Big Kim:  Way to go!!!!  Have Fun!!!!!!

Hugs,

Jen

I got a call from one of the places I applied to, and have a job interview tomorrow!!  I haven't had a job in 5 years. I'm so excited to finally get my life where it needs to be, and this is the first step! 

Quote from: Alex on September 24, 2013, 09:17:24 PM
I got a call from one of the places I applied to, and have a job interview tomorrow!!  I haven't had a job in 5 years. I'm so excited to finally get my life where it needs to be, and this is the first step! 

Best of luck, hon.

*crosses fingers*

Thanks, Sephirah! 

Hopefully I'll be able to post here again after the interview! 

I have my first appointment with a gender therapist on the 10th ^^

Quote from: JLT1 on September 24, 2013, 09:13:09 PM
Big Kim:  Way to go!!!!  Have Fun!!!!!!

Hugs, Thanks will do!

Jen

Quote from: Ovada on September 24, 2013, 09:48:22 PM
I have my first appointment with a gender therapist on the 10th ^^

Best wishes for a good session!

I'm currently drinking a free Starbucks coffee, thanks to the rewards points I've earned! 

They don't specify what size you can order, so I went for the largest Caramel Macchiato I could get without them having to put it in a bucket.

Cheers!

Quote from: FTMDiaries on September 25, 2013, 08:08:25 AM
I'm currently drinking a free Starbucks coffee, thanks to the rewards points I've earned! 

They don't specify what size you can order, so I went for the largest Caramel Macchiato I could get without them having to put it in a bucket.

Cheers!

Bucket O'Starbucks... now there's an idea.

Their coffee is stupidly expensive to buy though. I mean like really, insanely, must-have-tea-instead expensive. I went into my local supermarket and saw that for a 40 gram tub of coffee, it cost more than a 300 gram jar of Nescafé. Makes you wonder if it's actually made from the tears of unicorns. It must be!

I just received a message from a swappartner. I came out to her on a whim and spent three days worrying about her reaction. We'd exchanged a lot of messages and I'd really come to respect her and value but she's a devote christian and I was just so scared (silly really over an internetperson). I've got her message and I'm crying so much. She's basically had computerissues stopping her from replying and has been worrying about how to reply. She was so wonderfull in her message saying I should never think she'd judge me for doing what I needed to be happy and that she thought I was a wonderfull person and nothing would change that. That she believes everyone should make their own path in life and if she were to judge mine she wouldn't be a good person to herself. And... I just can't explain withouth putting the entire message on but it touched me so much. I know this is probably not understandable and way to long but I needed to vent somewhere...

I got called "Mr" in an email, meaning that I passed 100% to one of my students. A male student, which somehow actually means more to me than passing to a female student, given that women started gendering me correctly earlier than men.

I also had the woman I work with hear me mention kids and she assumed they were mine, asking if I was a father. Like, a cisgender male father.

I like it. It took a while to get used to passing after being called "ma'am" and "she" EVERY goddamn time, lol, but I'm finally able to feel somewhat at ease with my presentation. I feel a lot more confident. I also spoke with someone who knew me, er, early in transition who knows I am trans and I didn't really like it when the trans issue came up. Even though he is for the most part really good about it.

A lot of recent events are sort of pointing towards "stealth" as what I want for myself. The only real reason I ever left the stealth/out question open was because a) I wasn't sure if I could ever pass and b) because I wonder if there's anything I'd want to do for other trans people. Given that my transition has had its fair share of struggle (and I have had it easy compared to many others), makes me feel like there is a need for me to do *something.* But I am going to pick something that doesn't require me to be out.

Quote from: caleb. on September 25, 2013, 05:46:57 PM
I got called "Mr" in an email, meaning that I passed 100% to one of my students. A male student, which somehow actually means more to me than passing to a female student, given that women started gendering me correctly earlier than men.

I also had the woman I work with hear me mention kids and she assumed they were mine, asking if I was a father. Like, a cisgender male father.

I like it. It took a while to get used to passing after being called "ma'am" and "she" EVERY goddamn time, lol, but I'm finally able to feel somewhat at ease with my presentation. I feel a lot more confident. I also spoke with someone who knew me, er, early in transition who knows I am trans and I didn't really like it when the trans issue came up. Even though he is for the most part really good about it.

A lot of recent events are sort of pointing towards "stealth" as what I want for myself. The only real reason I ever left the stealth/out question open was because a) I wasn't sure if I could ever pass and b) because I wonder if there's anything I'd want to do for other trans people. Given that my transition has had its fair share of struggle (and I have had it easy compared to many others), makes me feel like there is a need for me to do *something.* But I am going to pick something that doesn't require me to be out.

In the time I've read your contributions here, I have come to the conclusion that you are an erudite, articulate, thoughtful, considerate, well spoken young man (I only mention the "young" part because today I feel about a hundred, lol). And I think you have the right to live that way, and live as who you are.

