Quote from: Shantel on June 19, 2014, 08:49:28 PM
So cool, what an opportunity and you present yourself as an asset to this man which can only come back as a blessing to you eventually.

I'm working hard to build up my contacts right now, the other week I had a meeting with a deputy manager to discuss promoting this group (he did plant the seed in me last year, so he's eager). Next week me & the two women working to get this going are meeting with the LGBT representative for this town.

Last year whilst in the hostel I realised that the charity had an LGBT group in London but o real LGBT inclusion in my town, I brought this up at a directors meeting early this year & they listened. I was invited to their LGBT AGM & moments after I walked through the door i'd been given a budget to get a group running.

Whilst I think of it i'd like to say publicly Thank you to FTM Diaries for all the work you put in on the poster for the group I hope you like my choice of font there 

Watched George Carlin "Life is Worth Losing". He's way too funny!

Payday today, and after I paid my therapist for my upcoming session, I'm going to need it.....

I know this sounds strange because I love my ex SO more than anyone can possibly know, but I'm actually relieved it is finally over between us mainly because I found out she only loved me for what I could give her, or do for her. Now I'm not broke every day, I get in at a decent hour, and have more time for work and play. But the absolute best thing that makes me the most happy about things is, I no longer have to worry if she'll actually commit to a life with another woman her being straight when I met her nearly 5 years ago. It's difficult to put it into words, and, many of you may think I'm crazy for feeling this way if I love her so much, but it's a genuine relief not to have this worry in the back of my mind anymore, which in turn makes me a very happy girl.

Now I'm free to concentrate on finding a very special lesbian girl to spend the rest of my life with! Happy happy happy!!

Ally

Quote from: Allyda on June 20, 2014, 12:52:07 AM
I know this sounds strange because I love my ex SO more than anyone can possibly know, but I'm actually relieved it is finally over between us mainly because I found out she only loved me for what I could give her, or do for her. Now I'm not broke every day, I get in at a decent hour, and have more time for work and play. But the absolute best thing that makes me the most happy about things is, I no longer have to worry if she'll actually commit to a life with another woman her being straight when I met her nearly 5 years ago. It's difficult to put it into words, and, many of you may think I'm crazy for feeling this way if I love her so much, but it's a genuine relief not to have this worry in the back of my mind anymore, which in turn makes me a very happy girl.

Now I'm free to concentrate on finding a very special lesbian girl to spend the rest of my life with! Happy happy happy!!



Ally

I'm very happy for you Allyda it great to feel free and to be able to be yourself, my life has also become richer after my ex leaving me it's good to be able to concentrate on our own lives rather than having to satisfy others who are just here for the ride.

Had a nice chat with my GP today. Such a nice person.
It's her fault.....

Looks like I will get some spending money for my Manila so I might actually have a good time.

That is unless I am kidnaped.

Quote from: Jayne on June 19, 2014, 09:08:17 PM
I'm working hard to build up my contacts right now, the other week I had a meeting with a deputy manager to discuss promoting this group (he did plant the seed in me last year, so he's eager). Next week me & the two women working to get this going are meeting with the LGBT representative for this town.

Last year whilst in the hostel I realised that the charity had an LGBT group in London but o real LGBT inclusion in my town, I brought this up at a directors meeting early this year & they listened. I was invited to their LGBT AGM & moments after I walked through the door i'd been given a budget to get a group running.

Whilst I think of it i'd like to say publicly Thank you to FTM Diaries for all the work you put in on the poster for the group I hope you like my choice of font there 

Jayne, you've come a long way since those dismal days at the hostel when you were surrounded by so much uncertainty, and now you have established yourself as a credible woman there, I know it's been a struggle and I am pleased for you!

Quote from: Megumi on June 19, 2014, 08:57:25 PM
I had to go to court and "fight" to legally change my name & gender marker on my ID and Birth Certificate and also applied for a new social security card. Today has quite possibly been the greatest day ever and my mom joined me in experiencing this day in person which made things even better. I have a new birth certificate with the right name and gender, my ID has a picture of a beautiful woman smiling.

What is really sticking with me is the lady at the DMV remembered me from my former name and old ID picture from 3 years ago after I gave her my court order and old ID. Her words after taking my picture for the new ID was "WOW! Come around the counter and look at your new picture! This is amazing!!!!"

Once the ID printed out we compared the two and WOW times infinity is all I can say. My old ID I couldn't even smile and looked miserable and in my new one you'd think you just saw the happiest woman alive.

What a day what a day what a day and I'm so happy that my mom was able to be with me and experience all the greatness, kindness & acceptance from so many random people today. She has been so afraid I'm going to be seen as some kind of monster by the public and the reality is I blend in just fine and I shine brightly in the process. People just love to talk to me and that's something that could NEVER be said of me for the first 29 9/10ths years that I was alive.

The day I went down to the courthouse to change my name, my mom was with me too. I didn't have any issues though, just filled out a form requesting the name change, paid the fee, and that was it. I was shocked at how easy it was for me, then I got a new social security card with my new name to match. I can't wait (well I'm going to have to) until I can see that change of gender mark too (someday), I thought I was happy about the whole name thing, that'd having me jumping around cheering while at the same time crying waterfalls of overwhelming (and very welcomed) joy (I'd probably faint from all the excitement), it'd mean that I made it to my destination.

