Transition is the hardest thing I've ever done, but it has been worth it, and it is the best thing that I have ever done for myself; I'm happier then I ever have been. It's normal to have doubts, and to second guess ourselves, that's how we make sure we are doing the right thing. Always follow your heart, and do what is best for you. And if you decide that you do not want to proceed with your transition, that is entirely your decision. We only want you to be happy.