Hello everyone!

I'm sorry to do this, but i just need somewhere to dump my thoughts! My usual friends are lovely, but there are some things they just can't understand. This will mainly be a rant, so brace yourselves and put your helmets on!

I am 19 and am 5 weeks into HRT. I am loving everything so far (some skin improvements and my nipples hurt a lot so presumably breasts are growing!) but there is this one hurdle I can't seem to get over. I hate my height! I hated it as a boy and I REALLY hate it as a girl. I am 6 foot 7 inches tall, I try to be proud of my height and I try to remember people who inspire me when i feel down (Breanne of Tarth, Wonder Woman etc) but..it's really REALLY hard not to end up hating myself for it! I have an incredibly slender frame with some female hips that I have been complimented on! But I am sick of being laughed at, or having comments made about. Plus, it's a dead give away, it's so difficult to try and just blend in and live as a woman when people are instantly noticing you.

The other day I was waiting at the bus stop and a group of young girls kept pointing and laughing. Normally I'm able to rise above it, but this time it really shook me. I just wanted to run away and cry, but even then I would look ridiculous, lumbering my way back home like some ogre that stubbed it's toe.

I realise I'm not convincing, I just feel like this is my huge flaw, and it's not one that can be fixed with an operation or hormones!

This is me 5 weeks into hormones:



I'm sorry to just rant, but I feel terrible and I don't really know who to cry to!

Thanks for your time,
Elizabeth

*hugs*

If it helps, I think tall women are beautiful. While I started out wishing to be shorter, I'm actually becoming envious of taller women now.

And you look very pretty in your photo, by the way. I like your hair.

I totally understand your thoughts. I do know one transgirl at 6' 5" who compensates by wearing college or professional female basketball shirts and it kind of makes people think hmm, basketball player. I am by no means trying to treat your concerns with any unkindness or insensitivity at all. I just know it works for her. There is nothing wrong with being tall and young girls laugh at everything. Your pictures just remind me of a female athlete. Use it to your advantage. By the way you are looking good for only 5 weeks into HRT. You will get there sweetie just ignore them as hard as that is sometimes. I know none of this helps, but I just wanted to let you know someone does care about you. As long as you love yourself no one else matters. 

Oh wow, that is quite tall! But hey, like Jessica said, got that whole female athlete look, even if you aren't into sports or anything, no one has to know that, just that that could be the possibility. But I can see how the height could be a dysphoric issue. How to you carry yourself, like standing, walking, ect.? Because when it comes down to it, body language can be a major deciding factor on how people perceive you. People are always telling me how tall I am (I'm only around 5'10") and yet I see plenty of women much taller than I, but I suppose just like yourself, they got to hear it a lot more than I do (it drives me crazy by the way; 5'5" would have been an ideal height for me).

Once again but my sisters best friend is the shortest of the girls in her family at 6'. the tallest at 6'5". There really are tall cis women out there.

Amazons rock!I wish I'd been able to transition at 19 but I put it off til 33.You're very attractive I bet these girls were all mingers.Look forward a few years you'll be a glamourous woman.I'm a mere 6'1 and a half tall girls are stunning

Hey there,

First of all, congrats for starting so young !

Second, I think with time you will turn out just fine. Am 5'10 'only' but in the country where I live that's really tall, I can be in a mall and watch dozens of people around, and there's no one taller. I've been on the lookout for taller than me girls in the last 6 months, and have only seen 2 -_-. I will find maybe one or two guys taller than me if I go out a whole day. Still, those few girls I've seen sure draw attention, but then what's the big deal? For them there does not seem to be any, they carry themselves in a femenine way, wear womanly clothes, and look just girly. They are just tall women like you living their lives.

Fizzletwist, prayer is powerful.

I'm agnostic, so I used to think I couldn't pray, but I learned to pray to the strength inside myself, and it works just as well.

Can you pray to be able to accept yourself as the beautiful person you are?

I.e. every time you feel yourself getting down about your height (or any other card nature dealt your way), pray "please let me accept myself as the wonderful, beautiful, unique person I am". Pray "please give me the courage to look these negative thoughts in the face and deny them." Pray "please give me wisdom to understand my personal beauty and uniqueness includes all parts of me."

I hope this helps you. It really helps me.

your very pretty. I live across the street from a Big 10 university and there are a bunch of beautiful, tall female athletes running around . Every time I see them in Starbucks I go ga ga

I just remembered . the hospital I go to has a female physician your height. the time I saw her I went whoa! She's pretty

Hun, i've seen some seriously gorgeous women in my area that literally placed a shade over me lol and I'm 6'1", ive seen girls that are 6'5 and 6'7, and i even have austrian cousins (cisfemale cousins) that are 7"!!!!!! and they look 100% naturally female, long arms and long legs and all. Not saying that this is you at all, but have you considered maybe your walk? or the way you carry yourself? By the looks of your face and hair, you look very pretty ~ your hair makes me jealous lol I love it! and your face is very soft looking too, I bet you look even prettier when you're all glammed out and in your best outfit. Your height should not play a factor in giving you away unless you have the arms or legs or overall "body builder" type of body to give yourself away, and judging by your picture and what you said, you're slender ~ so like i said before, maybe its your walk? or your posture? these little things go a long way in your presentation

For all I know maybe you already have it all down to a natural action, but if you dont, perhaps consider that as a contributing factor. But I've seen cisgirls your height who look beautiful, in fact, often times their height gives them that more "exotic" beauty look. Don't stress about height I use to feel like my height was going to be my downfall lol, but you should consider that German girls are some of the tallest girls in the world lol, people are just stupid punks sometimes, believe me, i would know -_- don't know if you read my post about being blatantly misgendered and not knowing why, but i've seen how people can be just impossibly rude -_- they're just immature and miserable inside so much so that they have to belittle others to make their existence feel like it has purpose, even though deep down they know they are terrible.

I can't thank you all enough for your lovely words! I have to admit, i was feeling really down about it all...but reading these posts has made my day, no, my week!

I was told this was a special place when I first started posting, you beautiful girls have proven that right here!

Thank you :3

Anytime Sis! It is not a site, but a family!! 

start a blog. find a free blog website. mark it adult themed though, and you can fire profanity 360 degrees.
i felt less Lewis Black and more like the Dali Lama after i did mine. if your having a lewis black on meltdown day, it really helps,,,

EM

When I got out of college back in the Pre-Jurasiac era I was 6ft tall in a world of 5'4" women. I know your pain well from my experiments with transitioning. Teenage girls are the worse when it comes to pointing and laughing right in your face.

You may be tall but from your head shot and description of your physic I'd say you are doing great. Being tall you will stand out and get looked at. One thing I have come to change is how I feel when they do. Thanks to actually gaining some self esteem I tend to think they see a good looking woman, for an old bat.

Getting some self esteem after 50 years of feeling ashamed of myself was not easy. It took work, tears, a great TG group and few angels. I am glad I walked down this path once again. I found joy

I realize I'm not exactly going to be helpful when I say this, but stand tall and own it. You are tall and beautiful, and you will not bow down. Women who project this aura impress me, and I'm sure it would have the same effect on others.

Yep I agree you should just do your best to own it. If you don't feel confident, pretend to. You are a pretty lady and you just happen to be super tall. A lot of people are intimidated by that, and they will assume you to be awesome. It may help give you latitude when it comes to other social things.

I know you've probably heard this before, but still -

Standing tall pays off, study finds
July/August 2004, Vol 35, No. 7
Print version: page 14

When it comes to height, every inch counts--in fact, in the workplace, each inch above average may be worth $789 more per year, according to a study in the Journal of Applied Psychology (Vol. 89, No. 3).
The findings suggest that someone who is 6 feet tall earns, on average, nearly $166,000 more during a 30-year career than someone who is 5 feet 5 inches--even when controlling for gender, age and weight.

http://www.apa.org/monitor/julaug04/standing.aspx

This reminds me of a study I found in a on paper business review a few months ago (cannot find it here today as of now, but the study does exist) going about how the big companies' CEO's height in USA and Europe are for the most part, about '5 taller than the average for their ethnicity/gender.