yes, i've finally getting the chance to see a Psychologist who has some real experience with gender issues, and i'm both excited and terrified at the same time.

the sad part is that i'm not even sure when i can get the chance to see them yet, but they are there, and it's something that might happen in the next week or so.

but at the same time, i have no clue about their track record. i have no clue about how things are going to go, and i'm terrified about them being a nasty gatekeeper or something..... yeah, no clue and my mind has come up with some of the worst outcomes it can.....

i'm just struggling to function, and i want to be on hormones soooo bad that it's tearing me up along with all of the other things that i have going on..... i just want some progress already, even if i am third gender feminine or whatever the going term is these days. i'm just glad that the wpath standards are so much better than what i've heard of the old standards. i don't even want to go read the old standards to know where some of the doctors might be comming from, as they sound like something that would give me a massive anxiety attack even if they aren't followed where i am any more.

gah! i need a cuppa tea right about now.