Hello Everyone, I'm Deanna.  I figured it was about time for an intro.  I've been perusing the forum for hours now, getting to know many of you through your stories so I'm going to write a little about myself in return.  I am M2F although, you wouldn't know it by looking at me as I haven't started any treatments and am currently living as male.  That's not by choice... I have no alternative at the moment. 

I am -out- to my parents (I have four... mom & step-dad, dad & step-mom).  I came out to my mom first because I knew she would understand.  I went to my first gay bar with her when I was 15, so she's liberal.  She made my coming out easy on me by telling my other 3 parents and then relating back to me that they were all okay with it.  I'm not sure if my dad really is though.  I don't think he grasps the depth of the issue.  I'm sure that he loves me with all his heart but I don't know if he's aware of the fact that, someday, I'll have the appearance of his daughter and not his son.  I believe that he may think my being TS is just a passing fancy or that I'm a boy that just wants to be a girl... like a fun thing to try.  The problem I have is bringing any of this up to him.  It's true that my mom -outed me- to him and he told her that it was okay, he still loved me... but he and I personally have not spoken one word about it... not one.

I came out to my best friend of 10 years last spring I think.  His reaction was an uncontrollable fit of laughter (and I was actually nervous to tell him).  I couldn't help but laugh with him though.  He persists that I need couseling and a girlfriend to "cure me" of my thoughts of SRS.  He just doesn't understand but he's getting better... he told me I could be the maid of honor in his wedding if he had one

Currently, I am living in Huntsville, AL (or Huntsvegas as I like to call it) with my mom & step-dad.  I have no job (anybody hiring? will gladly relocate ) and the place I was working at was severely damaged by Katrina.  I really miss my home in Picayune, MS... I was only like, 45 minutes from the French Quarter in New Orleans.  That's where I was able to dress up, "come out of my shell" and really be who I feel like on the inside.

That's all I can think of for the moment.  Fell free to email or PM me as I'm usually home bored.

later,
Deanna Miller

Welcome to Susan's Deanna,

As you have been exploring the site I'm sure that you've discovered that we are a friendly bunch here with a wide variety of thoughts, and opinions, as you've also probably discovered the posts here can really become lively and interesting so do take part and offer your thoughts where you can.

So enjoy your stay, I'm sure that will will chat later,

Steph

Glad to have you here,

Very nicely put information in you intro. Just wondering what do you do in job field? (You mentioned relocating if some one had a job for you).

Ditto to Seth's comments of freindly bunch with variety and liveliness.
Hope to read about you and you thoughts and opinions more.

Have a Great Day,
Peggiann

Well, Peggiann, since you asked   I'm good with computers: building, repairing, admin.  I'm not a programmer.  I am Microsoft Certified in NT4, which is an old operating system, but anyone who is familiar would know that much of the same still applies to current OS's.  I also went to computer electronics school for 2 years and finished at the top of the class.

Work related experience:  I've worked in many computer stores, I've been in broadcast engineering for 3 different companies both television and radio.  I know how to do %80 to %90  of the stuff that goes on behind the scenes in television (like production, master control, live shots or remotes, and of course engineering)  I've also worked in DVD manufacturing (and I don't mean burning copies for friends )

To sum up, pretty much -anything- technology related, I tend to excel at.

Thank you all for the warm welcome.  I've been looking for friends who are understanding and now it seems, I have found them.

Later,
Deanna

ps. Melissa, I have also found that many of my hobbies have subsided and I have picked up new hobbies so to speak.  Maybe my dad will come around when he gets -visual- reinforcement.  Or perhaps I could have my mother talk to him again.  For some reason I feel intimidated to bring up deep issues with him, I always have.

Hi Deanna,

Welcome to Susan's a place where you can relax and be yourself.

As to your Dad if you think about it iit will have taken a fair bit of time for you to get used to where you are in your life. Sometimes it takes our loved one's time too.

As a parent myself often your first reaction is protection. The life of a Tg person is not an easy one and it sometimes takes time to get over that initial need for a parent to protect.

Whatever happens you've started your journey and on that I wish you luck and suggest that you will find the resources here at Susan's a valuable asset on that journey. The spectrum of TG finds us on diffferent points and your journey will lead you to somewhere on that spectrum.

The people here and there own experiences will help you figure where in the spectrum you fit in. So I suggest you "try on" some of thse experiences and see which of those fit closest to you.

Good Luck Shelley

Hi Deanna,

I'm new to the forum.
I'm sorry that you are going thru all of this.  I can't imagine.  Loosing your home to a storm in all.  If you would like to chat/email we can talk.

Roberta

Just for clarification, I didn't structurally lose my home.  A little water soaked into the carpet but nothing more.  What did happen is that the place I worked, sustained moderate structural damage.  So when I told my mother what happened, she sent my friend down in a Diesel truck, with 2 fuel tanks and a 50 gallon drum of Diesel, to pick me up.

So, I emotionally lost my home but not physically.  Huntsville is where I'm from but I don't consider it home.  Mississippi is my home.

Deanna,

My hubby is TS and just been in transition for a little over a year now. Leah and I have shared Intro and posts here in Susan's Place. You can see if they relate and help with anything your experiencing. You are welcome to email either of us anytime.

As for your parents... There is a forum on her at Susan's Place for Significant Other's it includes parent's, sibilings, children and freinds. Maybe here your Dad can read and be educated through the forums and learn just what you and they will face in your future. I cna't begin to tell you in words sufficiently enough what this site has been for me. These are some of the greatest people I have ever been fortunate and pleasure to meet and exchange views with.

Do enjoy your path of transition and let anyone here know when you need an ear.

Peggiann

Hi Deanna,

Welcome to Susan's. I'm kinda like the official greeter at Wal Mart.(where's a yanking everybodys chain icon when you need one). Seriously though I do like greeting everyone when they join Susan's because it is a special place and I want to make everyone feel special because we are all special here at Susan's. So to you and everyone I may have missed( I am a busy girl) Fix yourself a cup of tea, or other relaxing beverage, sit down, take your shoes off and set a spell.

Good Journey,

Cassie