Hello ,
I guess there is no point in this topic , just a need to vent and try to accept what the life is giving to me ..
I had FFS on first day of May and it was really a traumatic experience , mostly emotionally . After the bandages were removed , I just couldn't see myself in the mirror , the face there , beside being swollen , didn't made me feel like I saw myself .
After maybe a little more than a week , I was happy because I could see myself in the mirror again .
On May 12 I had my nose cast removed and I could see my face entirely free . It was so cute , the same me , yet feminized exactly how I wished .
Now I feel like the nose of my tip doesn't stay that lifted anymore and after searching something about that it seems that it is normal to drop a little after the swelling decreases and also it may drop because of the surgery itself .
I am just so depressed , I liked it so much after the nose cast was removed , ten days ago . It is cute now too but I am worried not to drop even more . I don't have money for another surgery .
I am worried that I will hurt it myself doing all kind of taping like I saw in some online videos . I just hope it will stabilize it a little , although many say that it will not help .
I don't want to say anything about the surgeon , because it may be something normal or , maybe I even am a little mistaken about the scale of the dropping and the problem it is not so serious . Yet it really contribute to my deep depression . Hopefully , it will not be affected even more by me .