So a moment ago my mom blurts out something, sounding fragmented with the noise from the movie she just put on, "You know what I like...lately....cussing." I'm like huh? "No cussing." What're you talking about? "You. You haven't been cussing." Oh! Yeah, I've been trying not to. She's like "good, because its not very becoming." Hearing the F word or something else all the time. Then says sure, she's not perfect, but she don't use those words all the time and in every sentence. I just smiled. Well, at least she noticed, because I've been trying really hard to keep the potty mouth restrained, guess I'm doing good. 

Quote from: Megan Joanne on July 04, 2014, 01:37:34 PM
So a moment ago my mom blurts out something, sounding fragmented with the noise from the movie she just put on, "You know what I like...lately....cussing." I'm like huh? "No cussing." What're you talking about? "You. You haven't been cussing." Oh! Yeah, I've been trying not to. She's like "good, because its not very becoming." Hearing the F word or something else all the time. Then says sure, she's not perfect, but she don't use those words all the time and in every sentence. I just smiled. Well, at least she noticed, because I've been trying really hard to keep the potty mouth restrained, guess I'm doing good. 

Atta gal, I'm working on that one too. Like your new avatar photo, smoking hot chickster! 

Thank you. 

A friend who I had come out to about a month ago had since said they thought they might be trans as well. Today she told me that I inspired her to come out to her family and friends because I was trying to be my authentic self despite all the obstacles in my way. It's an unbelievable sensation to be someone's inspiration!

Quote from: Shantel on July 04, 2014, 01:48:57 PM
Atta gal, I'm working on that one too. Like your new avatar photo, smoking hot chickster! 

I agree your new Avatar Megan is simply stunning!

Ally

Looking in the mirror and eating another peach.

Quote from: FTMDiaries on July 04, 2014, 09:13:55 AM
I've held off on posting this because I wasn't sure whether I wanted to post it here or in the 'unhappy and happy at the same time' thread... because it all started off pretty darn unhappily with a family argument and some major upset.

But I've decided I don't want to dwell on the unhappy details. The important thing is: my youngest daughter, who as I reported on Wednesday morning seems to be starting to accept my transition, actually called me a man during a family conversation on Wednesday night. This is the first time she's ever done this, and it was a momentous occasion.

Her exact words were: "You're a man who likes to do things his own way". That's pretty darn unambiguous, and my whole family spotted that she'd done it. A little while later, my ex cornered me in the kitchen and said that he'd noticed that she'd called me a man and that he thought it was a very promising step forward.

I agree. A very promising step forward for all of us.

This is a really big deal. Congratulations.

I actually clicked on this thread thinking it would push me into noticing something happy, and I guess it did. Mostly music and hearing how other people are doing.

My mom told me I was beautiful.  It doesn't matter how pretty I actually feel.  Knowing that my mother thought that I was beautiful after seeing me as a woman for the first time was absolutely one of the happiest moments in my life. 

That's awesome FilaFord 

Quote from: FilaFord on July 05, 2014, 12:24:16 AM
My mom told me I was beautiful.  It doesn't matter how pretty I actually feel.  Knowing that my mother thought that I was beautiful after seeing me as a woman for the first time was absolutely one of the happiest moments in my life. 

That is great Fila. Your Mom must be a special lady. I can only imagine how elated you feel after hearing those words from your Mom.

I wish my biological Mom was alive to see the beautiful woman I'm becoming.

My very best wishes to you! <3

Ally

Fireworks. We just walked around the neighborhood instead of going downtown or across the river, and we watched some from overpasses. Then we followed in the direction of some of the biggest ones, and we ended up at a large gathering in the parking lot of a school. My kid was scared, but we didn't walk too close to the ground ones. Then some cops showed up and it became apparent that the event wasn't licensed or whatever, so we came home. It was fun, though.

