We need to talk not text. Just call me when you get the opportunity. I can tell you this. You are making all kinds of excuses to keep the status quo and that isn't healthy. You have to take care of yourself.
You are hurting yourself. That's what you should consider. Loss is part of life.
There will always be some excuse you will find to avoid the truth.
I think you hate yourself more than anything else. You shouldn't though because it's nothing to be ashamed of.
Some of the texts my mom sent. Left my stuff out.