hi lexi! welcome to susans. if you haven't been "lurking" around, let me tell you that this place is full of support! the forums are great, and I really love the chat. i've made quite a few great friends on there!
I have been on hrt for about 11 months now, and i totally understand the loneliness you are feeling. i also understand the not feeling ashamed, and feeling pure female inside. to me it feels like i am finally living, that i can finally feel.
i look forward to seeing you on the forums and chat. i'm sure we have lots in common!