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Quote from: Emmaline on September 26, 2013, 08:10:56 AM
My wife and I went to sign up to a new ivf clinic today.  I went in boy mode.

Half an hour into paperwork,  the new doc went through my wifes info and it got to the medical history bit.  My turn... pause... deep breath...  nod from wife...

"I am transgender."

Good god you should have seen the look on his face.  Cogs whirred. He searched my facial features...  After a long pause he said...

"Ftm?"

The poor guy shot a look at my beaming wife.

"Shes a Mtf.  Prehormones. "  she smiled.

He looked terribly relieved.

Later my wife was laughing " Poor guy looked like he was going to pop a vein".

I was smiling too for a different reason... that's the second time I was picked as an ftm early in transition by a doctor and once by a celebrant.  I guess my face must seem more f than m.  And my wife referred to me as 'she' in a reflex response to a stranger and a male one at that.  And she was smiling when she did it.

Tis' the little things.

Kudos Emmaline!
          I have been clocked FtM on several occasions since I remain in an intentional androgynous state and enjoy the guessing games and mental hoops the binary crowd goes through. Your Mrs. is a keeper!

Getting my SRS date.

Quote from: suzifrommd on September 26, 2013, 01:00:01 PM
Getting my SRS date.

Cool, congrats..Goodbye fellas, hello sis! 

More evidence of passing in classes. Lent someone my notes and heard the guy say to his friend "he lent us his notes..."

I got a little emotional while working in the office though. Now that most, if not all, of my students see me as male, I find they are much more comfortable interacting with me. Students never knew how to relate to me when I was still "androgynous" and there was confusion around my gender. And when I was talking to some of the people who were working in the office, again, they had so much more ease around me than those who knew me as transgender.

I've been "out" for almost 4 years now, I was never able to be stealth until recently because I only just began passing. I kind of am choking back tears, because this has been such a long road for me. I've spent so long being treated like some sort of alien, and it was getting to the point where I was starting to wonder if I'd always be a visible "other." It was like a constant reminder that I was different, that I wasn't appearing to be born in the correct body. And I never thought I'd be able to feel normal again, but today, I did.

I was planning on skipping Trusts & Estates today because my sister is up from VA, but was worried about missing any information (we don't use a book, so EVERYTHING is just from what we do in class) that would be important on the final paper. Luckilly, I just got an e-mail saying class today is cancelled.

Got my Gameinformer magazine a few days ago.

About to go have my first laser session today and I am looking forward to it pain and all.

Quote from: EmeraldPerpugilliam on September 26, 2013, 09:35:58 PM
About to go have my first laser session today and I am looking forward to it pain and all.

You'll do fine, remember what Arnold said, "No pain, no gain!" 

Quote from: Shantel on September 27, 2013, 10:03:41 AM
You'll do fine, remember what Arnold said, "No pain, no gain!" 

And with any luck... your short term effects won't last. (It's 7 days... the red blotches are almost gone for me. I wonder what people will say if it's like this next time too )

My sister is awesome and accepting of her new sister (though we're not totally at that point yet). In her words, after being thanked for being so supportive and treating me as I am on our recent mall outing, "No problem, still your sister!!" I'm really happy to have a sister who's outgoing and doesn't care what other people think. Hopefully I can learn a lot from her.

I am definitely getting these for her, my supportive sister-in-law, and me! This week.

Quote from: Miss Bungle on September 27, 2013, 11:09:39 AM
That's really cool, Kabit. *Hands you a carrot*

I'm getting a good laugh at all of the whiny trolls on this one noise board I go to. They are all now whining and crying because the admin isn't going to put up with their crap anymore. It's hilarious. They actually tried to single me out because I have a sig of Portia (Gee, didn't see THAT coming did ya?) and it has a drug reference in it. It's quite funny, I think, but I won't post it here because it might violate the policy on this site.

See? Am I complaining about what someone does with THEIR site? Nope.

That's because I have a brain and I realize that all of the internet isn't my personal troll-box. (Not that I am into trolling anyway) But to see the trolls cry like babies over this is sooooo great!!

Well... you are retired staff! And now I'm curious... I don't know if I'd "get" the reference... I'm pretty good at picking up drug references if they're spelled out for me . I'm w/ you on trolling, though. I don't get the point.

My "drug" of choice is lettuce, though. Sorry if that's accidentally a reference... I mean the vegetable that goes in salad... that rabbits eat.  carrots don't do it for me (though in some fantasies, recently... I'm very where I wasn't before ~ in a lot of respects).

