Quote from: Shantel on October 08, 2013, 08:08:01 AM
I may have rowed across the Atlantic on my rowing machine by now. Like to row to sixties era rock music, Aretha Franklin's "Jumpin Jack Flash" really gets me going. Like that get-up stuff!

I always thought rowing looked like fun! I ran today to Toad the Wet Sprocket's album Coil, but I usually workout to either my '80s mix or System of a Down.

Damn, I said I did not want to go to a lgbt support group, but my body has other ideas. I already ironed a top, showered, shaved again, cleaned my face and now I'm preparing the make up desk.


I can't believe I promised myself a kebab if I went today. I can't find a decent excuse for staying at home, I feel too alone...

Ugh, I'm bored waiting for my hair to grow. I like the direction it's taking but it will need to be fixed severely when it gets longer. I still have 2 years worth of growth on the top of my head, the hair that grows out the bottom of my scalp on the back of my neck was for the most part, completely cut off. I was scared to do it at first but I think it'll be good for it in the long run, it'll now grow along with my top hair as an extra layer, and thus it won't curl fracking stupidly like it did when it was by itself, I think! Ugh, I'm so OCD about the uneven parts but I won't dare cut ANYTHING until my hair gets some growth back! In the mean time I think I'll consider a wig, mah dream hair isn't coming for 3 years at least. -.-" (2 if you don't count the uneven chunk that needs to go) I was looking at some really cute ones on Amazon, ugh I hope they're not too uncomfortable.

Also, it seems to me that people are too hard and judgemental about teen pregnancy. I know it's a problem but it seems like this taboo encourages people to treat pregnant teenagers like horrible, stupid whores who will give their baby a horrible upbringing. It all seems blown out of proportion; these girls shouldn't be judged by their mistake, and having a teenage mother isn't the absolute worst upbringing that you can have.

I like rainy days, I don't have to go hunt down the furry tailed rat to bring him back to the house.

Quote from: anymouse on October 08, 2013, 11:36:59 AM
I like rainy days, I don't have to go hunt down the furry tailed rat to bring him back to the house.

The one that eats all that unhealthy people food?

Quote from: Shantel on October 08, 2013, 11:41:23 AM
The one that eats all that unhealthy people food?

He eats quite well, thank you very much.   Well, maybe he shouldn't eat candy occasionally, but hey, we can't all be perfect, you know.

Quote from: anymouse on October 08, 2013, 11:44:12 AM
He eats quite well, thank you very much.   Well, maybe he shouldn't eat candy occasionally, but hey, we can't all be perfect, you know.

Well exsqueeze me!  Guess I should be careful about how I refer to your baby boy! 

I was wondering what it means that some people think I'm weak and shouldn't be in this line of study while others think I'm very strong and good at this. Considering those who think me weak never saw me at my worst and those who think I'm a strong person have seen me at my weakest, I just wonder what that means.

I really need to take a break from the GTA V strip club.  I don't want to become immune to it's effect.

Quote from: Shantel on October 08, 2013, 12:37:19 PM
Well exsqueeze me!  Guess I should be careful about how I refer to your baby boy! 

He seems to prefer "Your Highness" or "Master Jake." 

Ahhhh red line hurry up! I m not going to have time to get dinner before boarding the rail now, and I am so hungry.   I only had a yogurt today.

Thinking I die a little bit every time I have to post that candle.

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on October 08, 2013, 07:48:39 PM
Thinking I die a little bit every time I have to post that candle.

You give too many hugs, it's time you get one for once.

You can't give hugs away, you get one back ever time you try. 

It just bothers me that we're such a tiny, tiny community and one of us is always dying.

Hugs to everyone, Devlyn

Quote from: Miss Bungle on October 08, 2013, 08:25:53 PM
And you don't want to run out of singles.

Yeah that's ride, at $$0 a dance and about 10-15 dances per session, that adds up.

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on October 08, 2013, 08:21:48 PM
You can't give hugs away, you get one back ever time you try. 

It just bothers me that we're such a tiny, tiny community and one of us is always dying.

Hugs to everyone, Devlyn

I know.  Some of my friends that aren't on this site but trans I suddenly won't hear from for weeks and I get really worried.  I just finally talked to one of my friends the other day, came to find out her ex ODed (he was cis) and I didn't know.  I worry about her all the time but I can't do anything for her because I live 3 hours away.  I'm not really financially able to go visit her, and she isn't able to visit here for the same reason.  It's hard.  All of us connected with the internet, which is a beautiful thing, but when the other person really needs someone there all you can do is wish and try and be there for them as best you can.  It's heartbreaking, and even though I don't know a lot of people in the community it is still sad. 

Some people don't understand that just because you don't meet someone face to face doesn't mean their death means less.  When I found out my friend Nicolas died, no one had told me.  He had been dead for 2 weeks and no one had told me.  I took it really hard, because it was sudden (he died of a sudden heart attack) and I never got to say goodbye.  In some ways, I feel it is harder when someone you know online dies because you don't know if they are just busy or if something has happened.  And even if you find out they died, you can't do anything.  I couldn't go to his funeral.  I talk to his brother every once in a while, but I don't have any closure.  I had to bury it deep because I was irritating people as I mourned.  They didn't understand that just because I had never met him didn't lessen his worth to me.  I cherish the people that I allow to get into my bubble.  I had shared with him many things, he had helped me get over my friend's death. (This friend I had known since high school and died after he moved back to Russia.)

Quote from: Malachite on October 08, 2013, 08:29:55 PM
Yeah that's ride, at $$0 a dance and about 10-15 dances per session, that adds up.

Well, looks like you are going to be a pro when it comes to money handling. XD 
Manager: Wow, where did you learn your amazing money counting skills?
Malachite: Making sure I had enough singles to pay the lapdancers on GTA V.

Quote from: Darkie on October 08, 2013, 08:40:44 PM
Well, looks like you are going to be a pro when it comes to money handling. XD 
Manager: Wow, where did you learn your amazing money counting skills?
Malachite: Making sure I had enough singles to pay the lapdancers on GTA V.

Oops I I meant to type $40.  I had made a mistake the first time to where it was $0 and it looks like I incorrectly tried to correct it lol.

I am giving serious thought to skipping Deaf Studies tomorrow.  I don't have the homework done nor my presentation and I don't feel good.

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on October 08, 2013, 08:21:48 PM
You can't give hugs away, you get one back ever time you try. 

It just bothers me that we're such a tiny, tiny community and one of us is always dying.

Hugs to everyone, Devlyn

I bet were bigger than you think, sure the amount of people that post is small but look at all of the guests who are online at any time. I think about them when I post as I know what it was like when I was just a guest coming here looking for words of advice to help me though my own troubled times that kept me living because of the ones that do post and open up with their own issues that you can relate to or often share the exact same problems.

Indeed hugs for everyone