I hope I am doing this right, I've never really been a part of a real forum before and am still getting used to using them! I have been skimming this sites forum every now and then for a while, though, I've only just now got the courage to make an account for it. (I actually kept having to get up and walk around a few times before I could write anything down here, heh, wow, I guess I'm just super nervous about joining in here on things I've been taught I shouldn't think much less talk about.)

Um, but to the actual introduction here: I am DFAB and questioning. I have been tentatively identifying as genderqueer for a few months now, to people online and one or two select friends, but I just don't feel that it's...me. I feel like I'm actually, truly a guy. I do enjoy some stereotypical feminine things, and occasional feminine dress but when I dress like a "girl" I've always felt in in the way of crossdressing, if that makes sense? I've always tried to push away from being pushed into the box of female for as long as I could remember; I would try and imitate the boys more than the girls, I even told my cousin once when we were young that I wish I had been born a boy, because we were so similar I was sure she'd understand, but her reaction had me too scared to bring it up again.

I have always got along with boys more than I have with girls, though as I've grown older I find it harder to fit in with most people do to my anxiety disorder, which as I've been looking into myself I think might have manifested in part (but not all) because of my gender. I am okay with neutral and feminine pronouns sometimes but a lot of the time lately I just feel like curling up and screaming to not be called by them. I'm just so scared to tell others I might be a transman, because what if I'm wrong? That terrifies me more than anything, feeling confident in what I am and telling others but coming to realize it was all wrong.

I've known I was bisexual for a long time, but I don't really think it has any basis on my gender identity? I kind of just like everyone if their personality is attractive enough, though I'll admit to a prefer for women.

This got kinda long winded, heh, sorry! But anyway, I'm definitely excited (nervous, but excited) to hopefully participate in discussions on here and discover more about myself.

Oh, and: as I'm still questioning, I wasn't sure what to make my name on here! So I chose to use a name from Greek mythology, Tiresias, until I figure something out.

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Hi Tiresias! Is it OK for me to know you as my little brother? I only ask because we are family now as you have been adopted. Welcome. It will take no time at all for you to be very comfortable here. I had a BFF on the third day and many more have become more family than mine was. I will warn you about one thing though, this family is so addictive I never spend much time anywhere else. The support, love and honest caring you will find here is just incredible. I could not have gone as far as I have without the other family members here supporting me through good times and bad. Feel free to vent, cry, laugh and live here. You are home now!! BIG HUG!! 

I will be sure to follow the terms as closely as possible Amelia, thank you for linking them to me 

Thank you so much Jessica! Gosh, yeah, go ahead and refer to me as your little brother - the whole sense of family I saw while browsing this forum is what drew me to this site specifically in the first place. It sounds so nice to have a family who understands and accepts you, I wouldn't mind getting addicted here to be honest haha.

Welcome, Tiresias!

I remember being very nervous about being here too.  I was so intimidated of this site (because it's so freaking cool) that I actually joined another trans site because it was less intimitated (and respectively less cool).  Eventually, I realized that THIS was the site to be on so I made an account, got past my nervousness and 10,772  posts later, I'm talking to you.    Feel free to be yourself here and to get everything off your chest.  I know I do considering that this is the only place where I can be my real self at.

Enjoy the site!

Jessica beat me to it. 

Yep, you're already been adopted, little brother. Welcome to your new family. I know it's nerve wracking to make the first post, but you did it! Go, you! Now that you're here, take your time, look around, ask many questions. I hope we can help you answer your questions. You found a safe place here, I promise. 

-maggie

Hi Tiresias,

Welcome to our little family. Over 8250 members. That would be one heck of a family reunion.

Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams.  Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.

But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another member.


Janet  )O(

Malachite; Thank you! I really hope I can get past my nervousness soon, everyone already seems so welcoming! I swear I don't usually use this many exclamation points, eheh, I just didn't expect to be treated so warmly I guess it's got me in a exclamation-mood.

Magdalena; Thanks, I'm already looking around (a reason my replies are probably being slow, oops) and I'm really liking what I see of the community here so far, I hope I can become a good member of this family.

Ms. Obrien; Ah thank you! The biggest little family haha.

Hi Tiresias, welcome to Susan's Place! I live near Boston. Glad you're enjoying the site, see you around! Hugs, Devlyn

You are more than part of a "real forum," Tiresias.  You are part of a real community and family.

Greetings