Quote from: ♡ Emily ♡ on January 10, 2014, 06:04:56 PM
Thank You everyone for Your nice words Actually, my posts was not intended as "do I pass" (because actually I dont - yet, but I am getting there!). Instead, I only wanted to show how hormones are changing skin (texture and tightening up) and yeah, Tria pays me to make those posts and advertise their products too (ok, just kidding ). Most of my changes are combined effort from massive weight loss, hormones, getting my hair out and facial hair removal.
Oh hai! - I do play instruments, but only piano (6 years) and bit of blockflute (was rather fooling around with it). But since a couple of my fingers got shattered in swordfighting, I am not such a good piano player as I used to be. I can sing too, but mostly ballades and such like stuff . So, most probably, I am not Your ex fiance .
Everyone else who called "him" cute - it is kinda nice that he is gone now, because if he heard someone calling him "cute"... You got the idea .
Just Lara - yes, You are so right... It is a pity I could never make a full timeline set, because when I was 18, something bite me and I thought that it would be a good idea to purge all of my pre-school and school pics (now, I pretty much know what were the reasons for that, but back in those days I just hated seeing my photos, besides I thought that it would be a symbolic act of burning bridges). And even now, I mostly have those "action" pics only. My first therapist tried to tell me that I could just go on living as effeminate guy - which is kinda normal for novadays. He could understand why I dismissed this idea as being very stupid . If I had to live as a guy - the only way would be to purge myself of anything feminine, because every smallest thing would be a trigger, whereas I needed oblivion. Only worked for two decades though, but I am not complaining - found my distinct niche among guys so nobody ever suspected and got my share of fun and adventures too . But "he" never felt so alive as I do now though... . And who said that princesses cant be knights too?

Emily
You are looking great in your latest avatar. You are coming along nicely. Lots ok change in the past few months.

Hugs

Kay

I sent an email to a GP in my town (without my name attached) as I wanted to see if he was willing to work with people who are transgender or looking at transitioning. They are all very conservative here so I wanted to test the waters, so to speak. His reply was three words:

"I do not."

I felt really upset and now a bit depressed. I cried my eyes out for a long while, but after I thought about it and decided to hell with him. I will keep searching and go to another town if I have to for a consultation.

After a while I figured I should keep up my spirits so I spent an hour and half on my eyes and skin etc practising how to do it.  How do you all do it I will never know

It made me feel good even if my body is still big lol and manly, which is why I cut the bottom half of my body out of the image, because I feel embarrassed by my size. (currently 98kg and 5kg drop in two weeks, 20kg to go before I am ready to start HRT.)


I just had to get the let down of my chest, so ignore me being a sooky lala and posting about it!! But it was therapeutic to do it 

Quote from: Sarah leah on January 13, 2014, 03:00:25 AM
I sent an email to a GP in my town (without my name attached) as I wanted to see if he was willing to work with people who are transgender or looking at transitioning. They are all very conservative here so I wanted to test the waters, so to speak. His reply was three words:

"I do not."

I felt really upset and now a bit depressed. I cried my eyes out for a long while, but after I thought about it and decided to hell with him. I will keep searching and go to another town if I have to for a consultation.

After a while I figured I should keep up my spirits so I spent an hour and half on my eyes and skin etc practising how to do it.  How do you all do it I will never know

It made me feel good even if my body is still big lol and manly, which is why I cut the bottom half of my body out of the image, because I feel embarrassed by my size. (currently 98kg and 5kg drop in two weeks, 20kg to go before I am ready to start HRT.)


I just had to get the let down of my chest, so ignore me being a sooky lala and posting about it!! But it was therapeutic to do it 

Your cute Bloody awful GP you have, don't cry over him, find someone who is actually a decent human being. You have a lovely smile in your avatar Sarah

I am getting sick and tired of cis women posting In this thread. 

Quote from: Sarah leah on January 13, 2014, 03:00:25 AM
I sent an email to a GP in my town (without my name attached) as I wanted to see if he was willing to work with people who are transgender or looking at transitioning. They are all very conservative here so I wanted to test the waters, so to speak. His reply was three words:

"I do not."

I felt really upset and now a bit depressed. I cried my eyes out for a long while, but after I thought about it and decided to hell with him. I will keep searching and go to another town if I have to for a consultation.