Quote from: FilaFord on July 05, 2014, 12:24:16 AM
My mom told me I was beautiful.  It doesn't matter how pretty I actually feel.  Knowing that my mother thought that I was beautiful after seeing me as a woman for the first time was absolutely one of the happiest moments in my life. 

I tend to agree with her, glad she can see it too!

My "Dad" finally moved away, he didn't bother to tell me he was moving the next day, he told me he'd keep me up to date but didn't, I'd planned to have him give me one more ride to the grocery store so I'd be good for another month, didn't happen. So, why does this make me happy?

The truth is, I have some really kind neighbors who are VERY understanding of my circumstances/financial situation/how far I'd have to walk and how long it'd take me to get there/back, thus, they said they'd give me a ride to/from the grocery store and today, they did just that, BUT WAIT! THERE'S MORE! Even though they're Christians and have said a few things to me that have me concerned for the future should I transition in front of them (My life won't be in danger, just they'd try and talk me out of it) unlike my "Dad" they let me bring my purse, they have seen me with nail polish on (On a different day) and they even heard my female voice too! When I got back, they helped me get the groceries inside and were saying things that says they'll take me again. I don't know how long they'd be willing to do this tbh and I don't want to depend on them forever but my financial/circumstances are making it difficult to get a car+ be able to afford to save up for stuff, including transition so having to pay for the insurance and then some would sadly, put me out by too much. Plus, unless my "Dad" helps me GET a car+pay for the lessons and such then I'd take me years to save up for it as things are right now.

So while I'm uncertain of the future, things are looking good atm and I hope they stay that way. Oh and, I even saved money on my groceries this month too.

EDIT: Ok, just got to say this, it was SOOO NICE being able to carry my purse with me on grocery shopping day as well as SOOO NICE being able to call the person giving me a ride and use my female voice. (Before when I called I'd have to hide in a corner with cart in toe to call the person giving me the ride and use my male voice) Shame it wasn't my "Dad" but hey, this was still awesome!

a person has offered to draw the design of the suit one of the fanfic characters I have in my story-that totally blew me away

FIFA World Cup.  What a spectacle, drama, skill and excitement.  Costa Rica v The Netherlands was sublime.  Hard to believe that 22 men trying to place a ball through posts at the other end of a football pitch produces such passion, such magic.

I found my penny that fell out of my pocket.  It has been added to my top surgery fund.

Eyeliner, even applied badly, ensured that I got more miss and ma'am from customers than sir today.

I am almost done cleaning my room. I just need to vacuum and organize my dresser.
My boyfriend is coming over tuesday.

Well, more yesterday than today, it's still kinda early.

I was in Manhattan on 9/11 and haven't been able to go south of 14th without a panic attack since.

Yesterday we went to Economy Candy in the Bowery for hopjes, then to Chinatown, then down to the foot of Manhattan and over near the Freedom Tower. No panic attacks! After that we went up near Columbia to the Hungarian Pastry Shop for pastries and coffee. On the way home we stopped at Sephora where I got samples of six new moisturizers and a new beard cream, (I still have to shave   ). It is SO GOOD! My face feels so smooth and the stubborn spot on my neck is smooth, too! What a wonderful day!

Quote from: Dee Walker on July 06, 2014, 08:49:11 AM
Well, more yesterday than today, it's still kinda early.

I was in Manhattan on 9/11 and haven't been able to go south of 14th without a panic attack since.

Yesterday we went to Economy Candy in the Bowery for hopjes, then to Chinatown, then down to the foot of Manhattan and over near the Freedom Tower. No panic attacks! After that we went up near Columbia to the Hungarian Pastry Shop for pastries and coffee. On the way home we stopped at Sephora where I got samples of six new moisturizers and a new beard cream, (I still have to shave   ). It is SO GOOD! My face feels so smooth and the stubborn spot on my neck is smooth, too! What a wonderful day!

Sounds like you may be getting past the panic attack phase. It must have been horrific, I know I still get all teary eyed whenever I see a film clip of that event.