I like "brouhaha" and "discombobulate" equally well.

Quote from: Muffin Top on September 28, 2013, 12:13:16 AM
I prefer "ungerecht"

I love "Rumpelkammer"

That you girls look a lot better than I do! You've set the bar pretty high. In my mind (at 47) and mirror, I look like the daughter of a Russian beet farmer. If any of you ARE Russian beet farmers daughters, I'll give you the co-ordinates for an air strike!

I can't go to my friends' Halloween party because my ex is unwilling to trade weekends and I'd feel bad about asking my usual babysitter since I'll be gone until midnight. It doesn't help that the reason he won't trade is because the halloween party at a bar happens to be on the same weekend. (He's a violent alcoholic.)

I'm thinking that even among a lifetime of hardships, downfalls and a long battle with GID; that I am truly blessed and very thankful that I have the opportunities, the support, and love of everyone around me such as my family, friends, roommates, and work. I'm thinking to myself and asking as to why I get to be so lucky, to have all this love, support, caringness, and acceptance from everyone when so many don't have it.

Quote from: Jessica Merriman on September 28, 2013, 05:04:36 AM
That you girls look a lot better than I do! You've set the bar pretty high. In my mind (at 47) and mirror, I look like the daughter of a Russian beet farmer. If any of you ARE Russian beet farmers daughters, I'll give you the co-ordinates for an air strike!

Incoming!!! You're certainly not alone with those feelings Jessica, don't let it ruin your own plans because true to life there is always someone prettier, sexier, more vivacious and successful in every respect than others and it doesn't deter those others in their own quest to be the best of who they really are. One beet farmer's daughter to another I can assure you that even beet farmer's daughters have people who love them!

I feel so restless.  I'd take the dogs out for a walk or something, but I have a binding injury again, and I can't find any sports bras.

I spoke to my dad this morning and realized that he hasn't got his head around the reality that I'm transitioning. I asked him if he'd mentioned it to his old-boy lunch group and he said "that sort of thing is private. I don't see any reason why anyone should ever have to know what you do in your personal life." Umm...

Interesting to notice how much impact a video game can have on me emotionally. I've played Persona 3 through three times over the course of three years and I still haven't recovered from the ending. It always leaves this weird empty feeling behind and... agh.
Maybe I should draw some fanart to get over it or something... If I'll ever get over it, that is.

Woke up at 11 (in my defence, I'm sick), told myself I'd start cleaning at noon, and it is now 1. Yeah that sounds about right. At least I'm starting now.
I wonder if I'll ever get around to my sewing projects. I wonder if I'll ever get better at sewing.
I wonder if I'll be able to keep up in chemistry.

Quote from: Edge on September 29, 2013, 11:08:53 AM
I wonder if I'll be able to keep up in chemistry.

The answer is always Hydrogen.

I'm resolved to come out to my uncle. He's the only close family member who doesn't know. To date, my coming out experiences have all been positive. This one has the potential to seriously go sour.

*steel yourself, girl*

I'm thinking of getting any IT certification that I can get my hands on

I've just bought my first mens shoes and they're from the teenage section (size 5) and it's so funny how they look so tiny while my womens shoes are the same size yet they don't look like they're tiny shoes... I think my brain's playing tricks on me.

After I get top surgery, instead of doing nothing but Sailor Moon cosplays at Anime Expo, I'm going to see where the gatherings are that I'm intersted in.  I know I'll do a SM cosplay one time but I'll probably switch it up and do a Yugioh, DBZ or Resident Evil cosplay.  If there's a Lupin the Third cosplay gathering, I may look into doing that, but I'll probably stick to something more mainstream....but NOT team rocket because in the Anime expo tips I was memorizing a couple of years ago, basically everyone and their mother goes as team rocket.

I'm thinking that pizza in Malachite's current avatar looks pretty good.

Ive been thinking about going to a support group for more than a year, and in July we were quite close to it (Two friends visiting also wanted to go, but we could not fit it in the schedule). And now, I'm thinking about going once and for all. The trans group does not exist anymore, so it is the mixed one for me (mainly gay). Despite leaning towards les, I don't know how I would fit in their support group...

I've got a day off today. I need something to do. Playing video games all day is not a plan!

Or is it...

Persona 4 anime was a pleasant surprise. It followed the game quite accurately and managed to include the Social Links pretty seamlessly, too. Definetly worth my time!

But... what to do now?

Nvm I don't want to be a vet anymore. I love animals and hospital like settings but I also love cash, especially cash I can use on trans stuff, like having an 80,000$ baby! I'm going with OB/GYN something, either nurse, assistant or doctor, whichever I'm capable of grasping. I've always had an obsession with pregnancy, and OB/GYN doctors make twice as much as vets!