Hey All!!

So I rarely do this, but I've recently bought a dress, panties, garters, stockings, lipstick... and I'm planning on getting a purse and matching heels today.  TBH, I have only gone out in public dressed up once before, and I didn't really feel it was for me.  But this morning, I dressed up in what I had and went out for breakfast... I felt surprisingly comfortable.

I think the thing I don't like is not having any pockets, I don't have my purse yet so I have to carry everything in my hands.  But I didn't get tarred and feathered like I thought might happen, the girls serving me seemed extra sweet and attentive.  So now I'm starting to think maybe crossdressing completely IS something I could feel comfortable doing.

Right now I can use halloween as an excuse as I shop for my women's clothes, and I think that really helps relieve the stress that someone will have a problem with your crossdressing and slap you with a bible or something.  I already am known in my neighborhood as "that guy with the huge rack that wears bras" so I don't know why I'm so reluctant to be known instead as "that guy with the huge rack that wears dresses and heels".

I'm kind of confused now, I thought I didn't have an interest in dresses but they make me feel super relaxed and more like "myself"... so maybe I have full blown gender dysphoria after all.  *fret*

Well, halloween will be the turning point for me... I'm def dressing up to the nines all day, after that if I still want to dress and live as a woman, then I guess it's time to choose a fem name.   

I used to use Halloween as an excuse to shop for clothes and especially lingerie, but since the internet I can buy pretty much anything online and I have bought so much.

Have a super day...

Quote from: DietFresca on October 24, 2013, 01:17:37 PM
I'm kind of confused now, I thought I didn't have an interest in dresses but they make me feel super relaxed and more like "myself"... so maybe I have full blown gender dysphoria after all.  *fret*

Well, halloween will be the turning point for me... I'm def dressing up to the nines all day, after that if I still want to dress and live as a woman, then I guess it's time to choose a fem name.   

*heh*  That's how it started, for me.  Don't worry, hon, if you do have dysphoria you will find that life gets so much better as you start to accept yourself and transition.  I can't speak for the whole road (I'm still pre-HRT), but I can say that I am *much* happier with myself since I began.

Meanwhile, why not pick out a name?  A just-for-halloween name if nothing else... make it campy and fun.  Jacky O'Lantern or something like that.  For the day, as planned, you're gonna be one of the girls, you might as well have fun with it! 

Also, I ended up having to shave my chest, the dress shows some cleavage and the hair on my cleavage just looked out of place...

Quote from: DietFresca on October 24, 2013, 05:50:51 PM
Also, I ended up having to shave my chest, the dress shows some cleavage and the hair on my cleavage just looked out of place...

Been there, do it every morning.

I always wanted to dress like a girl for Halloween.  I never did.  In fact I never allowed myself to wear women's clothing until last November.

I had a male math teacher in high school who dressed as a woman every Halloween without fail.  I later became pretty good friends with his daughter, who was a co-worker of mine.  She admitted to me that it "wasnt just Halloween" when he did that.

I figured that if I ever went out as a woman for Halloween, it would become obvious to everyone what my deal really was. 

Now that I'm out and full time, my costume this year is umm, androgynous. 

Progress? 

I went to a women's clothes for men shop here in Chicago to look for high heels, no dice, I have gigantic feet at size 15 mens, which translates to size 17 in women's apparently.  I'm not going to be able to find heels before halloween.  D:

I DID find some awesome falsies, they take you from nothing to a C cup, they're made of gel and are super soft!  I already wear a DD cup but with these inserted in the cups it's pushes me out of the cup such that I actually have cleavage now!    Better still, these inserts have serious nipples, they show through the bra and the dress, actually they're super noticeable to the point that I'm slightly self conscious about them.

I pushed out of my comfort zone, it's not halloween yet, but I dressed up completely.  Put on makeup, wore my dress, panties, garter, hose, bra, falsies which is everything I have now and put all my stuff in my matching purse and went to the grocery store.  Interestingly enough people stared LESS than they usually do when I'm dressed as a man but wearing a bra under my shirt, not sure why.

I was super nervous someone would say something, but the people who did see me smiled and nodded or what have you... the cashier was a guy and he was really friendly, but I had trouble looking him in the eye, I felt pretty embarrassed.  I'm sure I'll get better at looking people in the eye as I get more used to being dressed up in public.

Quote from: robinmack on October 24, 2013, 03:50:12 PM
*heh*  That's how it started, for me.  Don't worry, hon, if you do have dysphoria you will find that life gets so much better as you start to accept yourself and transition.  I can't speak for the whole road (I'm still pre-HRT), but I can say that I am *much* happier with myself since I began.

I'm definitely feeling different, since I started dressing up completely, I feel *happier*... I was driving to a computer store yesterday, listening to a CD of music I have been listening to forever, but for some reason the song seemed sublime, it was the most amazing feeling!!  I was actually confused at how much I seemed to be enjoying it, I played it again to see if I could repeat the experience, but I couldn't get that amazing feeling of happiness on demand, I think it's just the happiness from accepting that I feel more comfortable as a woman.

I can totally relate. The more I dress up, the more I want to. I dressed publicly for the first time this Halloween. It was scary for me too at first. I passed thanks to my wifes help & coaching. I want to go out again, but I'm in the closet and a bit scared. I called the local tg group yesterday and I'm meeting someone for coffee to have a chat. It will be nice to talk to someone openly face to face. Perhaps you could do the same.

Hugs & good luck in you journey 

Cindy

Progress report:

Holy crap!!  Who knew there was so much to living as a woman?

All the people I interact with daily now know I'm living as a woman.  I've bought an entire wardrobe:

Dresses
Coats
Scarf
panties (lots)
still squeezing into my old bras with new breastforms
tights
rings
bracelet/necklace
got ears pierced, sparkly studs
had nails done, learning to cope  D:
ALL the makeup
female body wash
female deoderant
Halle Berry's perfume
had my makeup professionally done at Sephora
hair dyed fun colors
toenails painted
stockings and garters
classy conservative dress or two

Despite all this, not passable from 1000 yards... but I'm at peace with it, this is for me, not the public.

Question is, what happens when an interview request comes in?  D: