i cant believe this. its like waking up on christmas and finding what you wanted most under the tree. i'm literally jumping up and down giggling. i found found that answer. though i hate to admit it but it was from being diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. now i can finally take the right steps. only thing is that me being transgendered may be called in question but that i'm not worried about. guess that seed i planted finally decided to sprout. I FEEL SO FRIGGIN HAPPY for real this time. i cant tell you how sry i am for all the trouble i caused you guys. my journey of self doubt and regret is over. i can finally step on the right path. just cant believe my answer was in my face, i just didnt look in the most obvious place

Great to hear! I hope you stay happy and smiling.

i still dont like the idea of going on anti-depressants but i'm willing to try it again