I've always wanted to date men...it's just I was to andro on the boy side to date a straight man and gay men literally laughed at me most of the time. But now, some men are really into me. It's strange. But I prolly won't ever date a woman again, though I do like this one woman, but she's pretty andro and dresses very butch. I think she was an FTM for a bit but changed back. I'd totally date an FTM. I'm pretty sure, no I'm positive, my ex-fiance is an FTM. She just receded deep in denial. I mean she told me she wanted to be a man. Ans she dated me. She told people I was her girlfriend and all her friends referred to me as she and us as dykes and they would even change in front of me. So that was awesome. But right now, as stupid as it is, because my mom today said I need to forget him and move on, all I want is for my ex to stop needing "his space" and wanting "to take a break," as he calls it. But I'm a little better than I have been recently. Gawd I'm so in love with him i'm such a sap. But I'm starting to think the break should be forever. I'm doing much better without him but I still want him oh so bad. I go to all these self-help women's dating sites reading about men annd breaks so I can better understand how men think but all I've realized is that I am in the same boat as so many other women. Woe is us lol I seriously do not understand men in any way. But I've always had a lot of male friends. But they always make jokes about ->-bleeped-<-ing me so there is that. I have a big butt that's where the jokes come from...well and the boobs. I wonder if that didn't happen and I was built different if I would be trans. I really do.