Quote from: Emmaline on August 15, 2013, 07:32:38 AM
For me,  seeing a girl bent over and looking back with inviting eyes makes me want to penetrate her... but I know I would get dysphoric moments later and stop enjoying it.  It's just not how I am wired up.  I prefer lesbian style sex, and always have done. It was a huge revelation to me that what was between my ears IS a lesbian.  Plain and simple.

yeah I think this is the case, however I am also aware that via HRT, our pheromones will change as will our response to pheromones. I am not averse to the idea that I may switch to Bi or even straight woman. although, the idea that I go off women and never get a girlfriend makes the current me a little sad.
well at least I'll still get to sleep in the same bed as a beautiful woman every night and have unlimited access to her body! me.

I'd be damned impressed if any treatment I might end up with can do anything to get over the wall that is my inherent dislike of men.

It's not a visual source, but all the history stuck in my head from too many years of studying too much content.

I can't picture my wife ever having the slightest hint of any lessening of my preference for her.

Emmaline : Glad it helped! I admit, it was kinda like origami for the first week or so. But it settled down faster than I thought possible, actually.

I don't think there's anything unusual about a woman feeling a desire to penetrate someone, regardless of what she has between her legs. Sex brings about all sorts of desires; sometimes desires that seem contrary to who we are/how we feel.

I think when we spend so much time trying to sort out our feelings, we sometimes end up overanalyzing every feeling we have and stressing over what it means. Sometimes it's a profound realization and you learn a lot about yourself. But sometimes it just means you're horny and you want to do naughty things to that person.

Hell I would give it all up to just be a woman at peace.   Whatever sex becomes for me at that stage is part two of the adventure.  I am resigned to let the hormones do wot dey do and be that person completely.

Mind you.  I do hope I am a total mynx. 

wanted to update here...
because I met a lovely girl and spent yesterday evening with her.
well I really liked her a lot and she was beautiful and was certainly the sort of girl I would like to see in an adult movie.
well I think pleasuring her was great, and I found it so utterly rewarding. I even noticed the most amazing thing when she first touched me down there. It was like for a moment, I wasn't aware that it was a penis down there and it was like a shot of electricity that took my breath away. but as I became aware of it doing penis things, it started to feel like it wasn't me.
I vaguely thought of how I felt about porn and realise that I felt different when with her. I certainly loved the tenderness and kissing and embrace and I loved to make her squirm, but when it came to my penis, I just lost interest. I certainly didn't feel that overwhelming desire to penetrate her. I wanted to do it so that she felt satisfied but the thing wouldn't work. nor did I really want it to. such a polar opposite.  I realised that I was unsatisfied and I thought to really question what I wanted. I lay and I talked to her about it. how she was so beautiful and I felt jealous of her body. I think I may have liked it if I also had a vagina. but it's hard to say if I never had one and don't know what it's like. all I can say is that I enjoyed pleasing her, and certainly knew what buttons to push, but when it came to myself, nothing.
I miss her already! but when it turns out I can't really fully please her in that respect. I think we may not see each other again. it just doesn't work. no hard feelings though. I had a lovely night and I will miss her but I guess this is a strong reason to go ahead with 'transition'.

Sounds like a nice experience and a solidifying one for you.

Sex with a girl who knows your a girl inside is awesome- it takes a lot of the pressure off.