My dad died last week and with doing so has helped me through the girl/boy problem confusion in me. Since he died, I've been able connect with the guy in me better. I haven't really felt like Larisa in 8 days now. I've made cracks at girl stuff I know but felt like a guy but I know the gender fight in me won't be over. With my dad dying, I'd never transition now ever but it's made me think about who I am. I started a girl boy list and what I do that's guy in guy list and girl in girl list. I started the list of it last night. Get to know myself better but for 8 days its been full guy for me. Being a Giroy meaning a hybrid of boy and girl is what I think I am. My dad made this way easier!!

first let me say i am sorry to hear your dad died. i wish you and your family the best.

second i can see how his death could make it easier, if you looked up to him as a person and he was against that then it would make it hard with him around. i am glad you are finally able to come into your self and start yo live authentically. i have learned that it isn't male or female, its how we as an individual wish to live.

I am sorry for you loss, please accept my condolences.

It is true that tragedy sometimes will help us focus on what is really important.

Sorry for your loss

Aw thanks guys! It's been tough time for everyone. My reason for never transitioning like hrt is I have no idea what I'd look like. I'd want to look naturally super pretty girl and that's not forsure plus somedays I'm not total girl inside. I'd miss my boy self but being a girl is a part of me. I want both!!

Sorry for your loss.