Quote from: ThePhoenix on January 12, 2014, 10:47:35 PM
There's passing to others and then their's passing to oneself.  I basically do not get clocked as anything but a ciswoman in my life.  But I look at myself in the mirror and it has taken a couple of years to start seeing female rather than anything other than T-damage.  So one can pass and blend in seamlessly with others . . . But yet still see oneself as looking strange.  Perhaps because you just get used to seeing yourself one way and it's hard to get out of the habit and takes time to do so.  The cognitive dissonance that this creates is not fun.

It's very hard to see your self. I admit I'm lucky with my looks. I have a lot of features from my mother. I could  "pass" pre HRT with minimal make up.
I've been on HRT for 4 months and I love seeing myself finally after so long as I truly am. The thing  is though I look in the mirror and my perception of my looks can very quite a bit. One day I'll go wow and the next day I wonder why I thought wow. It gets quite maddening at times.

I don't think I pass in public, but whenever I meet people or have to order food, they realize I'm not a cis girl and get embarrassed.

My friends who I met from just prior to starting and to JUST after starting meds say when they first saw me they didn't think I was a guy, but now, after almost 1 yr...they can see the guy in my face that I see everyday...what gives. Kind of weird. Guess because they're in the know and are honest enough to say what they think and not try to say stuff to make you feel better.