Before beginning transition, I would have said not at all. But like many trans girls and guys, transitioning has changed so much. Sometimes it feels like I have escaped one prison only to run into another. There's nothing entirley masculine about me but the vestiges of my former life seem to be more pronounced now that I have switched sexes. Before people would have said I way too femme to be a guy both personality wise and physically. Now people say I'm kinda boyish. But this is a comment on how I act not look. I'm kinda slobbish and dirty in a i don't give a f*** kinda way. But more I think it is because the people who sya this know I'm trans so they expect a caricture of feminity.

I think the main thing that is genderfluid with me is my presentation. I present rather andro though my wardrobe is entirely from the women's section. I have this whole jean seaberg/gennifer goodwin thing going on. I was reading Lucky magazine at the checkout counter while my BF was playing with some kid and I saw this article on them and it could have been about me. So maybe I am not genderfluid. But sometimes I feel like it fits me. Though I never, ever identify with men. And I never, ever have.

Quote from: Joanna Dark on November 19, 2013, 08:23:43 PM
But more I think it is because the people who sya this know I'm trans so they expect a caricture of feminity.

This. It's something I had to come to terms with in therapy. It's so easy to just run full speed towards womanhood, strip naked to shed the veils of masculinity, and not look back. But in reality, it's more like stepping over a line. And I feel like I can now accept and be okay with seeing manhood from across that line. In fact, that line doesn't even need to be there so long as I can see where the men are.

My ex (a woman and self-proclaimed lesbian) thinks I'm not going to be the best woman I can be because I can't cook, or sew, or numerous other things that supposedly would make me female. I don't think she's entirely serious, but still probably a bit serious. Which I think is sad, but maybe something she struggles with too. We do have to accept the pressures of being a woman alongside the pressures of being trans.

I am good in kitchen  cooking, baking - that is my stuff, along with archery, fencing  And I am very tidy, even some girl's flats were not tidy enough for me! Though I live in a poorly unfurnished flat, no plants as well, but it is clean. 
I am not an expert, and definition of fluidity looks to vague to me... but then I want to label myself somehow, I call myself gender fluid, just for the sake of labelling. Girls I know find me feminine and that is why I don't have much success in that department. Like for example, recently instead of flirting and pushing a girl to have a good time with me (which I don't really want, but I like to cuddle), our discussion slipped to makeup and I gave her some tips how to improve it, obviously she asked me if I am a man or maybe makeup artist at least 

Don't know how to call this... The problem is that it looks like I am drifting to a more feminine behaviour, and I had a very gruesome breakdown yesterday, I had to admit that I might not be able to live like that my entire life, so maybe my fluidity is just oppressed femininity.