Feels good don't it? I see that big smile on the character in your avatar pic (like she went through a major ordeal but finally won out in the end; Yes! I did it!), yeah, you look so happy. 

We're getting some decent rain for a change. Hopefully, it will knock down some of this stupid heat.

Quote from: Emily.T on June 20, 2014, 03:04:38 AM
I'm very happy for you Allyda it great to feel free and to be able to be yourself, my life has also become richer after my ex leaving me it's good to be able to concentrate on our own lives rather than having to satisfy others who are just here for the ride.

Thanks Emily. Though she hurt me extremely I've decided to keep my head up high and move on to greener pastures. I've also decided to sell my house/property and maybe move up with some friends for a while to get my head straight before deciding where I really want to go. While there's some urgency to it I'll need to look into what kind of TG support and care I'll get medically while staying with my friends as it's in a different state, then I'll most likely head for my home state of California probably a around a year from now. I have another friend I plan to stop and visit also do some fishing (and definitely some shopping, lol! -You know who you are!) with on the way out there so it will be kind of like a mini adventure getting home to Cali. I'm finally happy for the first time in many years and able to live as me. So I do not intend to waste any more time with a girlfriend who only loves me for what I can do for, get for, or $$'s I can give her. I've got a lot of good years left in me and I'm starting to look pretty good despite my age (I feel like I'm 29 again though!) and can still rock a mini skirt so I'm going to live free!

Ally

Quote from: Allyda on June 20, 2014, 08:00:18 PM
Thanks Emily. Though she hurt me extremely I've decided to keep my head up high and move on to greener pastures. I've also decided to sell my house/property and maybe move up with some friends for a while to get my head straight before deciding where I really want to go. While there's some urgency to it I'll need to look into what kind of TG support and care I'll get medically while staying with my friends as it's in a different state, then I'll most likely head for my home state of California probably a around a year from now. I have another friend I plan to stop and visit also do some fishing (and definitely some shopping, lol! -You know who you are!) with on the way out there so it will be kind of like a mini adventure getting home to Cali. I'm finally happy for the first time in many years and able to live as me. So I do not intend to waste any more time with a girlfriend who only loves me for what I can do for, get for, or $$'s I can give her. I've got a lot of good years left in me and I'm starting to look pretty good despite my age (I feel like I'm 29 again though!) and can still rock a mini skirt so I'm going to live free!

Ally

You go girl. Hugs.xx

I was on the bus and across from me, this guy was holding another guy's hand and he was praying for him.  He prayed with him at least two times.  That made me happy.

Quote from: King Malachite on June 21, 2014, 12:25:14 AM
I was on the bus and across from me, this guy was holding another guy's hand and he was praying for him.  He prayed with him at least two times.  That made me happy.

I've never seen it. But I remember when I had a panic attack once some guy came up to me while I was walking and asked if he could pray for me. I said sure why not, lol, and he held my hand and said a prayer. It was awfully comforting and a very kind gesture.

I gave away all of my heavy duty gardening equipment to a charity group so they could sell them, chainsaw, slasher, mulcher, wheel barrow and petrol blower. They asked if there was a particular group I would like them to donate to, I said for the help of trans*youth, I then had to explain what being TG meant in life.

A pot of tea later a new charity was formed.

I am one happy girl

Quote from: Cindy on June 21, 2014, 02:31:22 AM
I gave away all of my heavy duty gardening equipment to a charity group so they could sell them, chainsaw, slasher, mulcher, wheel barrow and petrol blower. They asked if there was a particular group I would like them to donate to, I said for the help of trans*youth, I then had to explain what being TG meant in life.

A pot of tea later a new charity was formed.

I am one happy girl

That's very kind of you Cindy your such a lovely hearted woman xx

Quote from: Emily.T on June 21, 2014, 05:37:00 AM
That's very kind of you Cindy your such a lovely hearted woman xx

She is, but knowing Cindy she had an ulterior motive like when my spouse gave her iron away to some missionary who needed an iron, I knew that she hates ironing with a passion, shortly after that all the clothes that needed ironing went to Goodwill and were replaced by wash and wear no ironing needed clothes.

I had to run a few errands today and everywhere I went I was treated like a normal woman. I'm not talking about just passing. This is different. It's hard to put it into words how happy this made me!

Ally

I got to see and talk to some friends at my friend's wedding dance.
I found out that one of my newer friends didn't know I was trans. By this, I mean he thought I had a Y chromosome. That's pretty cool.
I was also really glad to see him because I took an instant liking to him. Ever meet those people where, the first time you meet them, you feel like you've been good friends forever? He's one of those. I'm probably being weird.
Oh yeah and his response to finding out I'm trans was to be very curious and start asking me questions. I love answering questions, curiosity is a personality trait I share and admire, and he's also interested in brains.
Another of my friends came up to talk to me a few times and, before I left, he told me that he considers me kindred.

Quote from: birkin on June 21, 2014, 01:31:29 AM
I've never seen it. But I remember when I had a panic attack once some guy came up to me while I was walking and asked if he could pray for me. I said sure why not, lol, and he held my hand and said a prayer. It was awfully comforting and a very kind gesture.

Awwww how sweet of him!  This guy had apparently lost his cell phone and the other guy was praying that he would be reunited with it.

Celebrating my 29th Wedding Anniversary today.  Never thought we would get this far, but we have, and we are now better than ever.   The Universe has blessed my life.

Aisla