If you are anything like me baby it is a little of both. I did not realize just how much energy I used on a daily basis to fake my way through life. It feels like a huge weight has been lifted. Even though transitioning is hard, I am a lot more relaxed and focused on the now. I feel more emotions, hear things anew and love looking at life through the eyes of who I should have been born as. I hope everything works well for you and you continue to smile inside. 🙂