards myself and not self loathing. I just find it funny that this attraction has been stemming from the fact that inside I have always been a girl and it was just really jealousy. Now that I'm finally going through second puberty I'm finding no reason to be jealous anymore, I'm feeling freed up and I can finally lay my jealousies to rest

I can relate to that line of thought!

Julie, my experiences are like yours. To this day I don't know how much of my attraction to women is pure jealousy. For me, I'm still jealous, one big reason why I think I'm going to need bottom surgery. But a lot of my appetite for female physical contact seems to have flown with my transition.