Thanks for the nice welcome, it DOES feel good. Just a bit about myself. I am 62 and spent my entire life running from an unknown aspect of myself. The 1950's did a # on me that caused things to get buried very deep. 35 years of drug use, prison, super elevated aggression (over compensation) and somehow I survived. After 18 yrs c/s the REAL awakening finally came. If all goes as planned I start HRT in 8 days. There is a light.