So this is the "I say some things about me, and you complain about my grammer space" So first things first, my name is Victoria 🙂 I live in England and ever since I can remember Iv always felt like I exist in the wrong body, I'm a pre hormone, pre op, transsexual? I question this because I'm still not sure that transexual is the right word for me. I used to look in the mirror and scrutinise myself looking for signs that might exsplain and/or justify how I felt. My erlyest memory however was being my big sisters dolly. Yes I enjoyed playing dress up with my sisters :p. Anyway school puberty/hell ever increasing depression, yada yada, Then Last year at 26. I came to the point that I could no longer go on living what felt like a lie, so streaming tears it took three days to finally tell my dad I was suffering greatly from what I know now to be reffered to as gender dysphoria. This last year has been a hard one with ups and downs but I feel much happier now I've started walking down this past instead only longing too. With how much better I feel I somtimes feel as though I don't need htr or the op, but then I see how much happier I look in the mirror, and remeber how I felt before, and remeber that the person I am today is a result of all the people I've been. And realise that transitioning is somthing I need because all the increased mood has been a direct effect of the acknowledgement of wear I'm going.