(to continue my blather )... Porcupines will eat lettuce too! I've never seen the Get Along Gang (gasp! I have no idea why not - maybe because we had cable) but it was my wife's favorite show. I remember watching these guys though... not many in the USA can say that:



Sorry... not on topic, but it made me happy! 

Dancing in the kitchen while I clean so I can make foods.

Quote from: Darkie on September 27, 2013, 01:07:16 PM
Dancing in the kitchen while I clean so I can make foods.

I love it!
I've recently found that, when I'm happy (and have music - I usually bring my old squeezebox in, and am awake enough) I will dance myself clean in the shower.

@Shantel Thanks though was still a little unexpected the highest the pain level went was an 8.5 which made my right eye water felt like she ripped 3 hairs out at once with blunt tweezers. In hindsight though since I rarely feel physical pain and cannot gauge to well so an 8.5 for me might actually be more of a 5(might have exaggerated a bit who knows.), most of the time the pain was around a 2-3. Well I have the numbing cream now for next time.

@kabit I must have a fast healing ability as my red blotches are gone already and in fact were gone by last night. I didn't like that the shadow was showing like it would have after two days of regrowth which makes sense now since it has been 2 days lol but I guess it is a good thing as it means the hairs are surfacing and she said I do not seem to get much growth anyway so I should have good results in the long run.

Quote from: EmeraldPerpugilliam on September 28, 2013, 07:36:44 AM
@Shantel Thanks though was still a little unexpected the highest the pain level went was an 8.5 which made my right eye water felt like she ripped 3 hairs out at once with blunt tweezers. In hindsight though since I rarely feel physical pain and cannot gauge to well so an 8.5 for me might actually be more of a 5(might have exaggerated a bit who knows.), most of the time the pain was around a 2-3. Well I have the numbing cream now for next time.

@kabit I must have a fast healing ability as my red blotches are gone already and in fact were gone by last night. I didn't like that the shadow was showing like it would have after two days of regrowth which makes sense now since it has been 2 days lol but I guess it is a good thing as it means the hairs are surfacing and she said I do not seem to get much growth anyway so I should have good results in the long run.

I'm glad it went well! Ive got super thick, fast growing facial hair... and also high pain tolerance. It was pretty terrible (thinking of bringing whiskey along next time it was her suggestion!). I assume that's why the red lasted so long... my only worry is work next time... once, they might pass off... twice??


Here's my happy: yesterday, fixed my computer (thank GOD) - hope it sticks...

today, 1lb off by best... 204.0! Also lost mega inches since my last measure (2 weeks). 2" off my waist! 1" off my torso (38B now... with no AAs or E yet )

And I went for a 3 mile walk! Not bad for 9am.

6 years ago, I made the decision to come out rather than kill myself. Even though all I knew about "the gays and transgenders" was "you'll be screwed up, everyone will hate you, you'll never find love, your family will leave you, no one will hire you, you'll get diseases, die alone, and then rot in hell."

I guess something inside myself told me that my life was worth more than that, even if it was hard. Not that being out as been easy, I've certainly experienced discrimination and hurt, but most of what I was told were lies.

- I'm not screwed up, I'm getting a master's degree, I'm a teacher with great reviews, I have a clean bill of health. I've had more than one person tell me they love how much I smile and laugh, how I know what's truly important, how I have encouraged them to empower themselves.
- Lots of people like me. I don't even have to say much more about that, lol. I'm a nice person.
- I have found love. More than once. The first time, it didn't work out, but I know what we shared was real. It was unconditional. Even when she first broke up with me, I cried so hard I thought I'd puke, but I knew deep down that if I had taken my own life, I'd never have been able to experience that love. And as for the girl who loves me now, well, we'll have to see if things work out for us, but I know she loves me and I love her.
- My family has been a royal pain in the ass and has hurt me pretty bad over this stuff, but they haven't gone anywhere.
- I've been hired several times now and done well at the jobs.
- I don't have any diseases.
- I hopefully won't die alone.
- Hell doesn't exist.

I cried so much over the past hour thinking about this. I never thought I'd have a beautiful life, I just figured that even if life was crappy, I was worth something. Who would have known I could be all that I am?

Quote from: kabit on September 27, 2013, 11:25:58 AM

Ah, The Racoons! *nostalgia*

Quote from: Muffin Top on September 28, 2013, 04:39:35 PM
Ah, The Racoons! *nostalgia*

A Canadian! (?) I loved the Raccoons. I distinctly remember the Christmas special (though not the plot per se).

Bungle, ~ still need to get that video! It's on my wishlist.

I'm back on Spiro