After a while I figured I should keep up my spirits so I spent an hour and half on my eyes and skin etc practising how to do it.  How do you all do it I will never know

It made me feel good even if my body is still big lol and manly, which is why I cut the bottom half of my body out of the image, because I feel embarrassed by my size. (currently 98kg and 5kg drop in two weeks, 20kg to go before I am ready to start HRT.)


I just had to get the let down of my chest, so ignore me being a sooky lala and posting about it!! But it was therapeutic to do it 

OMG Baby! Your eyes are so beautiful! They are definitely fantastic and a real attention getter. They are so hypnotic. I can't say enough about them. Trust me, no one in their right mind will get past them to look down, sigh! 

Quote from: "I'm Stella Stanhope, and that's why I drink". on January 12, 2014, 07:11:25 PM
I've posted a few months ago in this thread, but only had the confidence to post a head shot. So here's a body shot. I'm intrigued as to whether HRT might actually ruin my figure or not, as currently I'm within female range body-size wise (despite developing fairly pronounced upper musculature and most recently, male stomach fat distribution).
The females on my mum's side of the family have always had lean boyish figures, despite having medium sized breasts, so perhaps not much would happen if I too HRT...or perhaps so. Tis a mystery.

Right now, due to stunted growth when I were a nipper, I'm quite small and fairly delicate. However, the bits of me that have already masculinised - are very pronounced, like brow-ridge and Adam's Apple (so FFS for those I guess) and hairline - everything above my lips looks like Phil Collins. So I'm a curious mix of feminine proportioned & delicate, yet rugged & hard-edged. Sometimes kids ask if I'm female (when I'm in complete boy-mode at work), and sometimes people think I'm over 35 and I look like the actor William Dafoe, or Justin Hawkins from the band "The Darkness". I can look totally different depending on the lighting. If it wasn't for the stunted growth when I was a kid, I'd be impossibly masculine, but it just so happens that I'm within female sizing ranges, yet masculine at the same time. Its like being stuck in a lift between two floors.

Photomabobs. I'm wearing an A-cup padded bra by-the-way.

Stella my girl if you go on HRT you will put all of us to shame. My gosh girlfriend you are gorgeous right NOW! If I had your looks I would go full time before I finished typing this. Color me jealous baby! You are going to break some hearts out there.

Jessica-
"OK family I know I don't pass and I want to know what I can do about it. Please be brutally honest and give me some suggestions or observations about what is not right or needs work. I am working on the weight loss side and have lost 42.7 pounds since July 2013 and still committed to my goal. Please do not pull any punches and give it to me straight. I will not feel upset or bad about anything said to help me improve. No one will be smited or unfriended for helping me out. Now, fire away!  "

Quote from: Sarah leah on January 13, 2014, 03:00:25 AM
I sent an email to a GP in my town (without my name attached) as I wanted to see if he was willing to work with people who are transgender or looking at transitioning. They are all very conservative here so I wanted to test the waters, so to speak. His reply was three words:

"I do not."

I felt really upset and now a bit depressed. I cried my eyes out for a long while, but after I thought about it and decided to hell with him. I will keep searching and go to another town if I have to for a consultation.

After a while I figured I should keep up my spirits so I spent an hour and half on my eyes and skin etc practising how to do it.  How do you all do it I will never know

It made me feel good even if my body is still big lol and manly, which is why I cut the bottom half of my body out of the image, because I feel embarrassed by my size. (currently 98kg and 5kg drop in two weeks, 20kg to go before I am ready to start HRT.)


I just had to get the let down of my chest, so ignore me being a sooky lala and posting about it!! But it was therapeutic to do it 

Any eyeliner tips? I cannot apply it in any decent way and yours looks very very well applied.
What do you use?

Hi Girls

Pre-everything, trying to get some feminine look with a little bit of help by Photoshop. Looks like this is the only way to get rid of my awful beard shadow. Yet to pluck my eyebrows properly too. Hope that after 30 something years of testosterone, there is not much damage to my face.
Bud some day ... the ugly duckling ....

Quote from: Trillian on January 13, 2014, 05:25:50 PM
Hi Girls

Pre-everything, trying to get some feminine look with a little bit of help by Photoshop. Looks like this is the only way to get rid of my awful beard shadow. Yet to pluck my eyebrows properly too. Hope that after 30 something years of testosterone, there is not much damage to my face.
Bud some day ... the ugly duckling ....

:O youre so pretty!

