I've been having some health issues to where every night my heart starts to race and my mind comes very close to shutting down. its gotten so bad that i will stay up all night till my body it self makes me sleep. i'm just afraid of not waking up. the one thing is that my GF is already having probs of her own being a MtF and having fam issues so i haven't told her. i have seen a doctor (i told my GF i went for a bike ride instead to keep her from worrying and i feel bad for lying but i don't want her to stress out) But the last two times i saw him he couldn't find anything wrong.i am truly scared out of my mind and i think she is starting to see it. i know she will find this sooner or later and read it but i need to know....i think i should tell her but...i just dont know. should i? and how?

Given she's going to see this, yes you should tell her.

Well that was an interesting way of telling me. O.o I really wish I could make you feel better. But I have no idea about what it could be.  But I'm not remotely mad at you for lying about it. I don't think it was necessary. I just wish I could help you feel better. If only they were giving you some answers or at least ideas or possible solutions.

Hi Li, you may be exibiting signs of depression with anxiety attacks. Not being able to sleep because you are scared that you will not wake is one sign. Can I ask you do you have random thoughs and worries bombarding you so you can focus on anything for long, you can focus even on a TV program?

no i can easily concentrate without any issues but even with anxiety i could so its hard to tell. but i haven't had really anything serious happen recently to cause anxiety. but my heart racing and brain trying to shut down is  causing anxiety on its own and its making it worse. and its always during the night just before i got to lay down. i have changed my diet and started even exercising more but nothing has changed it. but i do have a question....could a lot of anger cause it?

Anxiety attacks; panic attacks; or just really stressed (mental or physical). Once the cycle starts it can be hard to break. My partner often gets stabbing pains in chest - but everything checks out healthy. Worry and suppressed emotions seem to be her trigger. Salt imbalances; hydration and relaxation techniques all help.

A homeopath doctor might be able to help rebalance your system.

I'm not a qualified doctor, but it sounds exactly like generalized anxiety- something I battled years ago and beat it.

My suggestion is read some books on anxiety and check your diet. This is no joke.. What you eat is an enormous trigger for this sort of thing and getting a hold on your diet/health will give you a sense of control over your life that nothing else can do. I had to cut out all caffeine, cut back on sugar, be mindful of not eating too close to bedtime, and not trying to fall asleep on the left side (as it puts more pressure on the heart and you can hear it easier - sleep on your right side if you can).

Primarily I found the biggest issue to be a loss of a sense of control over my body, which lead to me feeling trapped in my own body... Not a good feeling- it sent me to the ER a couple of times with the heart thing and dead brain exactly as you mentioned.

Don't give up, and do understand that you CANNOT die from having anxiety. Your body is not a timebomb, it will act and react accordingly to keep you alive and ticking- you can COUNT on that! So rest easy.

This is all easier said than done, which is why I suggest you go to a library and take out a few books about anxiety- I have a few I can suggest if you are interested.

Panic attacks debilitated me, but it is curable- I am living proof

We are here for you, and especially I will be here for you. You will have to relearn how to trust your body. It is likely that no doctor or medication will be able to help you, the best way to do it is behaviorally. Time to take control of your life and feel better!

Ok i got a call and the doctor still couldn't find anything. so i decided to take a trip to a psychiatrist and we talked for a while at girst she asked about my life and everything seems to check out find. she then asked about my love life and that too was fine...until i mentioned that my girl has the same birthday as my father. i told her i thought it was funny and cool and she asked "How does my father like it?" i told her he passed away 8 years ago and she asked me when.....but that was the thing trying my best i couldn't remember when. so she told me to either call her office or visit when i can. it was bugging me not being able to remember my dads date of death. so i asked my mother who i felt bad for asking while she was sick today and she told me it was the thirteenth.....of June (this month).  so i told the psych and she then came up with that i am having suppressed memory's and though i myself cant think of them my inner self/conscious can so it is putting me into a depression. i was told to take things easy and to avoid certain situations if i can.