Quote from: Shantel on May 16, 2014, 08:44:44 PM
Uh - probably has something to do with the motives of others like the pretty little chickster in line ahead of me at Starbucks who was showing off her big diamond engagement ring to her wide eyed girlfriend as she said, "He makes a great income and can really take care of me!" I didn't hear the word "love" or anything like that mentioned in the conversation.

Possibly. I'd hate to think that so many women were shallow. =/ Not that men can't be shallow too. I wonder if part of it has to do with socialization...I think a lot of girls are raised to revere men as if they were some strange species, and then you couple that with the "fantasy" of finding the "good man" and settling down and having the white picket fence and the 2.4 kids...like women are taught that if you've achieved that, you've reached success and that's the goal.

It's completely impossible for me to understand. For me, the idea of being with a man was so completely abhorrent. If I chose that path, and my husband became a woman, it would seriously go like this:

Me to other people: yeah gotta stand by my man no matter what you know.
Me to my new wife: Let me play with your boobies later.

Quote from: Jill F on May 16, 2014, 08:50:04 PM
Ya know, I have no freaking clue.  My wife is pretty dudely/andro anyway, doesn't have religious or family hangups, kinda bisexual, truly my soulmate and said that she fell in love with a person and not a gender.  I'm really the same person, but just "new and improved" now.  I even have that "new girl smell" going for me.  The funny thing is that if she became "Ken" (yes, she said she would have wanted that name if she was a guy), I would have probably had to process that one for a bit but ulitmately I'd be fine with it.  Hell, she can already grow a way better 'stache than I can anyway.

My ex and I had that conversation...I wondered extensively what I would have done if it turned out she was FTM. I can't say for sure, because you don't know until these things happen, but I honestly think that if we stayed together, it would be the end of the sexual and physical relationship. But if she just had to get her breasts removed for something, and wasn't working towards a male appearance, I'd be OK - as long as the rest of her was all woman. Just like if a woman has a penis, I don't mind, as long as she is aesthetically female.

Quote from: Edge on May 16, 2014, 11:15:41 PM
On the subject of significant others, I have no idea. I imagine if I came out as trans to some of my cis male ex's, they'd have a huge problem with it though. Ironically, my most abusive ex is perfectly fine with me being trans.

I wonder if I should ask for hair advice or if that would make me seem too weird.

Funny you mention the hair thing, I've been thinking of asking people the same question but I don't know how to do that without showing my face.

It's weird how the most abusive person is OK with the trans thing. People are so surprising with this.

i'm thinking my new cami is super itchy o:

Our county commissioner is nuts. He came into the store this morning, told me I was a beautiful person and he loved me. I told him that if he were about to buy alcohol, I would have to refuse the sale.   

He doesn't drink, he's just hilariously crazy, just the kind of politician we really need. 

Quote from: defective snowflake on May 17, 2014, 05:06:50 PM
Our county commissioner is nuts. He came into the store this morning, told me I was a beautiful person and he loved me. I told him that if he were about to buy alcohol, I would have to refuse the sale.   

He doesn't drink, he's just hilariously crazy, just the kind of politician we really need.

Must be a real nice guy, we could use a lot more of him.

Quote from: Shantel on May 17, 2014, 06:05:11 PM
Must be a real nice guy, we could use a lot more of him.

And weirdly enough, he's republican...

I'm thinking I have to take my meds, but my bag is on the other side of my room so that will involve getting up and once I'm up I'm up. Now I'm thinking why did I put my bag there when I went to bed last night

Wow..my Tumblr account went downhill faast hahah

Quote from: defective snowflake on May 17, 2014, 06:10:12 PM
And weirdly enough, he's republican...

And obviously a real human being!

Quote from: Shantel on May 17, 2014, 06:21:35 PM
And obviously a real human being!

He's also a driving instructor for high school kids, so that kind of remains to be seen...

Quote from: defective snowflake on May 17, 2014, 06:39:11 PM
He's also a driving instructor for high school kids, so that kind of remains to be seen...

I had an answer all ready to post but thought better of it as it might be inflammatory, but I think I read your mind and where you were going. 

Quote from: Shantel on May 17, 2014, 06:46:01 PM
I had an answer all ready to post but thought better of it as it might be inflammatory, but I think I read your mind and where you were going. 

It likely wouldn't have bothered me. He's told me some of the things that happens when he's teaching them to drive and some of the stupid stuff they want him to teach them in the classroom. I'm not sure a real human being could deal with all that, lol.

Apt. living sucks, my goofy neighbors seem to always be getting up to some sort of monkey business that I'd rather not be bothered with

I'm glad I don't have an apartment in a barrel of monkeys. Not that trailer life in a tight park is any better.

Having a house and yard to maintain isn't a lot of fun at times either. But I don't have to put up with a lot of crap from anyone though.  Got the neighbors under my thumb...

I hate the word "hulled."

It's funny/weird when there's countless people around you could spend time with..and kiss and hold or whatever, really. Kinda whatever you want in a way. Every type, size, shape, background. Etc. And you're still...so  lonely. Cause they can touch you wherever you want on your body...but you really don't feel them when they're meaningless. It's like your in your own brain and every touch is just strange.

I guess I just wonder if it's me or them. Does everyone feel like that? I wanna meet that one person who makes me feel electric...like that..wow. But I kinda wonder if I can. Probably not. But one things for sure, being lonely has nothing to do with being alone...I'm just as lonely laying in bed next to someone who means nothing as I am home all by myself. So i think it's tricky to find the right person. Or maybe it's just all this time has made that part of me untouchable. Dunno

i'm thinking i gotta nothing to think about 

I'm thinking about what wine might go best with tandoori chicken.

If this sauvignon blanc doesn't work, maybe a chenin blanc?  I guess if all else fails, pinot noir goes with most things. 

I'm thinking, I've just started a post with the words I'm thinking, when the titel of the thred exsplains that, before you even read it. And that maybe its just some form of automatic responce in acordance to posting in, a what are you thinking thred. Now will I even reach the point I was going to make considering thought is as fluid as a fluid, yes I can't spell ocean so fluid is a fluid :p, is a smiley even a thought? Ok right so I should just get to the point already, but I can't because its what am I thinking not what was I thinking. , I think I over think far too much to be able to post here in a considered normal way. But i wanted too and I suppose posting what I was goiing to doesn't matter as long as I did what I set out to do I the forst place which was post here in the firstplace. So mabe I should just say what I was thinkingN even though it isn't active thought now, yes I will but ill seperate it from the thought since it isn't exacly current?
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Well coming away from my endlessly fluid thoughts, I was thinking I have absoloutly no Idea I bout wine and can't apreciate Jills dilenmma. 

Quote from: Jill F on May 17, 2014, 09:36:45 PM
I'm thinking about what wine might go best with tandoori chicken.

If this sauvignon blanc doesn't work, maybe a chenin blanc?  I guess if all else fails, pinot noir goes with most things.

(I think) something with a berry or heavy fruity flavor, pinot if you're into red or Gewurztraminer if you like white