Quote from: Trillian on January 13, 2014, 05:25:50 PM
Hi Girls

Pre-everything, trying to get some feminine look with a little bit of help by Photoshop. Looks like this is the only way to get rid of my awful beard shadow. Yet to pluck my eyebrows properly too. Hope that after 30 something years of testosterone, there is not much damage to my face.
Bud some day ... the ugly duckling ....

You have a nice face to start with!

Quote from: Robin_Particle on January 13, 2014, 05:20:06 AM
I am getting sick and tired of cis women posting In this thread. 

LOL, it seems that way huh?!  We are being invaded by cuties.

Straight(ish) or curly?

(Also, just hit the one-year mark on HRT two days ago.)

I say curly.

Quote from: Emo on January 13, 2014, 07:56:18 AM
Jessica-
"OK family I know I don't pass and I want to know what I can do about it. Please be brutally honest and give me some suggestions or observations about what is not right or needs work. I am working on the weight loss side and have lost 42.7 pounds since July 2013 and still committed to my goal. Please do not pull any punches and give it to me straight. I will not feel upset or bad about anything said to help me improve. No one will be smited or unfriended for helping me out. Now, fire away!  "

Honestly I say you pass already! Your make up looks good, you look relaxed and natural in your pictures too. Aaand congratulations on the weight loss that's great progress!

Quote from: Carrie Liz on January 13, 2014, 09:17:36 PM
Straight(ish) or curly?

(Also, just hit the one-year mark on HRT two days ago.)

Congrats on your 1 year!

And I'd say curly, but I'd be interested what straight could look like when it's longer...

Looking great!

Quote from: Carrie Liz on January 13, 2014, 09:17:36 PM
Straight(ish) or curly?

(Also, just hit the one-year mark on HRT two days ago.)

Curly. Always curly.

Thank you for the confidence boost! I am embarrassed I posted now, as I get emotional to easily over idiot doctors. I really am a girl at times >.<

@Trillian  You are very pretty already, I would die for blue eyes
@Marieee  OMG! you look like my sister!!!
@Mickie  congrats, curly and... are you on youtube, because I know you somehow?

@ Thylacin Any eyeliner tips?
Yes and no as I have only done my makeup three times in the last five years. I could never face my gender conflict  until December last year as I was trying to bury it deep down and be the perfect male. However what I did was stole my sisters really oldest liquid eyeliner.. from her house as she has three of them!

The brand is called: Maybelline Precise Liquid Eyeliner. (I think as the Label is faded, but a sticker on it says that it cost $11 Australian)

I swear it is like using a texture (felt-tip pen). It is super easy if you relax, breath deeply and:

1. Line the lash line from the inner corner to the outer corner of the eyes very lightly with it
2. Then leave 5 mins and repeat for a more dramatic line like what I did.
3. I then applied a dark charcoal to my upper lids with a light coat ( just enough to see it in the mirror barely)
4. Then I highlighted the first 3-4 millimetres over that with a thin brush to darken it with the same charcoal eye shadow (just above the eyeliner not on it like I did the first 300000 times)
5. Then I closed my eye and looked for the centre of my eye through the eyelid and did a bump with dark blue eye shadow, then smudged it a little with my little finger towards the inside of my eye (towards the nose)
6. lastly I redid my lower and upper eyelid with another line of the liquid eye liner  a bit higher on the top then step 1 (so as to make it look bolder). I only did the outer half of the eye lids from my pupil outwards  top and bottom lid so it draws the shape of the eyes outwards.
7. I did my bottom lashes with a tiny coat of mascara to add to the look and upper lashes, wait 10 mins while I do dishes heh, then recoat the top again.

I am no expert so my advice is pure luck on my part as like I said third time a five years ever doing make up and I tried it again before and the lines looked odd, but I think practice will improve it over time

Quote from: Sarah leah on January 14, 2014, 01:14:26 AM
@Mickie  congrats, curly and... are you on youtube, because I know you somehow?

You mean me? (Mickie was quoting my pictures, and you seem to be answering the question that I asked, so just assuming here...)

If so, then yes, I am indeed on Youtube under the name cheetaking243.


Also, Sarah, wow, you have an extremely feminine lower face, a very nice round shape, and what looks like almost zero brow bossing. HRT is going to treat you AMAZINGLY. You've got a lot to look forward to!

I knew it was you of youtube heh, you are great by the way  and one of the three people who inspired me to face my true self. So thank you.