So all I really have to say is, good for you, hon.

I'm noticing subtle changes since starting HRT last Sunday.

I feel much more comfortable about myself which has in turn made me feel much more mellow.
This became apparent after I tripped on an Xbox cable, my new copy of GTA V was running as the Xbox fell & the disc is damaged beyond use or repair, a few weeks ago that would have had me stomping around in a foul mood for hours (or maybe even days), my only reaction was to shrug & accept that I can't afford a replacement until I get more money in 10 days time.

I've also noticed that when I wake up & drag myself out of bed I no longer smell male, I previously used to make a bee line for the bathroom to run a bath to soak in so I could rid myself of this obnoxious smell I hated it so much but now it's gone, it's been replaced with a very subtle body smell that I no longer find offensive

Quote from: Sephirah on September 25, 2013, 05:57:35 PM
In the time I've read your contributions here, I have come to the conclusion that you are an erudite, articulate, thoughtful, considerate, well spoken young man (I only mention the "young" part because today I feel about a hundred, lol). And I think you have the right to live that way, and live as who you are.

So all I really have to say is, good for you, hon.

Aw, thank you Sephirah. That made my day.

Quote from: Jayne on September 25, 2013, 06:26:44 PM
I'm noticing subtle changes since starting HRT last Sunday.

I feel much more comfortable about myself which has in turn made me feel much more mellow.
This became apparent after I tripped on an Xbox cable, my new copy of GTA V was running as the Xbox fell & the disc is damaged beyond use or repair, a few weeks ago that would have had me stomping around in a foul mood for hours (or maybe even days), my only reaction was to shrug & accept that I can't afford a replacement until I get more money in 10 days time.

I've also noticed that when I wake up & drag myself out of bed I no longer smell male, I previously used to make a bee line for the bathroom to run a bath to soak in so I could rid myself of this obnoxious smell I hated it so much but now it's gone, it's been replaced with a very subtle body smell that I no longer find offensive

It's your time now Jayne, congrats hon!

I had to laugh at Jayne's post.  I remember, back in March 2012, writing about my six months on HRT.  I had to add to my post, at the time, "And I don't smell as bad!"  LOL

Thank you Jayne. 

EDIT:  I found it!

Quote from: Jamie D on March 23, 2012, 02:31:34 PM
Another thing I forgot to mention.  I smell better.

I know you're saying, "Fragrance is in the nose of the beholder."  But it's true.

A couple of weeks ago I was doing a load of laundry and I had this shirt, i was pretty sure I had worn, on a chair.  I sniffed it to see if I could pick up that musky male BO in the pits.  Nothing.  Well, I thought the shirt was clean, until I found a couple of cooking splatters on it.

Quote from: Jayne on September 25, 2013, 06:26:44 PM
I've also noticed that when I wake up & drag myself out of bed I no longer smell male, I previously used to make a bee line for the bathroom to run a bath to soak in so I could rid myself of this obnoxious smell I hated it so much but now it's gone, it's been replaced with a very subtle body smell that I no longer find offensive

LOL - every time one of my kids enters a room I'm in, they start looking around suspiciously and asking "What's that smell?"

I am laughing at the thought of a body odor topic.  Stop me!  Please stop me!!

Last night I went to the mall after therapy with my sister. It was totally awesome even though it was mostly just walking, talking, and dinner. We did talk a little about clothes, etc. She kept mentioning me getting new clothes because of my weight loss - I wonder if I'm a men's Large now - if not, soon. I pretty much said I wasn't really interested in new clothes... and hoped I didn't have to buy any. Overall it was an awesome night - we talked about a lot. (Food court dinner isn't too bad - other than salt and food quality - if there's a Sarku Japan).

Also:

Today (and earlier this week) I had two friend requests on MyFitnessPal from Cis women. Both were supportive when I told them I'm a trans* girl and not yet transitioned. (It becomes obvious from my status history on there).

My wife and I went to sign up to a new ivf clinic today.  I went in boy mode.

Half an hour into paperwork,  the new doc went through my wifes info and it got to the medical history bit.  My turn... pause... deep breath...  nod from wife...

"I am transgender."

Good god you should have seen the look on his face.  Cogs whirred. He searched my facial features...  After a long pause he said...

"Ftm?"

The poor guy shot a look at my beaming wife.

"Shes a Mtf.  Prehormones. "  she smiled.

He looked terribly relieved.

Later my wife was laughing " Poor guy looked like he was going to pop a vein".

I was smiling too for a different reason... that's the second time I was picked as an ftm early in transition by a doctor and once by a celebrant.  I guess my face must seem more f than m.  And my wife referred to me as 'she' in a reflex response to a stranger and a male one at that.  And she was smiling when she did it.

Tis' the little things.