I know that dealing with this and keeping it inside is both mentally and emotionally draining, but has anyone else ever had it effect them physically?  The past two days I've had spells, usually when my mind is consumed with this, where I'll start shaking, getting weak in the knees, and on occasion light headed.  It worries me, but I think I'm just tired, very tired.  I know I need to get it out, but I'm not strong enough right now, I can't do it. 

Nothing quite so severe for me, but certainly holding it in and doing nothing (or not being able to do anything) about it can indeed make you feel wretched. I wonder though if you aren't experiencing some kind of anxiety attack? I'd strongly suggest finding someone who is a professional who can help you cope better and allow you to talk about what is going on for you.

Sometimes I feel I'm too weak to get out of bed. Other times I refuse to go out of the house. I'd skip lunch or dinner, and instead go to sleep, because 'what's the point?' (I stopped doing this thankfully).

Quote from: AlyssaRae89 on April 13, 2014, 06:14:04 AM
I know that dealing with this and keeping it inside is both mentally and emotionally draining, but has anyone else ever had it effect them physically?  The past two days I've had spells, usually when my mind is consumed with this, where I'll start shaking, getting weak in the knees, and on occasion light headed.  It worries me, but I think I'm just tired, very tired.  I know I need to get it out, but I'm not strong enough right now, I can't do it. 

Yes.  My depression and anxiety used to be physically debilitating.  I would get panic attacks and my breath would get so weak that I would have to sit down and catch my breath.  Like everything would get dizzy and I would feel like I was about to collapse.  And my heart would feel like it was about to stop because it was rapidly beating. Do you think you may be having some panic attacks?  They are terrible and I used to get them on a daily basis.  If that's the case, please get some kind of treatment for it.  It doesn't make you a bad persona and at least you can put yourself on the path of feeling better.  I'm sorry you are going through this and I hope it gets better.

Hugs,

Stress, skipping meals, not sleeping enough and constant disphoria added to the last straw I experianced. When the pain was constant and unstoppable then I had to make choices.

If you feel desperate to stop the pain get to an emergency room or do and intake.

I normally get 4-5 hours of sleep a night and catch up on the weekend. When I had an issue December 2013 I had very little sleep for weeks with some nights with no sleep. I felt I could not go on. Well, what I found out was I could go on but not denying who I am.

The good news is I did an intake, got a therapist and found Susan's. 

Thanks everyone for all of the input/advice on the matter.  I greatly appreciate you all taking the time.  It's nice to know it's not totally abnormal.  I think once I garner the strength to let this out, I'll be better.  If I can't do it soon, I'll certainly try to get some help to aleviate the anxiety.

Thank you
BIG HUGS all around 

Umm, well I have recently had an occurring thing where I do shake, mostly in the arms, and I feel so weak that I could faint. But I never actually did. I might get cold, and my fingers by the nails turn really blue. Idk if its the same thing as u, but this has happened to me a lot

Quote from: Sam314 on April 14, 2014, 02:10:09 PM
Umm, well I have recently had an occurring thing where I do shake, mostly in the arms, and I feel so weak that I could faint. But I never actually did. I might get cold, and my fingers by the nails turn really blue. Idk if its the same thing as u, but this has happened to me a lot

aside from the fingers turning blue, that's almost spot on with what's been happening to me.  I can feel the shaking in my sides too.  I'm really leaning towards panic attacks.